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.Friday, August 24, 2007 ' 1:14 PM Y

I'm so tired, so exhausted and i'm numbed with everything that surrounds me
Nothing's ever going smoothly for me right now; everything within me is in a mess
Problems occuring one after another, piling on top of one another combining into a major shit
I really wonder why is this all happening to me?

They say, "after every hurdle of obstacles it makes you grow stronger"
but how long can i remain that way?
I can no longer take it further; i'm going crazy

I thank god for blessing a miracle on me..
He knew how badly i needed money right now and how god damn broke i was..
He blessed me with luck and made me the highest upseller which means my pay will be much more this month and i don't have to scrimp and save

4more freaking days to go before PAY DAY..
It has been killing me waiting aimlessly for my pay.
Nobody will ever know how torturous it was

Would anyone know how it feels when you worked extremely hard for your money and knowing that you have got the capital and the ability to spend but suddenly one day an uneventful thing befalls on you and taadaa all your hardearn money that you've worked for month's gone and without knowing you are left with a 100bucks to spend when your pay is like 3 weeks away? That is fucking depressed.

I'm sorry people i know this is a sucky post but i can't post something proper when my emotion's unstable. I need to break free and i'm awaiting for the month of december to arrive and end.. WHY? Cause 2007 sucks big time for me and i need a new year with plenty of changes to be made.

will you catch her when she falls ;


.Wednesday, August 08, 2007 ' 12:56 PM Y

Stacie Orrico "I'm Not Missing You"
..and it describes her current mood right now

Be back for updates again

she's trying to open up.. to you that is

will you catch her when she falls ;


.Thursday, August 02, 2007 ' 12:56 PM Y

f*ck the word trust ;
i can never place my trust and have stopped trusting people.

f*ck the word friends ;
you can have plenty of friends but the one who are true are really limited
everyone might seems genunine yet made of plastic

f*ck the word jealousy ;
cause i swear it kills.

i don't get it why do people wants to get close to you when everything's just so fake?
they don't get to gain or benefit anything from it.
and i read people's behaviour. i give no fuck care attitude to you if you are one fucking shit.

give me a god damn break and leave me alone.
can't i be in peace and live in my little own world

i'm just counting down..
to the days of freedom and finding back my happy bug that i lost for months.

will you catch her when she falls ;


DEFINE HER LIFE;

when simplicity meets complexity ♥




UNDERSTAND HER;

seeking the imperfections within ♥
m i ss y b l u rr y
28th M a r c h
being EMO is her thing

MAKE HER HAPPY ;

a smile that forms ♥
+ loved ones ; besties
+ EMO songs
+ gettaway vacations
+ diamonds
+ cam-whoring
+ shopping spree
+ dark chocolates
+ precious moments
+ linkin park
+ PINK BLACK WHITE PURPLE

NOTHING COMES EASY ;

everyone needs to be pampered ♥
* to be happy
* lose weight
* back to gym
* kickboxing sessions
* a different hairstyle
* hair treatment
* new spectacles
* dior addict ii
* v.s. fragrance
* samsung cellphone
* dkny watch
* coach scarf stripe wrislet
* ...scarf stripe swingpack
* coach signature large tote
* her 'diploma'
* obtain a degree
* enrol in local uni
* take up german language
* gettaway trip to..
>> #Bangkok
<< #Taiwan
>> #New Zealand
<< #Korea
>> #Japan
<< #Switzerland

SPARKLE HER LIFE ;

keep her entertained ♥



MEMORIES THATS LEFT WITHIN ;

every lil things happen for a reason ♥