when the mind feels uncertained, the heart seemed unclear

brain's currently dead; no quotes for today's entry

~~LONG~~ ENTRY AHEAD

Snappiies ~~OVERLOADED~~

..read only if u've the patience'

havent been sleeping well lately & i suspect i'm suffering from insomia *sobs! dammit & my stupid eye bag's worsening. someone helppp me pls *beauty tips for eyebags*2 freaky more days and exams are here. havent started mugging & i shall hail to doom. LOL! crazyyy` i better get my brains working & store up more kerosene oil which means i cant get to SLEEP again! blahhs. never mind shall bear with it for 1 week & HK here i comeee with my 2 sweets. cant waittt (= time to save up & shop till DEAD with brother bringing me around//

#2o - drove my parents to work before heading to school. really tankiies to dd who's so sweet to pass me the car knowing that he need it for work & bcoz of me he had to take the public transport back as i had to go night safari later in the day. *hugs! and sweet factor 2 he actually drew a map showing me how to go to night safari from my school. LOL! headed to causeway point to kill time with the CK ladies.

[CK Snapps Part i] inside the car.com

and did i mention i only had my home-made sandwich as my first & last meal? wasnt much of an appetite. left for night safari for our CTIS get together.

[CKs Snapps Part ii] night safari.com

believe it or not its my ever FIRST trip down' LOL! was an enjoyable experience.

the animals were so cutteee & i felt like smuggling it out =X was surprised when lorrane & adrian gave me a small cake in advance for my birthday & i'm reallyy touched (= really tankiies so much.

became unwell & couldnt head home immediately as we were in the trail walk. sent amelia, abbiie, timothy back with adrian accompanying me back home. tankiies god i was back home already as the pain worsen and the headache got so bad that i felt so giddy & had slight fever )= aint no medicine at home & i had to bear the pain with mummy helping me to massage my head//

#22 - advance birthday celebration together with rebecca; as its exam week next week decided to celebrate in a week in advance. headed to fish & co at the glasshouse for dinner with glenda, abbie, sarah dottie & lorrane joining us later as well as alison, rebecca & shiying with her mao family. boyyy was i full with my fishy chips` a huge portion i must say but its yum yum (= was surprised when they presented me a strawberry cake (=

[Ladies Snaps Part i] fishh & co.com @ glasshouse

*tankiies shiying sweetiie* am so touched & they sang a bday song' i got to play with sparkles with courtesy from fish & co. love the cake so much for its way yummy & bcoz its strawberry. LOL!

headed over to phuture & a pity shiying + her maomao family couldnt get in. had shots, jugs & lambo with my sweeties.

was pretty fine not until jacky came over & bought me another lambo that KILLED ME straight! left the bar to find the ladies at the dancefloor but its so freaking hard to find them. couldnt make it further & tankiies god i bumped into bai' asked him to get me water from the bar. freaky lambo darn strong that i could feel the kick coming. went to the washroom & PUKE it all out. eeeks feeling sucks & terrible. aint no idea how many times have i puked with glen puking together with me. LOL'

[Pukiies Snaps] ladies washroom.com

the music was killing making my head spinning even more; decided to head out of phuture for awhile & rot outside of zouk together with glen sweets' ..and soon the rest found us & joined us there. LOL! and yes the dearie CKs drank so much that we got all tipsy

[Tipsy Snappies] outside zouk.com

the CK ladies headed off first leaving me & sarah awaiting for vivien to come & tankiies god i'm sober after rotting outside zouk. left at 33o with jacky sending me home//

i wana say a BIG tankiies;

- for all who made the night a memorable one

- for the wishes & those who partied together

last but not least.. [a lil message]

* my CK sweetiies [Glenda, Abbie, Alison, Amelia] & sarah dottie; the fun joy & laughter & making the night so wonderful & a joyous one especially abbie & alison whom don't usually club. u girls really make me smile & i'm really touched by every little things. the CKs got high & we got to puke. LOL' love u sweetiies till bits *muahhs! and of course not forgetting the lovely sparkling diamond bday gift from citigems' tankiies CKs & family tree again.. hearts to all (=

* vivien; for coming down thou it was already so late. appreciate loaddds (= *hugs!

* shiying & mao mao cong/gguai; for the strawberry cake` really sweeet of u (= and its okiie that u couldnt manage to get into zouk that we cant party together' the next time round we shall partyy like crazy yeah. take care! *hugs!

* rebecca; nice time partying with u.. and u got high too' LOL! take care yea & smile more (= Happy Birthday & hope ur precious wishes come true *winks*

* mingo & bai; for coming over to party together, bai for the lambo that u bought for us & so sorrry mingo couldnt entertain u when u came for i was alr freaky high' haha.

* jacky; for giving 1o% off my fishhy bill. LOL! for the lambo treat that killed me as well as the ride home (= nice meeting u & sorry couldnt have dinner with u on thurs.. perhaps the next time round when i'm free.

* larry, the half twin brother & 2 other friends; [sorryy till now i still duno the names' LOL!] for the wishes & passing me the present. its really lovely. i really duno what to say bcoz i'm really shock & paiseh for u guys shared & bought me a present. really appreciate loaddds (= not forgetting alfred & deliang. nbr mnd if u cant make it due to stuck in army. LOL' next time round we shall party again after my exams. take care!

* rebecca's friend; who's so nice to have gotten me a present when i don't know him at all. really don't know what to say but really tankiies for the present (=

[ it doesnt matter if u don't show up but at least let one know and not wait at the last minute for ppl to call and check. excuses are just a piece of lie just say the truth & not come out with some lame thing bcoz i wont blame u. remember u cant deceive me bcoz i can sense it ]

*her feeling all tired after a crazy night*

#24 - headed to natas fair at suntec together with abbie, glenda & her mummy. yes the 3 crazieees are going on a trip to HK together during the week holidays & its been booked (= simply cant waittt! dinner at pasta mania & had the usual bacon spaghetti' off to town & bought our all time favourite from marks & specer which we've been aiming for a long time` LOL! (= went over to popular & bought stationeries to mug for exams. they are my essentials when comes to mugging bcoz without the colours studying would be dull. LOL! crappps' again money gone & dammit cant afford to spend further got to save money.. home at 9 just in time for the cheena show & started my mugging for blady history till 3 in the morning - _ - //

what has LOVE got to do with me' i wonder. can i not get involved with the matters of the heart for its way too complicated? CHOICES to be made yet hard - can i escape and not have any choices? i suckks when it comes to such matters & in dilenma for i really don't know what to do. i've always acted blind just to pretend i don't notice a thing & tried my very best so that nobody gets hurt but why is it so hard to do so? don't ask me something which is the unexpected bcoz i really don't know how to react' my emotions & feelings thats present will just vanished into thin air & i really don't know what to say. on the other hand; i know there are ppl who's just way too nice to me.. i really appreciate loaddds for the care & concern but i don't wana hurt anyone bcoz at the end we would just remain as friends. dont treat me too nice bcoz i'll feel bad. don't put ur emotions in me for feelings will not be returned. don't choose me for i can only be a good friend but never a good partner and i rather be it that way in order not to spoil the beauty of friendships. don't ever come close to me bcoz i only know how to hurt ppl. i just don't get it' what do ppl see in me when i aint nothing to perfection bcoz i simply sucks. can i just run away?//

* Glenda ; yes crazy i'm ur little angel & always will be' aint we just simply lucky? LOL! tankiies for showing concern when i wasnt well & simply everything that u've done for me. and yes the precious moment magnet that u gave me was simply sweet & i like it loaddds (= HK is in for us this holiday & shopping will then KILL us all. haha' can we actually upgrade the brokiies club? oh yes please stop the stupid seaweed bcoz even when i shit i see seaweed & its so sick' LOL! after exams we shall just enjoy & de-stress like helll' one last thing please take care of urself & remember be a GOOD glenda okiiee - u get what i mean right? LOL' (= *hugs!

* Adrian ; i know u don't read but still.. no amount of tankiies can make up the small little things u've done for me. really appreciate it loaddds & am really glad cum blessed to have you as my buddy (= having u around simply brings the sun goes brighter thou there are the unpleasant times whereby we do have conflicts but that makes the friendship goes stronger isnt it. tankiies for the Ben & Jerry ice cream treat & knowing u were so tired after the night safari u still insisted on accompanying me back just to make sure my dd was downstairs to bring me home (= i'm just so glad to have you around to be there for me & remember whatever problems u encounter my ears are always here for u & i'll stand by u if in need. the days in shatec are ending soon & hope that we'll always be buddies till a lifetime (=

Ending off my entry ;

*the miss blurry feeling all geeky*

"turning into a ~~BOOKWORM~~ due to EXAMS!"

..shall MIA for now & return after exam (=

[ take care peeps & lucks to DTMs for the upcoming exam ]

iwishiwantihope.. (=

will you catch her when she falls ;

" do you even care about my existance..
perhaps when you realised i've always been there
it'll be all too late to turn back time "

i'm lost for words each time i enter blogspot; its not as if i've nothing to crap about but the words seems to disappear. even if so i dont even know what am i blabbering about and i'm just way too tired to update' my entries are getting boring each day & i wonder why do ppl still bother to click on it & read. - _ -//

been a busy week with the companion of projects & cant imagine my week being burnt off just like that` how traumatising & i've to sacrifice my precious sleep thus having blady eye bags & panda eyes O-O *sobs! now that projects has come to an end(at least for now) everything's just so carefree' haha//

ever WONDERED whats the BEST thing to do

..when ur BRAINS going ~~HAYWIRED~~

..to GET AWAY from the ~~BLADY PROJECTS~~

..and to DE-STRESS ?

the answer to everything; CAMERA

W H Y ?

(snappiies tells it all.. LOL!)

LOL! don't bother about me - i'm just being myself' laming around & this is what i do; self-entertaining when my brains malfunctioning. the lamest thing i've ever thought - posing with my rotten milo thats kept for a week & my milky moomoo that makes ur bone stronger each day. crappps//

#14 - Harris's birthday; headed to town & met up with shiying + the birthday boy. LOL! dinner at pasta cafe in taka & had salmon baked rice' aint appetising but i had to eat it for i was hungry as i only had strawberries for brunch. didnt know what to get for him & so we asked him to decide what he want. shopped around & finally bought his present; a shirt from flesh imp' headed down to mac cafe to slack & we got him a mini tiny cake. and i think the cake sucks for we bought it in the noon & it kinda melted. LOL!//

#15 - school has been nothing but presentations & even when there's lessons i'm always falling asleep. i'm just wayyy too tired to be awake due to the sleepless late nights of rushing my projects. stayed back after school for history project discussion on our role play; was freaky funny & lame. my scene was to be 1-woman on strike & 2-soldiers on fire. couldnt stop laughing & i cant imagine having to do my 1st role play in class & the ever 1st time doing such lame presentation.//

#16 - History presentation; wad a waste as we didnt get to record the whole role play down & i forgotten to take PICS! ahh dammit. it was damn hilarious & it was definately HARD to act serious bcoz i ended up laughing as the whole class was laughing. typical me just cant control my laughter & i can never act in a serious role play. just give me the role of a clown & i'll do it way perfect' LOLS! was so embarrassing bcoz another class was watching us all the way & i had to role play in front of the class; had to wear shabbily due to being woman on strike & the next thing i had to wear was the ARMY HEMLET with LEAVES! so heavy & smelllyyy but tankiies to alison's bf who's kind enough to lend us. wahaha (= and my gun was the shooper shooker & i get to spray water at the class' haha so fun! i think i look damn shit in those but who cares about the image when project are more important. hopefully the class will be entertained this time round & i guess it'll be the shock of the century as nobody would ever imagine the CKs doing such lame crappy things//

in 10days to come i'll be turning 21 but i aint looking forward to it at all & i don't know why. if there's one thing i could wish for; it would be happiness - the happiness that is not self-created but true happiness that will last for an eternal time; a smile that is smiled naturally & not a forced one plastered on; last but not least the laughter that isnt hidden with sorrows.//

to end off..

*introducing my angel's new friend - little dolly & her woofy woof. LOL!

isnt it cute? head so big body so tiny..haha. tankiies craziie for the lil cute hp strap! so cute can' i dun dare to hang on my hp scared later dolly follow dixie footstep commit suicide. LOL! later i heartpain. lammmeee//

i don't understand why are people changing so fast so much so u don't know whether to place ur trust in them for its wayy too scary. keep your distance away from me for i don't want anything to do with you; stop the pretendence because it wont last; don't give me that stupid pathetic act because it wont work on me; don't make me find out what have you been doing because the outcome will be bad; i know what have u done so stop ur selfish acts; DONT EVER do any wrong to my friends because i'll so freaking damn CONDEMN you' and just scram because i don't ever need such friendships. if i ever need a plastic i rather go to the supermarket and purchase all the plastic rather to keep pathetic plastic friends that isnt simply worth the friendship. have you been casting black magic so much so that their brains have been blinded that they dont even notice the good or bad' yuckks.//

will you catch her when she falls ;

" i don't wana know; i don't wana hope no more

i'm letting it go.. leaving as it is "

back for another update. had a weird dream last night & aint no idea what; only knew i sleep talked because dd tried waking me up to ask if i was alright. lolls. sundays a time to stay at home & rot; in the meantime its back to project with tourism geography` finally its ending soon & i can finally have my rest but on another thought exams in 3weeks time & that totally sucks.

#o7 - project with the CKs in the morning at town till noon and we headed off to river valley to have our resume photo taken. LOLS! as usual took loaddds of snappiies and its never ending. [*shall upload the other pics when i've collected it]

[CKs snap shots Part i] picture gallery @ river-valley.com
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felt rather troublesome for my stupid fridge kept blocking my eyes & i took the longest time in there. tankiies god he was a patient photographer (= headed back to town with the sweeties together with adrian & dinner at far east. walked around & later on slacked at gelare cafe with our waffles & met up with zee till late//

#o9 - last lesson with roger oh for travel ops. aint gona have any crappy moments encountered with him. LOL! boyy will we miss all his funny actions cum sound effect + stories & i cant immitate him anymore. haha. nothing much happening coz its just another boring day at school & when it gets boring' thats where the lameness appear. nothing but snappiies//

..and so HERE IT IS ;

[ Snaps Part i ] in e washroom @ shatec.com
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.:the ALL Charlie Angels where lameness never end:.

ever WONDERED whats BEST ~~NOT~~ to do ?

..having VIDEOS PLAYED'

W H Y?

[Snaps Part ii] history lesson @ video-playing.com
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[Results Proven] 95% of the class fell asleep

[ video captured coutesy by adrian's hp ] ..no idea why its upside down. LOL!

..wherelse the other 5% are either watching/self-entertaining/video
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..and to end it all;

.:the miss blurry in her twinkle-dreams:.

#1o - tourism geography test & guess i screwed the whole thing' imagine having to do the paper for 1omins & the rest of it i fell asleep. LOLS! was really damn tired due to the lack of sleep & so i was a total zombie. our class had this angel mortal thing going on & received 2 items from my angels both meiji products (= after school headed to raffles for a final dry run for our walking travel tour on saturday. left first as mummy's friend came from HK & had to had dinner with them' aint really into entertaining & stuffs` furthermore i was already so sleepy when i got home. anyway might be heading to HK this holidays to visit my brother; hopefully by then i'll have enough money for shopping//

#11 - travel operation tour project at raffles place. imagine having to have walked around for 3hrs & so under the scorching hot sun is terrible' attended 2 other tours as well and by then energy were total drained; legs were hurting & head were aching. cant stay under the sun for too long for i'll fall sick.

the peeps who joined our tour' tankiies being so participative
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the CKs with mr oh
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headed to glen's place for history project & felt bad for i din help out as i was slept all the way till evening as my head's hurting terribly' *so sorrry! left for cine to catch the 915pm movie 'big mama2' with abbiie, glen & shiying. funny movie & a rating of 3.5/5` went over to clarke quey to chill out & had mango magarita.. was freaking drop dead tired as i was out since early morning' headed home at 23o & tankiies sweets for the ride back//

*Glen; sweets please take care of yourself.. i'm so worried for u. whatever it is remember i'll always be here whenever u need me i'll be there and my ears are here 24/7 for u k *hugs! (=

*Abbie; smile like there's no tml sweetiie' don't think so much & keep everything to yourself okiie if there's anything bottling in you remember we're always here & our ears are for you (= sometimes its good to let go a lil and not hold on tight because whatever you put in might not be appreciated at times & in return you'll be hurting even more.. its true that one does not know what emotions are but its also important not to let emotions over rule u.. take care sweetiie (= *hugs!

* Jaclyn's Angel; thou u will remain mysterious till wednesday & don't know who you are but still tankiies for the lil stuffs u have given me - much appreciated' (= *hugs!

will you catch her when she falls ;