when the mind feels uncertained, the heart seemed unclear

HAPPY OINK OINK YEAR dear readers !

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OPPS! I know i'm always lagging and a week has passed but still CNY has not ended yet. Heh! Hopefully everyone had fun for their CNY and smiles that form when receiving your red packets as for me CNY this year is like every ordinary day just that i get to breakaway from work and the feeling's rather weird as my granny's no longer here(idomissherstill) and it doesnt excite me receiving angbaos which makes me realized that i havent open any of it yet as i couldnt be bothered to do so. Was kinda upset that i couldnt follow mama to put flower for my granny and wish her greetings before i left for Penang as i gotta work.

I went to Penang with my family for a week to celebrate CNY as daddy wants to go back to visit his siblings and i've got no choice but to go even when i'm reluctant. My dad's a Singaporean but his hometown's in Penang and his siblings are located in Penang + KL which explains the trip. Didnt get to meet all of my dad's side but its rather weird and strange to see them again after 7years which explains why i aint close to them. Everyone changed and looked so different. I guess i wouldnt be able to recognise them should i bump onto them on the streets. Anyway it wasnt an exciting trip, the only fun part was that i get to see firecrackers that almost made my ears go deaf and the only good thing was that i managed to have plenty of rest. I almost died of boredom as there aint much of a thing to do and Penang's so laidback. Furthermore my stupid hp died on me for no apparent reason and i couldnt msg at all plus i got sick of the food after the second day as the food's nothing but oily and nothing healthy at all. Its like most of the time everywhere's about prawn mee, hokkien mee, char kuey teow so on and so fore and i don't eat these kinda food. The only appetising meal i had was my aunt's steamboat.

Met up with Glenda, Adrian, Shiying & friends as well as Amelia at zouk right after i came back from Penang. Didnt drink that night neither did we take any pictures but at least there were nice R&Bs going on. Left rather early that night as i had to work early morning the next day; sorry ladies for not being able to stay longer the next time round we shall have plenty of fun! =)

[ Flashbacks.. ]

#10th Feb'Saturday - Headed over to Rebecca's place for her baby Emberlynn's 1 month celebration and i wore my specs out that day because there's something wrong with my lens and my eyes are tired as well thus i decided to let my eye rest for a day; couldnt be bothered if i looked geeky. Gosh i tell you, her baby's so adorable together with her little hands and legs that makes her even cuter. Plus her baby has got delicate skin thats so smooth and nice to touch =P

*her and baby emberlynn..*

Later on went to town with parents for a last minute shopping with a total damage of $28o. Thankfully mummy was so nice to sponsor me a 1oo bucks for my new year clothings and the remainder money out from my pocket otherwise i'd be broke!

Ohhhh guess what? I saw Daniel Wu, the HK actor acting in the 'Protege' movie by chance and i must be lucky to have attended to him as he approached me for his room keys plus i get to talk to him. Thou i aint a fan of his but he's really cute especially when he smile! Aiights this is so lame.

I guess thats about all. PAY DAY's coming soon and i shall buy something nice to pamper myself. Time to check my account because i havent been updating it for 2months and i've got clueless idea how much i've got in it; hopefully i don't get a heart attack. Thats the bad thing when you've got card(s) in your wallet, you just swipe non-stop and at the end of the day, you've got no idea where that money gone to. And yes freaking MARCH is approaching. In exactly one months time i'll be freaking damn 22, yes the big double TWOs; can i not have that to happen? OH GOSH! And of course, without knowing it sooner or later the stupid month of June or issit July will approach and goodness gracious meeee i've yet to type a single word for my hell 15,ooo words report which i've got no timeeee to do. Would any kind soul be willing to write my report for me (=

Yet again its another brand new week..
Have a great week my dear readers ~

*perhaps she should give up ;
tell her if what she feels aint true..*

she'd hope if you could share your pains with her and be happy once again..

will you catch her when she falls ;

Happy collecting your red packets my dear readers.
(..and i hope your CNY will be a good one)

My 1 week leave has been approved; i will be gone by this friday till maybe end of next week.
Gona take MC tmr not b'coz i've got a date on valentines but a date with my doctor & the hospital.
Won't be posting any entry for this 2 weeks so don't bother popping by..

P.S - Have fun on the 21st my dear CKs

BYE all. I'm off to work for now.

will you catch her when she falls ;

*if only she'd have one wish..*

Omg people i tell you its really TGIF for me as its finally my off today cause i get to rest. But even so the days doesnt seem long enough to get sufficient rest as i'm really freaking exhausted this week because work is draining me out lately. Its freaking hell busy lately and its really hell crazy i tell you; makes you go nuts. Been clocking extra hours lately and i ended work at 230am last night instead of 11. Lucky i'm off today otherwise i'll just take a mc. Its not about the hours thats long but when the hotel is seriously overbooked with insufficient rooms and you having to face demanding guests its really mental drainous. My brains just stop functioning after work and particularly everyday this week when i go home i'm like a total zombie and daddy was like so worried asking me why do my face look extremely shag. Thanks daddy for coming to pick me home as i missed my night transport, i'm just so blessed to have my daddy because he really dotes on me. Gawd! I seriously need a sleepatheraphy.

* her nasty eyebags exhausted looks.. *

Anyway i cannot stand people from that particular country called C****. Sorry i don't wana get sued for being racial discremination and furthermore my parents are under the government. Freak-o-hell to them. So what if your stupid country is booming and dont freaking throw your weight around acting all arrogant dammit. I got myself into a heated conflict with this group of C.people like the day before because they are extremely arrogant and unreasonable. Like hello cant people be understanding enough. You came with like 8 reservations and we've got no less than 12 clean rooms and you expect speedy service in 15mins? Its not as if we aint trying our best and they start complaining like hell saying they waited for 1hour which is blady exaggerating & not true. Never mind about that, that blady woman make a big hoohaa demanding me to serve her and her male colleague when 2 of my colleagues are already helping them furthermore don't she have eyes to see that i'm handling another guest and its hell rude to ask me not to serve my guest and attend to her. I seriously refused to serve her because of their shittiness airheaded in them and so that guy with her started saying vulgarities that i was like so pissed off because i hate it when guest start saying vulgarities furthermore he has no right to be so rude so i argued back with them. Who cares about guest is always right, when it comes to fucked up guest i do not give a damn and then that asshole looked at my name tag and said, "your name is jaclyn i'm going to complain about you". Fuck it la if he thinks by threatening me i'll be afraid, he can complain for all he want because i don't give a damn and i can't even be bothered to apologise to them because they don't deserve a word of sorry from my mouth. Seriously i don't know whats wrong with people these days, being so unreasonable cum demanding and cant they be more understanding and stop hurling vulgarities at people. If they think our jobscope is so easy why don't they themselves try it theirselves and understand what it is like.

I'm going shopping later for my last minute new year clothes and i won't be around for a week from the end of next week. But first its gona be dvd timmeee.. i'm so addicted to the current korean drama i have on hand right now.

that very night where we had fun !

* 1/2 of CKs together with Ying & Vivi chilling out together @ The Clinic.. *

Like how long have we not gone out together to chill out? It was a rare Saturday whereby everyone manage to get together. A pity that C.Wei & Alison couldnt make it otherwise it would be a complete CK outing. Headed to Kandi Bar first while waiting for Glenda to arrive and had mango magarita; i tell you the alcohol was freaking strong till my face turned red. Headed to Coffee Club to have our late dinner and slack there before we headed off to the Clinic. Its fun but their drinks cause a bomb with a total of 2oobucks. Crazy isnt it but it was worth the fun and experience. Anyway to my dearest CK family and of course not forgetting Yingying & Vivi, thanks for the fun and joy; it was definately a great time out (=
[ P.S - i doubt i can make it on the 21st Feb' Sorry if i cant join in the fun ]

Pardon me peeps as i'm really lazy to do anything or edit the pics. Aiights i'll be back to post another entry again

Have a great weekend my dear readers !
(..and if i do not post an entry next week )
HAPPY PRE-14-FeB & CNY =D

will you catch her when she falls ;

You know what people..

I FELL SICK !
got a viral infection and i almost lost my voice..
thank god its better now and am recovering

* its yucky medicine time.. *
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* yucky medicines for recovery.. *

been coughing non-stop especially in the night
can you imagine me being unwell & still gotta work
freaking workplace has got lack of manpower lately
poor me had to strain my voice while handling guests =/

stupid doctor at Raffles Medical freaking giam siap with MC
i had no choice but to go to the doc b'coz my throat was feeling real awful
next time when i don't feel well & wana take MC..
i'll fork out my own money & see the doctor that aint liase with RCMS
it isnt as if i'm poor and couldnt afford a doctor consultation fee.

work sucks today. i'd realize 2oo7 isnt a good start for me
nothing good but being sucky ; i HATE it *sighs*

I've comed to a conclusion..

I will learn to be SELFISH

and i'll NOT..

be too nice, too kind and be helpful to people around me

(..it gets you nowhere but trouble)

I've got a feeling that one day, i'll just explode
when that happens i don't know what will happen
b'coz i swear it wouldnt be a good thing

If i'd have a wish..
I wish i could get back my smiles & joy
because i havent been happy (iknowitmyself)
its just an empty shell left within me right now
everything i do, its to make them happy and not myself
what do i get by doing this..
nothing but pain and the loss of endorphines

If people who knew me well enough..
they'd realize i aint being the way i used to be like before

I know i should be home resting but still i went out with Chyna, Shalini, Hayami, Nanami & Tomoko san(s) this evening & as usual i'm freaking 1.5hrs late(even when i took a cab down) with them having their dinner started first. Anyway it was a dinner date with my female colleagues and they wanted to have dim sum therefore it was settled at the dim sum coffee shop at Mong Kok of Geylang Lorong 8.

<- i like this

They ordered so much food with a total of 88bucks in all and of course it was a great outing with them. Seriously it was my first time being in Geylang & having my meal there. Wouldnt want to go there and my parents wouldnt allow me to go that kinda place either. Oh yes and i tell you people, i was waiting for the bus together with my colleague Chyna and this blady freaking asshole kept staring at us like nobodies business till his bus came. Like whats his problem ah. Hell man, he got that fc*king look on that face & the both of us was like so pissed off. I guess he doesnt understand English because we were like saying 'stop staring la' to him freaking loudly. Chyna was so cute as she took out her perfume so that in any case he comes any nearer she would spray the perfume at him. LOL! And you know what when his bus finally came, he boarded the bus and even continued staring at us giving us that kinda cheeky look, like WTF! GRRR.. can't those assholes get a life? Not everyone who goes to that place are that kinda people and i aint stepping into Geylang. It felt as if you were being watched by countless of eyes. Yucks! Anyway i had an enjoyable bus ride back with Chyna. She's like the only one whom i could truely trust and talk about almost and basically everything. Thanks girl (=

Meeting the CK family tomorrow evening and a good rest before that.

Nytes my dear readers & a lovely weekend

will you catch her when she falls ;