when the mind feels uncertained, the heart seemed unclear

i'm full! just had my dinner and its yummy. *slURps my yakult* haha. was rotting the whole day & being a good girl by helping my mummy to vacuum the house. haha. i bet u ppl tink i dun do housework. i do but once in a while. haha. alrights. i'm OFFICIALLY BROKE! damn. no more shopping for me. kinda OVERSPENT this time round *siighhs* any KIND DONORS wana DONATE $$$ to me? oh boyy. just have to wait for my allowance next month and yes i gotta control my temptation. gotta save money` can't afford to waste money. went out with my dd in the late morn yday to do some stuffs and later on my dd headed to practice his golf while i went Far East to have my hair cut at Super Cut. the lady layered for me and it aint that thick now but i still think i should cut shorter. haha. guess my brains got prob. nbr mnd shall wait for it to grow and i shall cut it again. haha! $26 for cutting and washing :) walked around Far East while waiting for ling to end sch. saw a pair of shoe for school and decide to buy it although i still prefer the 199 bucks one. *siighs* yups. waited till ling called and we went around whole of orchard for our shopping spree. bought ear rings to add to my collection again :) and if u notice i buy more ear rings den clothings. can't blame me as i'm a sucker for it. haha! had tom yam soup with rice for dinner at far east.

the both of us. while waiting for our tom yam

havent been going to that shop and decided to eat it. i guess the standard dropped. aint as spicy and hot as before. no kick at all. ling and i were like saying we're like in JB as we're the only chinese whereby everyone are malays. lolls. we were sitting opposite a fruit stall and were kinda tempted to buy their fruit juice but decide not to as we are going for our k0pii session again :)

walked around to digest our food and decided to head for our k0pii session. was deciding where to go again. initially wanted to go coffee express/club. aint no idea if their coffee will be yummy so decided to head to TCC at somerset. the one near robinson. that place aint that bad. in fact i prefer that location rather den cine's as they have got sofa. haha. nice ambience thou its a lil small. had ice latte mocha` my fav kind of coffee & ling had her hazelnut frappe. tried hers` aint that bad. simply had loads of fun at TCC. haha. took loads of snappy shots too. when there's the 2 of us u can nbr expect us to be normal..

our k0pii session - hazelnut frappe & ice latte mocha *yums*

darling cuzziies slacking @ TCC

she says boo and ling giving a gleeful smile :)

*stick out tongues*

great minds think alike

peace out yah ;P

ahh hah. check out that baby fats puffy cheek.

trying to be cheeky.

trying hard to be dao. lolls :x

humphs!

lolls. *wonders what are we up to* the 2 lamers

check out our pretty fingers

we love sugar

a toast of the both of us being lamers. lolls!

yummy :P~ ii lurrbbiie my k0pii

* bites her spoon *

//ling licks her yummy straw

trying to be captain hook? haha.

hur hur. its lings turn to be captain hook

kock. ouch my head.. ling says boohoo. lolls ;P

meet our lil friend. kimono missy

introducing our lil fren - kimono missy

kimono missy promoting h2o and she loves h2o

kimono missy in her lil house

us with kimono missy

oh g0d. is dat kimono missy? i see xtra teeths.

we love kimono missy

blehs. our body shop products.

promoting hps

had loads of fun with ling. simply love being with her. its like when we are together, i feel relaxed, peaceful, carefree and no worries of the way i behave. there's no need to act or pretend to strong. i just be who i want to be and no pretendance. i wun deny the fact that i've got different characters or attitudes with people around me. i duno how to explain further but i feel blessed having a darling cuzzie. i dun care abt friends. to be frank i've got loads of frens but i just and simply can't be bothered to get to know them further or be close to them coz i've got phobia and am sick of it. i've been traumatised previously and really afraid to really get to know others. i want a friendship that is being cherished and not making use of. i'm disgusted of those people who tend to make use of the friendship and take u for granted? yes. pls kindly fuck off frm my life if ur such people. i've seen many ppl's colour & i can see thru their character. doesnt mean i dun say anything or am nice to u means i know no shit. am really scared now. i've got friends who care for me and really show concern. i really appreciate that but i just can't bring myself to trust others anymore. i'm so disgusted by people's behaviour. i hate the past. if i were to have the chance i wud want to return to the past and change everything but i guess there's no point looking back time. what matters is the present and the future. at least i've changed alot and stopped breaking my parents heart. hopefully i'll be able to change for the better. i just dun understand why can't that bitch get the hell out of my life? can;t she blady fuck off? fucking irritating to keep msging me on frenster to ask for my approval. dun u get it? i dun want u to be part of my life. havent u done enuff shit to me? can't u juz fuck off. go fuck other ppl la. u dun deserve my attention and my frenship. fucking no shame at all and still can ask me if i hate u? i dun hate u and i dun hate anyone. i just despise u.

oh yah to my clown :: i aint no santa clause or atm machine i lend her coz i tink seriously tink she need it and she aint the kind who cheat ppl money. afterall i already had bad experiences & i dun really simply trust anyone so no worries. and pls ppl IF U TINK I"M RICH. FUCK THAT IDEA COZ I AINT NO RICH KID. MY PARENTS AINT RICH SO IF U FUCKING THINK I'M LOADED WITH $$$ FUCK U ALRIGHTS.. dun worry girl i'm not referring to u. i'm referring to other people. am really really sick of people perceiving me of being a rich kid since young. *siighs* this world is full of shit.

will you catch her when she falls ;

din do much today but rotting at home. haha. i'm so please by the fact of me being such a good girl. lolls :x actually i'm kinda lazy to get out of the house and since my new home is so cozy & comfy i dun even wish to get out. haha :x mummy din go work today. she aint sick but i guess she's tired so she took mc. lolls. sometimes not everyone is perfect :) my brother was at home too` din go for his job attachment and i know the reason why. the 3 of us watched dvds together called 'Just Love' its a HK drama serial. an interesting and great show. u peeps shud watch it. the things that they say are quite meaningful. simply love shows that are meaningful. Cheryl came to our place after work and stayed till late. went grocery shopping with my mummy. bought loads of stuffs for our daily needs. total amount? 11o bucks. haha. yups i bought some baking stuffs today as i decided to try and bake a cake on my own. its been a long time since i last cooked or baked. haha. and yes for those of u who dun know, i can cook alrights and its edible. my specialities? rendang curry and sambal prawns. i'm so proud of it. haha :) my family simply love those 2 dishes of mine loads. sad to say i havent been in the kitchen for a year but that doesnt mean i know nothing abt cooking. at least i know the basics :) baked a choco cake and the outcome? room for improvement & edible. not that bad as i expected. haha! was kinda worried in the beginning. dd says it tastes nice and mummy says its a lil too sweet. alrights i'll try again next time and i promise it'll be better i hope. maybe i shall do cookies the next time round. haha. LING cookies session? haha! whhhee. can't wait to meet up with her tml for our shopping session and maybe k0pii session too if there's time? haha. gona meet her at 4 and hopefully i wun be the well known Ms Late Queen again. :x going town with my dd in the late morning to settle some stuffs and i'm still deciding and planning whether i should head down to Super Cuts @ Far East to cut my hair before i meet ling. kinda irritated with my current hair style. might cut it short but not that short. haha.

..and yes thats the choco cake that i baked

can't blame me for not making it look appealing for i'm juz an amateur. thou it doesnt look great on the outside but it has inner beauty = yummylicious. haha ;P

will you catch her when she falls ;

was rotting almost the whole of yday. appeared to be so stoned even when i went out in the evening` maybe nua too much. haha. watched I-Robot dvd at home with my dd. nice show. supposed to meet adrian at 5 but landed up meeting at 6 as i was late.. haha. at least he's smart to know that i'm gona be late and he didnt have to wait for me. went Plaza Sing to check out for any available seats for Initial-D and yes we managed to catch hold of the 62opm show of the 3rd row.

seats position aint that great but at least it was better den nothing. haha. was asking who wants to join us for the movie and apparently everyone in our class have either catch it or catching it` its a nice show. loadsa racing and of coz hunks` simply love it when they race. haha. the movie was kinda funny too. lolls. too bad anthony wong din play much of a paikia in this show coz he's darn seh when he acts as a paikia. jay chou sems to be a sentimental guy in that show & i din noe guys actually tear when their love ones break their heart. haha. still edison is the best :) lolls. okay whatever. headed to bugis after the movie to find glenda's pressie. finally found it and hopefully she will like it. shall not upload the pic yet but its handy for her and luckily blogs are useful. haha. its the thought that matters and counts. bumped into adrian's girlfren. haha. so funny. its like i was wondering who is that girl who kept staring at me and seems rather familiar den i realised it was ad's gf. lolls. left rather early at ard 9+? since the night was early and i din feel like going home yet, decided to call ling for k0pii session. lolls. was deciding on TCC or k0pii beaniie and we landed up at TCC. everywhere is so blady packed. and yes guess what i had for dinner last night? my one and only k0pii. and simply yummy :)

can't be bothered to order food coz i aint hungry and secondly i;m lazy to chew. haha! :x anyway.. tankies for ur company LING :) had great time with ya and am so glad u actually able to spent time with me. haha. thats what cuzziies are for right. *winks* talked and shared alot. we shall have more k0pii sessions again. just miss spending time with her. tankiex ling :) luckily we managed to catch the last train as we left TCC at 1145. was praying hard to get that train. haha. had to be home before midnight. WHY? coz i simply have NO KEYS to my new home which means to say i gotta be home before my parents sleep. haha. kinda pathetic right. poor me. oh well i can't be bothered to go to the smith shop myself to get my keys done. haha. but its kinda irritating not having my keys with me cause my movements are kinda restricted? so mummy PLS HELP ME MAKE MY KEYS :) reached home exactly 12 midnight and was feeling tired. felt so lazy to bathe but still i dragged myself to bathe except that i din wash my hair. haha. opps :x slept kinda late as my fren was smsing me (-.-) can;t imagine me being so nice to keep him entertained. haha ;P and yes i took ugly shots of my tired face. haha

woke up kinda early today thou i din have a gd sleep last night. gotta get ready for my dance practice which starts at 1. as i din noe where the venue was, met up with my fren at 12 and she brought me there. haha. thats the result of not taking bus. anyway i'm proud of myself coz i was exceptionally early today when i'm always late for my practice. haha. :x oh and i bumped into timothy on the way. what a small world but am not surprised coz he stays at tpy too. poor me havent had a proper meal b4 heading for my practice as i only had a small piece of bread and milk. did lots of climbing up of stairs today. haha. pretty good exercise i must say but i was so tired. thou i felt so nua but at least i had the drive while doing my dance. really enjoyed myself and had great fun. simply can't wait for ycf. haha ;P as a result of not having my lunch, i'm FAMISHED. can;t wait to gobble up my food later. haha. urgh! something is wrong with my left eye. its as thou i'm having an infection. something is not right with my lens. dammit. was feeling so uncomfy during my prac & it got worst on the way home. now my vision seems to be blur. fcuk. :/ oh i've got my costumes and tickets today. the costume is ugly` its disgusting. u will get to know why when i get to take a pic of myself on the actual day. the tickets are pretty and i love it loads :) so sad only get to have 2 tickets for my performance and its on saturday :) shall give the tix to my parents. hopefully i'll be able to get afew more tix. *prays hard*

something bad happened again *siighs* dun wish to elaborate here. why issit that whenever such things occur i'm always not there and around. i wish i could have been there and do something about it. thou i wasnt dere when things happen but when i saw the results, my heart hurts a million. its like broken into tiny wheeny pieces. pls dun inflict pain onto urself. i believe things can be talked things out and settled. yes at times when people tend to be angry, anger will overcome them and they wudnt know whats going on unless they have a clear mind. u said talking wudnt just help and change one person unless u inflicted pain on urself. but why go thru such pain and make everyone heartbroken? pls dun do it again. it hurts to see one suffer. the pain is unexplainable and unbearable. i duno what can i do to help. *siighhs* i wish i could influence his mindset with how i feel the way life is. maybe when one tend to be successful and almost perfect, the way of thinking tend to be much more complicated. had a good talk with my brother which we nbr really did for the past 2o years. i'm really glad that we had small conversations between ourselves. we shared and talked abt things. i get to understand him better although we have different thinkings and perception of the way life is. i know in one's life happiness is the most important and blessful thing. if there is no happiness den things will not be wonderful. although happiness is self created but not everything is self created. its how u think and perceive den u'll lead a happy life. i wish i could further elaborate and console but i'm just stuck at words. *siighhs* hopefully i'll be able to help and be there whenever u need me. i just felt disappointed and useless when things turned out this way coz its like i can't even be there to share the painfulness and sorrows. the only thing i can do is to pray and i'll continue to pray for u in my heart.. and each time i go for my practice i'll always pray for u..

will you catch her when she falls ;