when the mind feels uncertained, the heart seemed unclear

how great; a day left before i finally end my school life
last paper of the week; principles of management
tell me how am i suppose to mug for that damn shit; fc*k it
its 2248pm; i swear i aint started mugging yet - not even a single page
tv and com entire evening; seems like exam has ended but sadly NOT!
should i give up that subject; i'll probably not survive mugging that whole shit in few hours
goner it will be; failing 1 sub wouldnt cause a huge impact on my gpa(would it?)

brother's friends are coming over - whatelse but world cup *yawns!
my home will then be liven up with noise - _ -
aint gona post a proper entry yet` who cares. its my right to do whatever i want
aiightts. i shall be back again with crappy rantings of my life (:

will you catch her when she falls ;

* i'm back. has notes made my brains gone nuts? hate mugging` fc*k it *

amazingly i woke up at 9 on a sunday morning (which is so unlike of me).
main intention - get my brains motivated and start mugging
but what the hack.. nothing was done. haha.
had breakfast at central with brother and mummy
great time together and its been ages since we last had such moments together..
oh. and you would never want to know what we talked about.. FAMILY LAW - _ -"
advising me how to protect myself & not be at the losing end if i wana divorce my husband in the future
(who cares anyway. did they not know i had something against guys. haha)
studying LAW in shatec was already a torture and it was the last thing i wanted to be reminded of
but hell i forgot thats what my brother's gona practise.. how can i get away with it. shuckks.
thank god i did not flunk that hell subject. otherwise... LOL!
anyway it made me realised that i havent been spending much time with my love ones
therefore i've decided; change no 1 - i shall spend more time with them after i'm done with darn school..

lalala. screw the exams - as if!
ii hate it - poor brains`
what the hack with it ; aint giving a shiitty damn..
dearest brother was gleeful upon knowing i'm having exams - what shit. urgh!
facing countless of notes makes one not having the motivation to mug - sucky.
therefore i'm extremely B O R E D! - save me from the torture please.
counting down ; 5 more days and i've officially completed my diploma - thats great ;D

anyway.. its daddy's day today
HAPPY FATHERS' DAY - to all the greatest dad out there [esp my dd (= ]
sadly couldnt celebrate as he went overseas to work again`
i love my daddy double much. oh yay! and i miss him tons.
nobody can ever love me as much as he do (:

Fact of the day: for my gran i went vegetarian for 49 days and today i can officially eat my FISH hell with meat` aint a meat freak but i cant live without fish. nutrients for the brains.. :D

P.S - i CONDEMN MEOWIES. especially those that SCRATCH behind others back`
hell with them.

//shall update days later again since i aint in a laze mode..

will you catch her when she falls ;

i wonder if there's anything wrong with me..
i really pity my hair; for each time when i dont feel good within me
the next thing i know.. my hair would be affected
cause i'll just go to the blady saloon to snip it off
feeling good at that point of time yet regrets later on.
wtf with me i wonder. is this the only way to relief my emotions within me?
oh boy i'm beginning to regret. from awaiting it to be long suddenly its gone.. SHORT!
am i not just sane but practically insane? whatever.
ugliness is just a temporary thing.
yea so what if i said ugliness is just a temporary thing but i did not say beautiful so shut up

my entry is getting way riduculous; but i dont give a shit
exam's next week.. till then i'll post a proper entry; right now its bye readers
my ~~"ultimate favourite"~~ happy ~~mugging~~. urgh` - _ -
oh. one thing for sure - i'm way happy that PROJECTS has finally ended.
freaking 2 years of torture finally gone! what a relief.
aiights. i'll be back soon and off to celebrate ying's 18th with the girls..

Happy Birthday Shiying *hugs! :D

will you catch her when she falls ;

time and human - who's doing the chasing ?
as usual.. its always human chasing after time
you couldnt possibly talk to the time and say:
"hey mr time could you stop being so fast and wait for me.."
(..that would possibly exist in your dreams)
and i guess mr time would probably say
"CRAZY! i'm not doing a marathon besides who are you for me to stop and wait"
LOL! yea its freaky craps but its true that humans are always wishing for more time..//

two years has passed and soon its time to bid farewell.
friendships with great bonding and memories are created;
individuals are going their seperate ways
signs of sadness and happiness are presented..
the chapter of school days coming to an end..
another stage of life would be awaiting to be path
life is just way mysterious..
being made up of many stages with different emotions
will there be hopes // miracles // disppointment?
you will never be able to predict whats next..//

my entries - its dying out soon for i just aint no time to blog. i really wonder who's been reading my entries cause its really scary having silent readers everywhere and the counter has been increasing. why do peeps actually read my entries when its actually full of shits and aint interesting and why do they still enter when i aint updating?//

i wonder if people changes as time passes cause i feel different. i guess when one gets older and as time passes things differ. my thinking, the way i perceive things and everything that evolves around me. been feeling rather drained out lately and aint in the mood which i've no idea why. sometimes its just so hard to control my emotions which aint like before. been doing loads of thinking as well and wonder if what i'm doing is right` whatever it is i believe it'll be sort out..//

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#27o5'Saturday - the very last lesson in school for DTM. 4 hours of lesson wasnt much of lesson but story telling, guides to exam and revision.

at least saturday lessons aint that bad as weekdays. lesson ended and Fidah, Adrian and i headed over to Quality Hotel; thanks to Mrs Heng who drove us there (= got started and set up the ballroom for our convention's project 'mirror-me' its a farewell event for the DHM 'A' & 'B' classes and peeps are to dressed up in couple costumes like 'angel & devil // doctor & nurse'. was really sporting of them to come in costumes and some were even beautifully dressed. overall everything went smoothly and thanks to everyone's effort that made our event a success (=

*our dj for dtm 'mirror-me' event - DJ Kuku // Adrian*
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*..playing around with horns and wings; acting angel and devil*
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*..her with samurai tim and surgeon harris*
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*..the cks after our'mirror-me' event*
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*..our dancers and the hip hoppers for the event*
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*..DHMs in their costumes*

headed over to momo after our event together with glenda and abbiie. couldnt imagine us being exhausted yet aint heading for home. saw ziqin and kelly at the dance floor and later on alfred with his friends. homed by 23o and was freaky drop dead tired with my feet aching like hell..//

#o1o6'Thursday - its such a relief when its finally the last day of the abacus course. having to attend the stupid course for 4days really torturing and insane. seems more like a crash course than a learning one to me. been having screwed up brains that gone mentally nuts with a spilting sharp pain each time the lesson ends. its really drainous leaving you with no energy at the end of the day. hate dealing with codes and stuffs plus having to stare at the com makes ur eyes go haywired. i swear i aint going into travel agency. had to sit for the theory cum practical paper with passing mark of 7o% and 98% for distinction. thank god its open book plus we had tips otherwise i'll just bang my head on the wall. aint no idea if i'll be able to get the cert. oh whatever. headed to causeway point with abbiie, amelia and rebecca. did my nails and hunt for abbiie's heels to match her dress. stupid bus journey was freaky long that took an hour for me to reach home and had to rush like hell again. bathed and make up rushing out forgetting so many things and not combing my hair again. headed to ame's place before heading to sembawang yacht club for our graduation dinner, 'havana' night and we were late. their event was good and thanks to rebecca who asked the caterer to cook a vegetarian meal for me as i couldnt eat stuffs from the buffet.

*..adrian and dian dancing together*
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went to dbl o with almost half of our classmates and was definately fun. saw danny as well with his extension hair. LOL! was pretty tired by then and left at 23o//

#o2o6'Friday - woke up late and nua-ed the whole day before heading out in the night meeting glenda and off to zouk. phuture was freaky packed with people. its a funny thing how one recognized you yet you don't seem to know the other party. was so blur when someone approached me calling out my name when i don't even know him and it was so akward at that point of time. LOL! saw stephanie and so happen bumped into one of kelvin's girlfriend and zee. wonder why do i always have to bump into him whenever i club and it really isnt a good thing cause nothing good will turn out. this time round he can just fcuk off. don't fcuking LIE and say shit stuffs cause the truth will be out one day and true enough he got so guilty that he dont even dare to look into my eyes when i stared at him. so what if he drive a fcuking evo he's just a blady ass. its just too bad that he've messed with the wrong person. homed by 4 and was dead tired..//

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* thanks adrian for everything you've done and be there when i needed help; its really a great thing having you as my buddy all these while and within these two years memories are created. friendships created will always be cherished and that it would not just stop within this two years but for a lifetime! its really great working with you and all the shitty fun times we did. cant imagine we've been seating partners for two years and boy am i gona miss everything; all the stupid lame shits we did in class to keep awake and you waking me up when lessons are starting. anyway great job done for our class event (= and lucks for internship. control your temper and dont act rashly. its gona be real different in the outside world but i believe you'll survive in there` cherish what you have and not do stupid things that make you regret again.. ;D

* thanks chuen wei for the sandwich, chrysanthemum tea & the cute mini card (=

its really yums and i hope u did not add anything funny in it. haha. :P oh and u know what i'll say you will probably be a good house husband next time. LOL! it would be a great loss to ladies out there if you want to be a monk so don't ever try thinking of going to the temple. haha! anyway thanks for the little card you wrote and i'm not whitey i'm just fair.. if i'm white i would blend in with all the walls and become invinsible to ppl. haha` btw i'm not grumpy in the morning i'm just lacking of sleep and no worries my smiles will be back (= really grateful for all the concerns you've showed - much appreciated yea.. and the friendships created will be treasured (= lucks for ur upcoming internship and don't work ur ass off. haha. take care and hope u'll be able to find the girl of your dreams.. LOL! P.S: next time round if ur gona have late dinner again.. don't bother coming to my area cause i admit i aint good with the eateries at toa payoh and another thing i don't travel much within my area plus i'm always with wheels and not human sticks.. LOL! :D

*thanks mrs heng for the little snacks and for being a nice trainer who's so motherly (=

*..her and her reddy beaniie icy creamy*

* thanks to the peeps in programming department; Fidah, Dian, Adrian, Sarah, Alicia, Vanessa and Sandy. without you guys, things wouldnt be smooth and our event "mirror-me" wouldnt be a success. it was definately a great time working with you guys leaving it as a memorable one (= lucks to all for ur upcoming internship..

..the days of studying and dramas has come to an end'
//tankiies for the friendships` the memories and entertaining endless dramas'

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Happy Birthday to June Babies

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