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.Wednesday, December 28, 2005 ' 2:53 PM Y

in 2 days time.. its the end of 2oo5 & a new chapter begins where 2oo6 appears whereby another beautiful memories will form. hopefully it'll be a good year ahead for everyone (= its unbelievable how time zoom pass us so quickly that i rather not think of it. in another 6 more months i'll be finishing my sch term. get done + complete everything & den i shall mia. have yet decided what exactly do i want to do. continue studies or work? aint no idea. haha. whatever` shall just relax & enjoy my one wk of hols left & by then i'll do some serious thinking.
did some shopping lately & as its the last week of the month, i'm awfully broke. lolls. tankiies god i'm gona work tml evening` doubt i'll be clubbing again tml. ladies night tonight & i'm meeting my sweets later on. lolls. another moment for us to get crazy but i aint planning to drink// stayed over at my darling one's place yday & tankiies for the hospitality u've given me. am touched by it (= & yes i learnt cooking frm my aunt. at least i managed to learn how to bake & cook during my hols - who says i cant cook? haha! i only cook for the priviledge ones & f.y.i the stuffs i cook are edible & it won't cause food poisoning. lolls. my xmas was a memorable one &amp;amp; my brother called frm hk; showering me with love & concern making me feel blessed & make me miss him even more. had peeps over at my place. with my xmas tree, lovely log cake, presents & love ones around together with horror dvds. haha. how emo can we get. din manage to capture some snap shots for i'm rather lazy to do it. received some pressies & i really appreciate it loads esp the ones that my parents have given me *muacks! darling one stayed over my place on fri & we actually stayed up till 4am baking dark chocolate cookies for xmas. how lame can we get. with all the ingredients & stuffs to be done but had fun baking so no complaints (= [[*opps. sorry cwei i forgot to bring the cookies & ginger man for u that day. lolls. pass u the cookies dis wk den.. ]] ...and so happy 2oo6 peeps! get done with this sucky year & awaits another new chapter of life (=


perhaps i should just let it be & leave it as it is..
if hopes will to turn to disappoinment
i rather be the one that awaits silently//

will you catch her when she falls ;


.Monday, December 26, 2005 ' 4:59 PM Y

i'm getting confused as each day pass
it seems i'm falling deeper each day;
like what the fc*k am i doing.
hell would i know..
i don't know & don't wana know

i cant take it no more
should i face the truth & stop deluding myself
i don't think i can do it
no i cant. i'm a weak ass
afraid of pain, hurt or whatever fc*k//

will you catch her when she falls ;


.Friday, December 23, 2005 ' 3:45 PM Y

jingle jingles
twinkling twinkle belllssss
is mr santtaaaa coming ? lolls.
Christmas Greetings my lovely peeps !
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2 more days & christmas is here. been hunting & shopping for gifts but aint done with it. practically bcoz i'm broke & i hate cracking my brains of what to buy. lolls. gona be busy being a part time maid cleaning up my room cum house for peeps are coming on sunday. and yes i realised i haben really cleaned my room for the past 6months? lolls. opps =X horrible as it sound but its still cozy! haha.

am trying hard not to go out often = saving more money & i cant go on sewing the hole in my pocket. lolls. stayed at home on tuesday & emo with my books. lolls. sounds crappy but no choice. wanted to go to gym with dd on weds but he came home late & so met up with glen & shiying in the evening at centrepoint before heading to zouk! [*sorry sweets for being LATE! lolls =X] ladies night & its crazyyy` packed like sardine & hot like suana but who cares - we had fun.
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reached home ard 5. wanted to keep myself awake. in the end i fell asleep & couldnt wake up. my parents were so gleeful abt it for i promised & bet that i'll be awake to acc them & climb the hills. urgh! stupid me - _ -"' but cant blame for i'm freaking tired. lolls. my advice? keep urself awake & never to fall asleep even if its for 1-2 hours. was shopping the whole day with mummy @ town. bought gifts for my nephews & nieces. i must say kids these days are so fortunate with so many beautiful stuffs around. almost everywhere in the kids dept is basically PINK. lolls. headed to suntec. had jap food for dinner & was great. wanted get royce chocos but it was insane - queue was freaking long & i hate queuing. found this new shop selling belgium chocs. should be good & decided to get it for my bro. its the thought that counts (=

woke up early this morning & acc my parents to bukit timah to climb the hill. finally i prove them so wrong. haha! gosh` its like never ending & the hills are like so steep but its a good form of exercise.
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if ever a day u come across a zombie climbing the hill pls DO NOT report to the news reporter for its perfectly normal to see one in the morning. LOLS! oh yes & i saw many of my dd's clan= MONKEYS! haha. the best part? baby monkeys clinging onto their mama & being breastfeed; so freaking smallllll & cuttteeeee. feel like carrying it but am scared of monkeys. lolls

_- Presenting.. The lifestyle of Monkeys -_
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[[ mama monkey says.. scratch my back while i breastfeed our baby ~ father monkey nodds ]]
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papa monkey seeks approval from his highness...
[[ papa monkey says.. my highness i'm tired & its time to sunbathe cum sleep ]]
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mama monkey approves & *poommm* there goes papa monkey..
sunbathing in happiness & mama monkey continue to breastfeed


lolls. alrights` enough of my crapps. time to stop blogging & off for some shopping again cum meeting my darling one before i'm late// lalala. can't waitttt` to celebrate my lovely christmas with my christmas treeee (= enjoy peeps!


will you catch her when she falls ;


.Monday, December 19, 2005 ' 12:43 AM Y

"everyone dreams for a fairytale;
yet it seems hard to possess it for it doesnt exist in reality"


with courtesy of glen i'm able to watch full house & have completed watching it. i must say its a romantic & touching show - every words that they say conveys a meaning to it & every movement//actions made is like a fairytale
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although such things doesnt happens in reality but its truely touching (= and yes its a must watch korean drama. gosh. i cant imagine the days are passing freaking fast. how scary can it be - can it slow down or stop for a moment? i've yet to enjoy myself & i dun wana go back to sch. xmas is coming & i haben thought of my xmas wishlist. lolls. WHY? instead of planning my wishlist here i am thinking of my new year resolution` how lame can i get. lolls. and yeah i've yet to buy gifts except for afew? and the best thing i'm like almost broke? hurhur. 4 days of work & my pay is gone. flown & taken by the wind. lolls. thursday was out the whole day with my sweets; glen & abbie. had fun with them` spent ages in the saloon doing hair & off we head to town & bugis for shopping. bought ame her lovely xmas gift & a bag for my bro gf.

headed to sch on fri with abbie & ame to hand up our english project. met up with adrian, lorrane, ms tok & daphy at carrefour to carry out our task for the sharity gift box. tankiies guys for everything. from carrying out of the auction till the buying of stuffs. and for those who did not contribute there isnt a need for any neccessary comment & i dun tink ur in the position to say a thing. i cant be bothered if peeps are unhappy by the way i blog coz its my thoughts & what i think is right. its shopping again with my lovely cks & bought myself a black watch. went to a manicure shop @ suntec(cant recall the name) & everything there are darn costly. one day when i've the money i'll definately pamper myself for a manicure session.

met up with darling one. went for my religious meeting & it did enlightened me, giving loads of encouragement. i cant rem everything but there's one that i could rem for its the motto in my life. "don't be arrogant once u've gained an achievement but be humble in one's life" meaningful isnt it? after ages i took a bus & did i mention i dun take buses or rarely take it? simply bcoz i dislike taking it. 1. i always get lost 2. the bus journey ahead is vague, long & winding just like the journey of life. each time i take a bus my thoughts starts running & overloaded with many things. thinking of the past, the present, the future & what lies ahead of me. the longer the journey is my mind will be like a whirlpool, whirling non stop which at times make me feel lost` which is why i dreads reality & that explains my blog url. after yoga met up with glen. midnight sale @ bishan. lolls. its crazyyy` packed with many peeps especially fancl. bought some products from there & we bought an identical spag top. to end the night` we headed to prata house & slack till 2am..
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managed to earn some money yday` went to work banquet together with glen, ad, abbie & lorrane. and i realised that banquet is an easy way out of earning money. lolls// finally am able to rest today` din go anywhere except to ling's place & baked little gingerbreads together.

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had crazylicious time with her & enjoyed every moment of it. sorry ling cant stay over tonight for i din bring my medicine. shall stay over either this week or next week - i promise// lolls. been ages since i last read & borrowed two books from her. lolls. shall read it during my free time.
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tankiies dd for the lovely surprise xmas present (= really appreciate it loads *muahhs* & mummy for wanting to give me $$ cum asking what i want for xmas.. i doubt i need anything at the moment. just save it for urself for i'm doing great at this point of time & being happy earning my $$. gona be busy again this week as i'm gona work again for 2 days, shopping for gifts, baking for xmas & am going for job interview soon..


I WANT THIS !

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and yes its P-I-N-K ~
anyone willing to get it for me? lolls

will you catch her when she falls ;


.Wednesday, December 14, 2005 ' 1:40 PM Y

~*~ Plans for december ]]
1# cutting & colouring my hair
2# beauty sleep
3# vroom vroommmm
4# night over with my darling one
5# work work work to earn $$
6# shopping
7# christmas hunting of presents
8# christmas get together

pardon me for not blogging for almost 2 weeks for i've been caught up with exams, being emo, work and being too tired to blog. all i know is i havent had proper rest even after my exams for i've been working for 4 consecutive days & its driving me crazy. tankiies god it was my last day of work yesterday & i wonder how did i manage to survive. haha. oh yes its time for me to break free for i'm having my one month holidays & i'm so gona make full use of it (= time to do some catching up that i've been owing ppl and relax cum de-stress. most importantly getting my beauty sleep so pls dun be so inconsiderate by calling me late in the night & late morning.
aint no plans today but to complete my english project to be handed up tml & doubt i'm able to meet up with glen later in the evening for i've got to have dinner with my parents. i realised i havent been spending time with them since exams & felt really bad abt it. guess they must be pretty upset abt it esp my dd. *siighhs* was a total zombie yday for i'm freaking exhausted as i've been out since 7am. collected my pay & went to slack. had sushi with ad & abbiie emo-ing together outside market place. lolls. later on headed to cine & slacked at the cafe with daphy & srh dottie. dinner @ lucky with dottie, andy & cwei. we practically walked the whole of orchard before heading to tcc awaiting for glen to join us & later on danny. have a feeling that i'm falling sick again =/
was working part time for the Lexus Golf Tournament frm sat till yday & its such a relief that its finally over (= wonder how did i manage to pull through & i'm pretty amazed with myself esp on sat as i headed to work after a night of clubbing without sleep. cant imagine working 11 hours for 2 days - its a killer. this job definately sucks & earning 8bucks per hour definately isnt easy money. driving me nuts & sucking all my energy away. golf course & lexus aint something i wish to look forward to. sorry dd but i cant stand golf & i doubt i'll want to follow u to the club & accompany u play. poor me` my body aches like hell & i tink my spine was affected as it hurts terriblely. i cant recall carrying heavy stuffs and i cant carry any for i've got bone problems. its worse than working during my marriott days althou that was my first working experience. perhaps age is catching up or maybe havent been doing service for long. its alrights for the sake of money i just have to bear with it. guess its time to head hunt for another job for i need money. i'm not a poor kid but its for me to spend on additional things whenever my allowance dries up. i rather go through hardship & tire myself rather than asking my parents. i know they'll provide me with what i want & doesnt really like me to work but money isnt easy to comeby. besides earning ur hard earn money makes u learn the value of it & spending it gives u a great sense of satisfaction buying the things u yearn for. i don't know why but my allowance always seem to dry up quickly. wonder if i'm bad at accounts or there are mice in the bank biting a hole in my account. lolls. okay thats lame & i better =X before i start crapping again//



_ ; 5th - 9th
exams with Tourism Geo, Front Office, English & Hospitality Sales. i guess i screwed the whole thing for i wasnt really in the mugging mood. shall not expect much for my results as i know i din put in much effort. aint lying just check out on my results in two months time & u'll know. din went for laren's cremation for i din have the courage to do so therefore i decided to give it a miss. felt bad not turning up to bid him a last goodbye & i hope he understands. last paper on friday was a great relief & oh hell there's hoads of writing to do. aint no idea what was i writing for its total craps. couldnt get a winky sleep when i went home. my hp just couldnt stop ringing )= therefore i headed to zouk like a panda to meet Glen & Sarah dotiie in celebrating Eli's 18th birthday
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together with Dian, Michelle, Fayyadh, Rene, Alicia, Farhan, Farliza, Sandy with vivien joining us at a later part & did i miss anyone out? wasnt that enjoyable but my gosh that night was insane. the 3 of us drank like crazyyy & trust me we went over limit. imagine having Tequila Shot; Vodka Lime; Lambo; Baileys; B52; Lychee Marini*; Screwdriver* & Whisky Green Tea. lolls. crazy isnt it. thats the first & the last time i'm gona drink that much. alcohol seems to freak me out for now. din get drunk thou peeps tot i was for i was a lil high & still sober. haha. and yeah the 2 * came unintentionally. got to know new peeps again. headed to momo & it was free entry for ladies after 33o. lolls. was darn tired & having a spilting headache by then. its lyk zillions of needle poking me` terrible. left for glen house to prepare for work. tankiies god for the 2 extra panadol i ate otherwise i would have just gone crazy. almost lost my lil dragonfly Image hosted by Photobucket.com that night & lucky it din flew away otherwise i'll have to lose another pair again.

gossip for all u want for i cant be bothered with what u peeps say abt me & seriously it doesnt affect me at all coz u guys dun even noe me well enough. i dun see a need to explain anything coz u urself aint any better. frankly speaking if u love gossiping thats ur prob but do u have to be a parrot as well & to keep harping on it? ur starting to piss me off. i may have a high level of tolerance but it aint elastic. i'm pissed not bcoz of the gossips u peeps say but i hate it when ppl starts repeating & love harping on it continuously for its freaking irritating. take a good look at urself before u open that mouth of urs. i dun tink ur in the position to say others. perhaps u love ppl doing that to u coz u love to be an attention seeker but i'm different. i'm not an attention seeker neither do i like or need any attention. and yes i dun care if u start condemning me coz i dun even give a shit abt it. friendships to me are nothing. once bitten twice shy and i only treasure those that are worthy to be kept

Glen :: tankiies for the ride home yday, helping me get that necklace, lending me ur uniform + sch shoe and everything! really appreciate loads. from clubbing to coffee sessions to shopping` its always crazyy & enjoyable. lolls. lets work harder to earn more money den i can bring my chop chop along and we shall whack the shops out there. lolls. love ya *hugs !

Sarah dotiie :: lolls. dun worry & dun feel bad abt it okie. just go to thailand & have doublelicious fun. afterall i'm ur marmie & i'm supposed to look after u (= love ya dottie *muacks !

vivien :: tankiies for looking after us on friday. helping us to get panadol & the bfast that u bought as well as the bottle of chivas u opened (= appreciate loads. take care yeah & see ya soon

daphy :: great fun slacking with ya after ages. lolls. shall come out again & slack yeahh. happy holidays & see ya soon (=

cwei :: better wake up ur idea & stop buttering me before i take my butter frm my fridge and butter u up in making u become a sandwich. lolls. stop saying i keep yiaking away. u think i got unlimited energy ah. i also vv tired ok but i still entertain ur with my lameness. my lameness only entitled to certain ppl ok so u must feel honoured that u can hear me lame. lolls. besides my lameness also not for u to listen` can dun hear de what. better stop saying me. one day u got no lameness to listen den u know! haha. anyway tankiies for the morning call & can i have my morn call next year too? lolls as well as the coffee yday so when u want ur ice cream? faster la dun so slow. i now got money dun wait until my money is gone den u start asking. haha.


last but not least..
Happy Birthday to the december babies >> Nick, Vivien, Eli, Lorrane, Ziqin


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so happening` guys actually bond togther when they sleep! lolls. opps =X


will you catch her when she falls ;


.Sunday, December 04, 2005 ' 5:38 PM Y

how precious can one life be. i lost a friend. a very caring, entertaining and thoughtful friend whose friendship i treasured & nbr once regreted knowing him. i may not mean anything & thou i aint as close compared to his buddies but afterall he's still a good friend of mine. daphy, sarah, glen & i were studying at town yday when vivien called informing us that laren passed away, i for once lost my whole soul. i don't even know if what she said was true as it was too sudden - the very unexpected. i couldnt accept the fact that he has left. i didnt know what to do & at that point of time, i was lost, blur & i felt my tears coming out but simply couldnt roll out. i couldnt even continue mugging for exams. all i know was we were all sitting there lost for words. flashbacks of our friendships were recalled. its really a saddening news. i wouldnt forget how i got to know him as a friend, his first lamest sms, telling me he had a crush on me, talking to him over the phone, disturbing me, smsing me occassionally asking where am i going in the night, msging me on msn & telling me his problems when he's emo, sending me his ex-gfs pic & telling me abt dem, asking me to write him another nicer testi in friendster, lending me his locker when he's still in sch, helping me to packet food once for me & my friends. all these will be kept as part of a beautiful memories however i really regretted taking things for granted. for not meeting up for coffee when he asked me to and i even promised & owe him one to meet up in december` now that december has arrived, he has left. i cant fulfil what i said for its too late for everything. why didnt i do so when he's around? now that i want to catch up with him, his presence isnt here anymore & the very last time i saw him was in momo cum the last time we had a conversation *siighhs* he made me realised how one life can be vulnerable & precious. u never know whats going to happen next. never take ones presence for granted. it'll be too late once they are gone & that regrets are the unneccessities in life. i really teared when i came home - it just flow out continuously. *sobs* i told mummy & she consoled me. she said this is part & parcel of life & that we have to accept it. perhaps god wants to take him bcoz he has completed his mission in this lifetime. is it really true? is that god really wants? why does he want to take him away now? he's still young & have a bright future ahead of him. why of all things happen. why must it have to be my friend. i just don't understand & am confused. *siighhs* i finally prayed to god today. i prayed not for myself but for laren. asking god to watch over him at the other universe, blessing him to have a better life when he recarnates & blessing his love ones who have lost him to be strong. i know many people & his love ones are emotionally down & its a hard thing to accept the fact that he has left us but life has got to go on.. i believe laren wouldnt want to see us being this way. am going to his funeral tml after our geography exam to pay him my last respect * siighhs* rest in peace laren.. you have given many of us beautiful memories that we'll not forget & u will always be remembered in our hearts.

will you catch her when she falls ;


DEFINE HER LIFE;

when simplicity meets complexity ♥




UNDERSTAND HER;

seeking the imperfections within ♥
m i ss y b l u rr y
28th M a r c h
being EMO is her thing

MAKE HER HAPPY ;

a smile that forms ♥
+ loved ones ; besties
+ EMO songs
+ gettaway vacations
+ diamonds
+ cam-whoring
+ shopping spree
+ dark chocolates
+ precious moments
+ linkin park
+ PINK BLACK WHITE PURPLE

NOTHING COMES EASY ;

everyone needs to be pampered ♥
* to be happy
* lose weight
* back to gym
* kickboxing sessions
* a different hairstyle
* hair treatment
* new spectacles
* dior addict ii
* v.s. fragrance
* samsung cellphone
* dkny watch
* coach scarf stripe wrislet
* ...scarf stripe swingpack
* coach signature large tote
* her 'diploma'
* obtain a degree
* enrol in local uni
* take up german language
* gettaway trip to..
>> #Bangkok
<< #Taiwan
>> #New Zealand
<< #Korea
>> #Japan
<< #Switzerland

SPARKLE HER LIFE ;

keep her entertained ♥



MEMORIES THATS LEFT WITHIN ;