when the mind feels uncertained, the heart seemed unclear

Its been ages since i changed my layout and i've finally changed it.

I love my current song. aint it EMO enough? haha

I've removed my tag board cause i think its getting redundant. MSN me if you need

AUGUST is coming, gona be a busy month.

Okay thats all for now, will be back for updates again

Take care people, with love.

Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket

there was never a beginning and it'll never be an end..

i'm getting tired and it aint gona be easy;

till then, when its all over; i'll never look back for i'm numbed

will you catch her when she falls ;

Hello people, since i'm doing night shift this week i decided to post an entry since i've gotten the time right now which actually not cause i'm suppose to sleep but whatever cause its my last night doing the darn graveyard shift before i finally get to really rest on my off days and yes the owner of this url is kinda lazy to recap and recall every single details therefore i shall do some major photoposting instead of writing out every lil details as my STM is always reacting so you aint gona expect me to recall everything from last month.

You know i really hate doing graveyard shift. Not that the work during the night is horrible; it is actually much better than the day cause its just so peaceful and not political but i just can't take it. I know i'm always having late night outs but it is totally different from working; let alone working 5days night shift. Even though we gotta do like once a month and its my second time doing night shift its hell terrible and killing me already. I get really so brain dead and drained, whereby i can't focus and my face really do look shag. Aaaahhhh this is so not good for me and my health.. Thank god its the last night i gotta work for tonight. I so can't wait for my off days!

*the tired and drained out look of hers..*

At times when work gets really dull.. You'd be glad you have colleagues that keeps you entertained..

Oh and i forgot to tell you guys that my uniform has changed like ages ago. Remember i used to wear this when i first joined? And now its gone..

The uniform with just a scarf inside that i wore for the first 3months.

I just can't imagine how time flies cause i'll be graduating with my diploma in two months time as well as gaining a year of working experience in the hotel industry. Thats pretty fast isnt it? And soon every individual will be leading a life of their own which is kinda scary cause you can't predict your future and speaking of planning the path that lies ahead is really a stressful thing. I'm still deciding on the path i'm leading cause i'm in two mind - whether i want to further my studies with a degree next year or continue working but of course there's something i've put my mind to it and decided which i ain't telling. If my tolerance allows, i'll stay till February cause everything's getting fc*ked up.

I can't wait for my pay day for this month cause my upsell for last month was good which means i'll get quite an amount for my incentives *happy happy* (= I guess everything's base on luck cause not every month my incentives will be pretty good and i'm working extremely hard because i need money. Not that i'm desperate or anything like that but you won't get to understand why i'm working so hard for my money. Now that i'm working, my parents has stopped paying for my credit card and phone bill and no more frequent shopping sprees with them like i used to have in the past.

For the whole of last month till now..

Caught Fantastic Four with Glenda, Ying and Katie at Cine's Cathay. I'd rate the movie 3.9/5poppies. Headed to the beancurd shop at Geylang after our movie and slacked till late..

Ying's Birthday @ Zouk - Worked in the day, headed home & napped for an hour. Popped over to Glenda's place and thank god daddy sent me there cause it was hell late. Headed to zouk and dinner at the coffeeshop. Nothing much to eat but horrible carrot cake. And yes, picture shows it all; it was alcohol overdosed that night..

Met up with my two "brother(s)" one of the day(s) after my mid-night shift and yes you can imagine how shag my face looked and how dead tired i was cause i was practically dragging myself to be alive. I know i could go home and sleep but i can't cause we decided to get his present(s) together and we had to wait for all the shops to be opened. Had breakfast at Mac Cafe and thanks brother for the breakfast. Went over to Suntec and we went into this bear shop whereby you create your own bear. I tell you the bears are so cute and huggable. I wouldn't mind if anyone of you are willing to buy for me. Haha =P Lucky it isnt hard getting him his present and i got him something from Ashworth which isnt cheap.

Glenda's Birthday @ MOS - R&B was good but a pity we didn't get to dance and it was alcohol shit again. Thanks ashton brother for your jacket as i was freezing cold and shivering. Didn't stay till late and met up with my "brother" after that as he wanted to go for supper but i was so tired with my head hurting from the alcohol. In the end, he sent me home and i had to force myself to bathe before i collapse on the bed.

Caught "Transformers" at Vivo's GV sometime ago with my "brother" and i'd rate the movie 4.9/5 poppies. Its a great movie peeps it'd be a waste if you havent catch it. I love the movie so much i tell you and the soundtrack's my favourite song! Hurhur. Anyway thanks "brother" for the movie treat and accompanying me to watch the movie even when you've watched it. Met up with my other "brother(s)" as well mister wong for dinner before heading home. Thank you for walking me down to the train station; even though its a short meet up but at least its good enough and that moments you gave aint something that can be replaced.

I took MC few days back; not that i'm sick but its for my brother's graduation cause i didn't had off that day and i had no choice but to report sick cause graduation only comes once in a lifetime whats more he's my one and only brother who's someone significant in my heart. Headed to NUS wee early in the morning and i was still in a daze as i didn't get sufficient sleep cause i came home late from work the night before. As you know i can't stand long talks and while the ceremony was going on, i kept dozing off till it reached brother's ceremony of receiving his cert as i'm suppose to snap him while taking his cert. Anyway, mama was trying her best to keep me awake and she was like telling me, "Better don't keep falling asleep and wake up. Got so many cameraman here later they film you sleeping then everyone can see you sleeping." And i think i was semi conscious den and i replied saying, "I won't be so lucky to let them film me sleeping la" and i dozed off again. Lol. The whole ceremony lasted till noon and we took pictures. Pictures of my brother's happy face and my just wake up face..

Dinner at "Lao Beijing" at Plaza Singapura with my grand aunty as she came back to Singapore for a short visit. As much as i don't wana have a meal with her but i've no choice and also to celebrate brother's birthday. HAPPY 25th BIRTHDAY Brother dearest, with love from me (=

Went to cut my fringe at REDs last week and did some shopping alone to kill time before meeting the girls. Met up with Yingying and got to know her friend, Denise at town. Shopped with them before heading down to Bugis in meeting Glenda. Sorrryyy sweets for being LATE! Lol. Opps. Yes its more shopping again and i'm loving every minute of it. Shopping's addictive and my love. Basically its shopping day for me and damages in my pocket for i bought loads of things. Went to old airport road(i think) for our dinner and yea a last minute decision to pop by zouk and its hell pack plus humid like sauna.

Lastly, no more manicure sessions for the time being as i had my acrylic nails removed and my nails are kinda weak and fragile right now..

Okay dokies its the end of my entry and i know my pictures are huge for i don't have the time to edit which explains the outcome. As for now, I'm heading to bed to catch my deprived winky sleep otherwise i'd be a zombie(which i already am) at work tonight.. Nights people.

at times i felt like letting everything go ; was it a mistake all along?
do you feel the same way as i feel? tell me that it aint true cause i can't figure out what it is

will you catch her when she falls ;

If there is anything i'd like in a week, it would be my off day
Like who doesn't like to be away from work?
Only idiots like working..

Wana know something?
My damn report has yet to complete. haha.
And i'm still typing away.. Whatever.

Have been partying and drinking lately..
Been overdosed on alcohol; which is real bad
Am gona put a stop to it.

Lastly, midnight shift sucks.
It robs away my precious sleep and made me look like shit for almost a week.
It felt as thou my whole energy level was being sucked and drained
Hell am i gona do that every month.

Here's the evidence..

Look at my blady eyebag. Freak it; its disgusting!

Let you on a secret..
I'm getting sick of my job.
September 25th would be the date i'm waiting for..

Yet again this is just another OH-SO-RANDOM post of mine.
I'll be back to post a proper detailed entry; that is when i've the time & really free.

will you catch her when she falls ;