when the mind feels uncertained, the heart seemed unclear

i'm in a happy mood today. aint no idea why` maybe i've been spending loads of time with my parents or perhaps its due to the shopping therapy i had with mummy yesterday. bought some facial products and masks (= thou my face is spotless but that doesnt mean i don't have to bother taking care of it. thanks to mummy who helped me pay my damage otherwise i would be hell broke as i aint working yet. surviving on my allowance alone just aint enough and yes i'm sending out my resume already. aint telling which companies and i've already sort out my plans` shall see how it goes (= if things doesnt go according to plan i'll just have to further my studies at the university(which i hope not). my rashes is back again and its really freaking bad; hell red and freaking itchy. havent really healed and i hope its not enzymia. time to head to the doctor and heed for some advice especially when it involves my face.

the whole house was especially quiet today and i aint used to it. brother had gone to Cambodia on a backpacking trip while dd has left to U.S for his oversea job trip again and mummy was off to work. ~~hell bored~~ leaving me with little goldie and yea guess what i did today? for the first time ever; believe it anot, i washed my own ~~toilet~~. spending an hour or so in that small bathroom scrubbing ~~like hell~~; i must have gone nuts ~~and its freaking tiring~~. the outcome was sparkling clean, am so proud of myself and for that i shall upgrade myself from the ~~'pampered shit'~~ to the 'director of cleanliness'. LOL! okay i'm uttering rubbish again. seriously i don't do the housework; if i could i wouldnt want to do it but to employ a maid. however no matter what every girls have to learn the basic in order to survive. anyway if i really do own a wand i would wringle it wishing for all women out there not to do the household chores but leave it to the men (=

am going on a short gettaway trip with my family next week (= the moments to enjoy myself before i end my tai-tai lifestyle. haha. i guess i better pray for safety before the trip because i wouldnt want to encounter a big experience with the big wave. speaking of tai-tai lifestyle, was at the travel agency and i saw this 5D4N itinery located somewhere in thailand. a detox SPA vacation costing 2ooo bucks for just 1 person. mummy said she might go with dd during their anniversary. wonder if they would include me along as well. LOL! *just kidding* its helll expensive but if i have the money i will definately go on that trip to experience what it is like to actually be a tai-tai and enjoy life. haha. oh yea while at the travel agency i was being reminded of the abacus course for they had to print out that slip of paper. wouldnt want to be reminded of it cause it gives me hell headache //

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#11o7'Tuesday - met up with Cheryl at town. *sorry to have made you wait* headed to some cafe at taka for lunch. did loads of catching up and she passed me my belated present. *thanks girl i love the presents* time flies and many things happened. she's what you call the 'informant' to every gossips. LOL! how interesting (= been ages since i last saw her and i'm just so glad whenever i catch up with her again. amazingly after 11 years our friendship never once changed (= am really happy to have her around but sadly she's going overseas for further studies soon. later on met up with the 2 amelia and glenda, at hollywood secrets. they were doing their nails for the wedding. as usual tuesdays are a never fail visit to our yummy waffles (= great time spent with them and homed at 9 //

#13o7'Thursday - rebecca's wedding; thanks to dd who came back in time passing me the car. drove down to goodwood park hotel to attend rebecca's wedding dinner. *congrats rebecca; a lovely blissful happiness starts ahead* glenda, amelia, kenneth, wcheng, shihui, derline, deeg, dawn, keith and chee ho were there.

lovely wedding with a pretty bride and groom (= her porfolio of wedding photos was indeed beautiful that portray the petite rebecca. dinner was too much to handle as i was freaking full. left around 113o and headed over to coffee club opposite cineleisure. *sorry dian mei for not making it to M.O.S* met up with my two dear 'brothers' and mr small eyes. chatted and slacked with them. had strawberry smoothie & its yummy. chatted and slacked with them; havent seen them for months and am glad to do some catching up (= homed at 315 and was freaking exhausted cum sleepy yet couldnt sleep till 5 - _ - //

#16-07'Sunday - *family day* didnt send brother to the airport as he left wee hours in the morning. woken up by mummy at 7 and followed my parents to dd's golf club. finally after ages i'm back to swim again (= swam for two hours and felt so refresh. the feeling's just great. was rather bored and should have brought a book as i had to wait for 3 hours for dd to finish his game and so i fell deep asleep on the sofa. had dim sum for lunch and was yummy (= went grocery shopping; had a bad headache and almost fainted. its like an immediate effect for i went to sniff packets of moth balls as i wanted to check out which ones smell nicer to put inside my cupboard. didnt know that its not suppose to be sniff as its hell poisonous //

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R A N D O M - S N A P S !

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FACT of the day: do you know that the distance between Novena and Toa Payoh aint far;
you could actually walk from destination A(NVA) to B(TPY) or B(TPY) to A(NVA)
* train distance approximately 3 mins while walking distance approximately 25 mins

Matter of the FACT - i actually accompanied my mum to walk from novena church to my door step. amazing isnt it (= i just did a lame-o-thing and my legs are my transportation. *so proud of it* LOL!

// E N D I N G O F F ;

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-happy of who she is; nothing more she could ask for (=

* i'll be back to update after my holiday (= ; take care peeps !

will you catch her when she falls ;

the bug that took charge of her system; making it a second home

WORLD CUP FINALS; FRANCE - ITALY

[ who do you think will win *i'm betting on france*]

//if you are hoping for ~~loads of~~ snappies in this entry; ~~sorry~~ you'll be disappointed

firstly, happy birthday to my dearest brother. turning 24 and no longer the young boy` please stop being a d*ck and be so crazy, irritating me all day long *hope you'll like the presents i bought for u (:*

aiightts. back to where i shall begin. been leading a tai-tai life recently but aint that lucky as i've been hit by the bug; being sick for a week is really irritating and i couldnt go out. blessing me with tummy flu, terrible migrane, giddiness, bad cough with hoads of phlegm and sore throat. brother thought i've been having too much nightlife that leads to being sick but i've been staying at home since he went for reservist. trust him to assume - _ -" havent been eating well lately or rather seemed to have lose my appetite. aint no idea why. the best thing; no doctors but self-recovery` heh. *i hate docs & medicine* and yea thou sick with the bug i'm still hitting the clubs` anyway my brains were never sane when i was a baby..

its coming to a month and i'm gona job hunt pretty soon otherwise i'll probably go nuts. maybe i love to torture myself by working. LOL! tai-tai lifestyle is indeed comfortable but i simply cant stand slacking and doing nothing. furthermore i need extra money for additional spending (: might take up a third language but still deciding on what to learn and yes give me time and i'll buck up on my chinese. *everyday is a learning process* i don't just want to remain as a potato; at least potato mix with rice` why rice cause chinese eats rice. haha. crapps.

had a dream recently; didnt know if its a good or bad one - couldnt sort it out what was it about and the next thing i knew i woke up with my eyes damp; this time i wasnt sleep talking - i teared. was i crying in my dreams where it became real? i couldnt recall crying and why was i crying? aint no idea whats happening; something that i wanted to know whats it about yet couldnt figure out.. sucky//

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#o1o7'Saturday - Glenda's 21st; thanks to dearest brother for sending me to her place in the evening. CK ladies, sarah dottie, rebecca, fad, hafiz, eli, danny, vivien, martin were there and later on adrian came. saw familiar faces but couldnt recalll their names *STM; couldnt blame* had fun and we played ping pong till we perspired and the soccer game(whatever it is) as well as ktv-ed. didnt watch the world cup 'portugal vs england' match till at the vv end whereby they had the penalty kick. how interesting. haha. dearest brother came to fetch me at 23o and sent curtis home as well as cheryl. was freaking hell tired by then; perhaps i havent been sleeping early but till 6am recently. wanted to catch the brazil match but cant as i suddenly felt sick; felt like puking and with sharp pain in my tummy//

#o2o7'Sunday - *family day* parents brought us to jumbo restaurant at dd's golf club for seafood together with cheryl. been months since i ate those stuff due to being vegetarian and having to eat that was rather weird. had prawns, kang kong, scallops, pepper and chilli crabs as well as man tou. didnt eat much and dd said i've to eat and try almost everything to get my tummy used to it for its already kinda screwed. its like i eat weird stuffs that people wouldnt like eating it and i don't eat the kinda food that people find joy eating it. walked around the club and i love the swimming pool (: *i wana go swimming again!* couldnt do much for its already late and everywhere's closed. sent cheryl home and i fell sick again. this time had fever and feeling way horrible//

#o4o7'Tuesday - waffles day; went to town and met up with amelia and glenda in the evening after their work. poor girls looking all tired. had our all time favourite at the usual place. chatted and slack before they head for home. wanted to hunt for presents for brother and mummy but wasnt feeling well again thus heading back to rest//

#o7o7'Friday - brother's back from reservist; thou i missed him but having him around means losing my peaceful moments at home. initially was suppose to meet up with mummy in the evening for shopping but i had a sudden migrane attack thats freaking bad and terrible. couldnt get to sleep in the night as the pain was killing; aint no panadol at home = sucky. beared the pain and mummy helped to messaged my head. boyyy can you imagine it was so bad that i had giddy spells as well. freak it//

#o8o7'Saturday - celebrated brother's birthday in advance and dd brought us for lunch at "Lawry's" located at Paragon, together with cheryl.

simply love their ambience and the service delivered was good; dining at such place definately aint cheap. their staff uniform was unique as well rather different from other restaurant but a pity i didnt take a snapshot of it. dd ordered beef for me as i'm an idiot when comes to deciding what to eat.

was yummy and freaking beef was really tender; couldnt finish up and brother helped me with my remainders. gosh and a dish like this cost 5obucks. must be some expensive cow they serve` LOL! ..and dd's total damage came to 25o bucks; lucky they had some promotion going on otherwise it sure do gona be way expensive.

went shopping with dd and mummy after lunch while brother went elsewhere. parents bought me a shoe and its rather cute *thanks dd & mummy* shopping on a saturday afternoon when there's sale going on is definately crazy for its hell crowded and i do get irritated. shopped around for brother's last min present hunting and finally bought him a wallet together with a belt as well as royce choco. gawd brother your present is killing me leaving me a half brokie` but its alright; birthdays comes once in a year (: mummy bought him a cake while i did the choosing of flavours for him - his all time favourite, chocolate. heh. (:

was spot check by mummy of what was i wearing before i left the house. lucky i was clever to wear different outfit; wasnt suppose to be out when i'm sick but parents just gave in to me. met up with glenda and her friend ping ping(i think) in the night at M.O.S. saw phyllis quek parking her car inside the carpark; seems haolian to me. anyway partied with her other friends. crazy bunch of girls whom i don't know but was fun clubbing with them. as usual was freaking packed inside and hot like suana. guys in there were even suckier = CMI. as thou they were some hungry ghost trying hard for their luck. didnt drink but only fruit punch for i was still sick and maybe i shall put ~~alcohol a past tense~~? haha. ~~saw him again~~ with that usual cap of his at a distance and he saw me as well. am always bumping into him in clubs and i cnt be bothered anymore. saw his stupid evo at the carpark as well. *thanks sweets for the ride home (:* homed at 4 and brother was up playing mahjong with his friends; lucky i was smart to bring out another jacket to cover up my clubbing otherwise i'll be nagged by him again and exposing me//

- tired her yet a happy girl; in need for sleep`

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* CWei ; dont MIA with ur work; meet up soon!

* Ling ; time to meet up after you quit your job. havent seen you for ages ever since ah ma's funeral? i miss u tons man. *hugs!

* Brother Bear; sorry havent been answering your calls. heh. i'll fix a date asap to meet up okay (:

* thanks brother for buying me my favourite; tau huey with no syrup added with soya bean (:

* thanks dd and mummy for everything you have given us; pampering us with all the love and making us feel blessed, giving your best in providing us a comfort life *muacks! (:

introducing her new pet fishy; little goldie
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//she'll be back with more snaps in the next entry

will you catch her when she falls ;

" don't compare yourself with others..
but compare yourself with who you are today"

school has ended. life has been good(for now) and it practically evolves with dvds, shopping, late night up, phone calls and going out almost everday this week; tai-tai lifestyle it seems` LOL' yet not so tai-tai afterall as i've to be a part time maid for now cause i'm the only one who has all the time in the world. shall enjoy it to the fullest before i get bored and broke. probably die of boredom by then` haha. wont be sending my resume yet for i might go on a holiday which means i cant apply for a full time job. definately gona get a part time job soon. don't want to depend on my parents for my monthly allowance cause i aint schooling anymore. rather depend on myself and earn my own money cause the sense of satisfaction using my hard earn money would be much better//

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#14o6'Wednesday - end of development workshop & Shiying's birthday; went to school in the morning to have our last presentation for development workshop. presented our ideas of 'sampans' to ms soh. thou it seems kinda ridiculous but still our ideas was accepted. anyway would really like to thank my group members of 2G; abbiie, dian, vanessa, rafidah, alicia and kase for all the effort put in for the 'motivation' workshop and coming out with our own business, the 'sampans'. working with you girls definately a moment to be remembered (=

had lunch with brother at sizzler *thanks for the treat kor* (= accompanied him to get his books and went to town; had my hair cut which i hate it loads. headed to zouk in the night to celebrate ying's 18th with glenda, sarah dottie, mao family and liyana.

we had lychee martini, peach snap, baileys and lambo. phuture was definately fun having them around but didnt had tons of fun that night as i wasnt feeling well before i came therefore left freaking early and homed at 245//

E X A M S = her being a ~~GEEK!~~ LOL'

*her span of concentration doesnt last up to 15mins*

*thanks dd for letting me have the car for the entire exam week knowing it would be of inconvenient for you (=

#19o6'Monday - Airline Ticketing`Part 1; did mug for this damn paper and studying the freaking calculation of airline ticketing was already hell terrible; whats more the exam paper? i practically screwed the whole calculations and its the heaviest mark among all so you can guess how i fared "wonderfully". numbers and i do not have any relations and i don't get along well with them - doing some damn alienic calculation is like taking away part of my life energy. yes its that bad; i HATE numbers//

#20o6'Tuesday - Airline Ticketing`Part 2; the easiest paper among all and my toes are wriggling. LOL! didnt really mug for it and whatever that is read through came out. hopefully my paper will help to bring up my marks when being combined with the first paper. dd is finally back from his oversea trip and he bought stuffs for me from london (= this trip of his seems more like a holiday vacation rather than a working assignment. LOL. i've always been envious of his job for he's always lucky to travel to most of the countries. wonder when will i have the chance to travel round the world? it might happen one day which most probably be in my dreams` LOL and i doubt it will ever happen in the sight of reality//

#21o6'Wednesday - Quantitative Maths; calculations that drive me crazy` i wonder how much of my brain cells were killed. LOL! sudden memory failure occured and its terrible cause i couldnt recall how to go about even when i had the formula on hand. never mind wasnt that bad afterall. went to pick dd from causeway point after my paper as he went to play golf. send alison to woodlands and later on abbiie and amelia to ang mo kio//

#22o6'Thursday - Convention and Exhibition; i'm gona be so dead` assumed the paper was gona be as easy as the test we took but its terrible. studied but aint my 1oo%. all i gave was some crap answers` sucky. lesson taught - never assume. went tpy central for lunch together with amelia and chuenwei and we had kuey chap; big portion for 3 peeps and was freaking full. dd came to find me later on. accompanied him to have his lunch and of course a little outing with dd definately great and i simply love such moments with him (= he bought my lens cum solution and i got to save on that cause it just aint cheap. finally change my solution for i was still using that bausch and lomb whatever it is solution. LOL! knowing the bad effects of it yet am still using it` how pathetic can i be and got nagged by dd for using it. seemed like the last paper of the week for me cause i couldnt be bothered to study pom -fc*ked up subject//

#23o6'Friday - Principles of Management; can i say its doom for me? LOL! everything i see seem so foreignic. i tried my best by writing all the lame crappy shit answers i could give but not knowing what am i writing about. LOL! who cares anyway. last paper of the week which means the final last day of my school day in shatec = i'm a happy girl cause i've finally completed my studies (= and memories all that i have left. however all is not done for i've a 15,ooo words of essay to write on - _ - had farewell reception and took some snapshot with courtesy of amelia's cammiee. haha.

headed home, slacked and dvd. sweet dd gave me a blue note for me to spend = double happy (= drove to town meeting glenda and amelia for dinner before heading to phuture. aint no appetite therefore skipped dinner.

phuture was total boring as the music was sucky till a later part. had lychee martini and baileys; our all time favourite. haha. went to find adrian and chatted with him. terrible work life he got. working in events company do suck your life dry. you work like hell get good pay but you dont even get to sleep. wonder if i should join an events company for i'll probably collaspe not having my sleep but its okay i believe i can do it. homed at 5 and wasnt expecting brother to be up playing mahjong with his friends. stupid damn world cup. i'm gona be dead and my brother's a smart ass. anyway sorry fad for not meeting up for breakfast` was really tired; coffee sometime soon//

#27o6'Tuesday - went to nuh for my usual check up and i hate waiting for its hell terrible long. lucky me i don't have to go back every 6 months but a year later (= medicines these days are hell expensive. thank god i brought my rescue card and my parents would help me settle it at the end of the month. 96 bucks for 6 months supply of medicines aint no joke. mummy was warded to tan tock seng and i went to visit her as i was really worried. later on met up with amelia and glenda at town together with fad before heading for chalet for bbq. was about to leave when cecilia messaged saying there wasnt enough food therefore we told her we'll settle our own dinner before heading there.

going to the chalet was a big mistake. treating our presence as thou we're transparent. the worst was opening the doors to the room and everyone was in there. knowing we were there yet pretended we did not exist. is that what basic courtesy all about? is that what you mean by welcoming us? don't tell us shit by saying "if you guys don't want to come, but want to come on that day we will welcome you" sounds familiar ms vanessa? thats what you told the cks in class. is this what hospitality all about? in fact if you don't welcome us all along drop the pretendance, the cks don't need that. childish acts of yours wouldnt last you through in the working industry. don't put the blame on us if its because we didnt turn up for the bbq. miscommunication leads to everything and you guys have no right to be pissed as you didnt say you've prepared our share because it was cecilia who told us that there werent enough food. don't twist and turn the fact when being told the truth; get your facts right before you really comment. we are humans afterall and humans have feelings; we don't deserve such sucky attitude or treatment shown. its okay if you guys hate us all along. jealousy speaks it all. don't compare yourself with others cause every individual have got a different life of their own. don't judge and sterotype us on your own opinion because you don't even know us well. we came not because of anything but being classmates of two years. i'm amazed by the great acting you guys have within these 2 years. pretending all the way till a point you can no longer continue to act? don't call others a fake when you are one. seriously why should we pay up when we did not even touch a single food or drink of urs plus given such shitty? isnt that too unreasonable? don't get a third party to get it from us; if you want it get it personally from us. don't hide behind the walls and act as if you're an angel who don't do bad things. seriously 5bucks means nothing to me - i'm rich and i can afford to pay but i'm not one who listen to others command and i fight for my right. given the way you people treat us, i dont think my money deserve to be in your pocket. i dont care if you dont like the way i am because this is me.
i've never been so pissed before if not for the girls things could have gone ugly; my temper is real bad. never before have i encounter such ugly doings. i wont hate for all the actions given cause it only makes one miserable and i'll forgive. thanks for the great memory created cause i'll never forget the special treatment given for nobody has ever treated me this way before. be of all joy by treating us this way cause whatever ways you treat us you in return will receive the same treatment back and i doubt you'll like that feeling; its sucky.

thanks eli, apple and liyana for entertaining us. headed to serangoon garden for prata and slacked till dearest brother came and picked me home. was on the phone with owl 'brother' till late as well as fad and slept at 7. thanks nick for the concern and sorry for not calling you back//

#28o6'Wednesday - visited mummy at the hospital with dd till evening. met up with rebecca in the evening. dinner at wisma foodcourt; had lotus soup with rice and wasnt really yummy. rather prefer the one at tpy lorong 5. waited for sarah dottie's cab and headed to zouk. ladies night out with glenda, amelia, abijah, alison, rebecca, sarah dottie and joyce.

saw deeg, mark, kelvin, adrian and eugene's cousin as well. haha. phuture was hell packed and decided to head over to zouk. learnt some mambo moves and was really hilarious. had pretty much fun with the girls but a pity certain things happened that we left kinda early. hope that everything's okay now. went to the nearby coffeeshop and slack while the girls had their supper. tired and homed at 4//

#29o6'Thursday - slept till noon and dvd almost the whole day. met up with glenda at bugis to accompany her for some quick shopping for her working outfit. boyy was i late. LOL! *sorry sweets! dinner at pasta mania and their tomato sauce wasnt yummy that particular day; aint no idea why. added loads of tobasco yet no effect of it. caught a poka dot top at bugis junction and its really cute that i bought it. haha. thanks sweets for the ride to town and headed home while she met up with ken and friends//

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*pampered us after medi-pedicure; guess which is her fugly hand and feet..*

*Glenda sweets; Happy Great 21st. you've finally turned 21. lets all shake hands in becoming olddd! yay. LOL` say bye to childhood days and welcome to adulthood (= hope you'll have a lovely great and memorable 21st with double loads of fun. may all yerr precious wishes come true and you with all your gucciiiii where i'll alwayss acc you to that gucci shop to make purchases. *next time it'll be my turn* LOL! lammeee. love yerr bitch *muackks! (=

*Seng; good luck in becoming the next army boy and hurhur my darling one is MINE! you cant snatch her away from me` LOL! take care and all the best mr soon-to-be botak (=

*thanks derek for lending me your laptop for my project (=

Happy Birthday to July Babies; Glenda, Jasmine, Dearest Brother & Mummy!

aiighttts. i'll be back for more updates again`
..and its out for sseaaffoooddd with her family` lalala (=

will you catch her when she falls ;