when the mind feels uncertained, the heart seemed unclear

oh greatt.. finally able to upload pics onto my blog. shall upload the recent ones first. when i'm free i'll upload those previous pics k. lolls. din expect my brother to d/l the picassa programme as he wanted to upload pics onto his blog. haha` yups. had my driving in the late noon & my dance prac in the morn. as usual i was late again` overslept. opps. i actually cant rem all my dance steps. but cant blame me coz i havent been going for the past 3 sessions as i've been busy with the darn bqt project. was learning how to u-turn today. pretty easy but almost had an accident with the taxi driver while u-turning. luckily i jam break in time. today was a malay instructor. aiiiiee. i'm darn blur coz its lyk i dun hab a fix instructor? so every instructor been telling me diff stuffs? anyway today's instructor darn kpkb. cant stand it. arghhs. alrights. aint continue blogging. gona have my dinner & have my shower. sian` gotta go sch tml. urgh!

took some snappie shots yday. my uncle bought durians for us on friday & was eating the remaining yday. my bro was lyk complaining of the smell & insist me of finishing the whole thing up ;/ tankie g0d i din hab sore throat today. haha. luckily my mummy helped me to eat afew too.

opps//its me getting exposed on having my 1st bite

there goes my third bite..

eekks. wad e heck is dat on my finger?

its my eaten durian.. lolls.

disgusting eh? yes indeed it look sick. lolls

my dirty fingers of eating durians..lolls!

5 durian seeds are mine & other 3 my mummy's.

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took this quite long ago`

but din have the chance to upload it..

does anyone have any clue on what this is? lolls!!

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its PRATA!! lolls. but in snake shape..

so its S N A K E P R A T A !

will you catch her when she falls ;

been out the whole day & my saturday has been burnt just lyk dat. reached sch at 91oam & started presentation ard 95o? left sch at 1215. long presentation eh? i guess we din fare badly. oh well.. wadever it is at least its been done. sent indira, ad, fad & c.w to bb mrt station. dat stupid fad cant imagine him saying bad words in front of my bro. why muz he be so vulger? *shake head* nbr mnd the fact dat he said fcu* but he actually said the word cb. so blady loud? urgh! made me so paiseh in front of my bro. headed to our new home & its freaking messy due to the bits and pieces of the cabinet layout. mummy says it'll be done after a week. cant wait for it to finish. shall take sum pics on it when its done okay? went lor 5 for lunch. had westen food & was yummyliciousl. haha. headed back to our new home again to give the workers some snacks to munch & at the same time wait for cheryl to arrive. went to duno where to get our curtains done up. i dun really noe much abt curtains so i left all the decisions to my bro & parents. later on we went to check out on some audio stuffs & went to robinsons as my bro wants to buy long sleeve shirt for his attachment. in the mean time i went to search for my black shoes. din see anything nice..until i spotted one dat really caught my eyes & made me in love with it totally. it was so comfy & pretty cute. i was on the verge of buying it. the best part was.. i din noe the price but tankfully i asked the sales lady. boyy` it cost $199! i was lyk OMG! r u sure its $199? lolls. *siighs* dere aint any discount as its new arrival, imported frm italy & the inner part was made of leather. oh mann. it was so heart wrenching. love it to the max but cant own it coz i dun hab the $ to purchase it. haiis. *sobs* anyone willing to sponsor the shoes for me? haha.

*siighhs* i tink my world is crashing soon. suddenly i dun feel lyk studying & feel lyk giving up by quitting sch. dun doubt on my words coz i'm saying the truth & its frm the bottom of my heart. furthermore it aint the first time having such feelings but i noe it will nbr come true coz of my parents followed by money. haiis. i tink i gotta drag & force myself again// am i returning back to my old self again? i've the feeling dat i'm slowly beginning to give up on myself. my studies, my future, myself. *siighhs* i hope my depression mode aint acting up again. i think i need help. should i seek wisdom from god? i duno. really.. seriously. i duno why but i just seem not to be bothered abt anything anymore. am i becoming anti-social soon? i duno. i just feel disgusted abt human behaviours. anyway u can say or tink wadever shit abt me i dun give a damn bcoz i'm just being the way of who i am. u either love me & accept me for who i am or dislike me & blady get lost. i dun change or be the person for the sake of others but i change & be the person i wana be for me myself & i. right now i dun tink theres a need for me to change. i just dun understand why are ppl so different now compared to the past? are all good people extinct? aiiieeee.. wad has the world turned to? and yes. i've confirmed one more thing. i dun tink i'm interested in guys for now. pls get dis right again I AINT A LES. its just dat i'm disgusted at the way guys behave. it really pisses & irks me. dun get me wrong i'm not pin pointing at anyone but frm my point of view most of the guys always have dat sucky attitude & dat sucks..urgh! if u tink i'm acting psycotic pls do me a favour.. call the hougang chalet & put me dere. i might be better off there...

okay i know this damn quiz is blady lame. to prevent myself frm acting psycotic due to nothing better to do, i decided to check out this stupid quiz....

Your so cute anyone would think your cute. Even the grown ups:) Probaly any boy would run up to you with flowers and cute stuffed animals like you;) Just look at you. Your adorable:)

What Type Of Girl Are You???(Amazing Pics)
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oh wad a wrong judgement. me cute? urgh! i dun tink i'm dat cute. dis quiz is so damn screwed. hahaha//

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i'm tired. really tired` pretty drained out with an exhausted mind. i've been thinking: am i expecting too much from myself? have i been pushing myself too hard? i duno. seriously i cant find the answer to it. i'm lost right now & will always be no matter if its in the past, present or in the near future. i dun even noe wad am i doing. all i noe is dat i'm pretty tired & i just want to close my eyes falling deep asleep whereby i could totally shut myself from reality. coz reality bites & i hate facing reality thou i noe i cant run away frm it except frm deluding myself? at times i really do feel lyk giving up on myself even for now. i'm just too tired to carry on to stay focus & be strong. but the thing is.. can i? its not easy to be the person i'm right now & to path the way i'm leading. wads more i dun want to incur any more scars in me since 've already made tons of regrets in the past & i dun want to carry on doing the same mistakes again. *siighhs* seriously i duno. can someone just lead or path the way for me? i'm just so freaking tired... if only i've the answer to everything.

gotta be in sch at 9 for banquet ops presentation. i cant be bothered already. all i know is to be there & be myself & talk my way thru. *siighhs* there goes my saturday..the only day whereby i cud really rest. if really there were to be a day whereby i totally knock out pls dun be shock coz i guess my body cant take it anymore..

some one from my religion posted this to me.

i guess its kinda meaningful & decided to blog it down..

This lifetime will never come again; it is precious and irreplaceable. To live without
regret, it is crucial for us to have a concrete purpose and continually set
goals and challenges for ourselves. It is equally
important that we keep moving toward specific targets steadily and tenaciously,
one step at a time

will you catch her when she falls ;

back frm sch. what a day :/ *siighs* i need to destress right now!! just had my shower and smellling nice` haha. have the urge to sleep after i blog but i doubt i'll have the time as i gotta follow my dd out to pick my mummy followed by cheryl for dinner & later on to the airport to pick my brother from his new zealand trip. i really wish i could go there..*siighs* dis place is fcuked. i mean i'm not saying dat i'm not happy living in spore. i do feel fortunate to be born here but its damn stressful? aiieee..i duno how to explain. wait till i've found my word i shall blog it down again. really freaking tired cum exhausted. havent been slping since friday night. am lyk a total zombie. my eyes are freaking small today & i cant be bothered to wear my lens. finally the damn banquet ops project is done. 4 more to go. didnt wrap up much until lunch break. had a lil conflict with ad again. maybe its due to being tensed up, worried, exhausted & stress? i teared again. not bcoz of the conflict with ad & guys are not worthy of my tears. i teared coz i'm feeling so damn tired of staying strong in order not to give up on myself, feeling so god damn exhausted & stressed up. i just couldnt take it.. tink i'm driving myself nuts at the rate i'm doing things. *siighs* there's dance practice tonight & i'll be skipping it again as firstly i'm gona pick my bro home, 2ndly i've no energy to dance. probably collaspe if i were to go. poa & banquet ops were cancelled in the morn as ms jenny lai totally gave up as nobody's listening due to concentrating on completing our project & mr tan gave us the slot to wrap up everything. had fried fish bee hoon for lunch. i miss eating it for a long time & its still yummylicious. tankiex to laren who's so nice & willing to packet back for us. got back our cost control test. got 60% upon 1oo. although i suck at calculation but i aint satisfied with the marks. i cud have scored more if its not for my careless mistakes. haiis. anyway i din bother to pay attention during poa. practically slept throughout the entire lesson till 42o. dats where i open my eyes pack my bag & -poof- haha. tankiex god my dd came to fetch me home otherwise i'll be dragging myself home` at least i managed to sleep in the car.

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just reached home and decided to blog before heading to the showers. a little 'high' right now due to the B52 shot i had with ad. my favourite drink. haha. din drink much. only had the B52 and afew sips of whisky with coke. i hate dat drink. nbr lyk it` it sucks to the max. yucks (-.-) kinda surprising dat i came home rather early when i usually head home ard 4+? lolls. woke up kinda early today thou i slept ard 4+ last night to pia bq ops and yes finally its abt to finish soon` left 90%. supposed to go black last night but i didnt due to the stupid project. woke up ard 1o & watched teebee, some jipun drama on channel 8 followed by packing all my stuffs into the boxes so dat i dun hab to rush when we're abt to shift as i doubt i'll have the time if i dun do it now coz exams are coming soon & projects to be done. tuesday is the submittion of banquet ops. 2 down and 4 to go :/ went to do shopping with my parents for our new home. bought bed sheets, rugs and table mats at tangs. followed my parents go makan & had carrot + apple juice as i'm meeting ad for dinner. left to meet ad at cine to search for sean's(sylvia bf) pressie as its his bday & he invited the both of us to his dd's pub, 38 degree at hk street. makan at taka & met laren outside taka. oh did i mention bumming into jaslyn at cine? but tankiex god she din see me. lolls :x headed to the pub` wished and pass sean his pressie - a playboy lighter with red flame. its nice but kinda gek when we saw a nicer one after we purchase it. haha. stayed till 12+ and headed to 'one way' club at tanjong pagar or wadever shit to meet martin, vivien dey all. its a gay club & kinda disgusting. u see guys hugging and grooving over each other..nbr mnd abt dat but some of dem has got the looks. kinda wasted. lolls. i duno but i just tink dat gays are darn sick den lesbians..and that place plays techno` kinda boring coz i dun really fancy techno..dun hab the mood/urge to dance. lolls. alrights shall end my blogging now..gotta bathe and slp as i've got to wake up early tml for my driving and since i'm a lil high the best thing is slp` but only after i shower of coz.. i'm a vv hygienic girl k..lolls. anyways happy vesak day to all :)

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its a unique date today` 2oo52005 but sad to say i dun lyk the year 2oo5. aint a gd year for me. i aint being supersticious but i juz felt that it aint a smooth year for me. school's pretty fine. had quality and banquet. mr vincent tan gave me a new name` mushroom. coz i wasnt wearing my name tag in the morn when ad and i went to find him. he was asking me where was my name tag & he took out the sticky tape, writing mushroom on it, he asked me to wear it till i reached the class (-.-) so embarrassing! haha. but at least mushroom sounds better den wrinky butt aka fad. sarah dottie & i painted our nails black in class during break. makes me look evil. haha. can act as sadako with my black nails and it reminds me of the snappie shot dat i took on my cuzzie hp. the 'sadako' pic & its really scary coz i look lyk one in dat pic. went to check out dhm's cultural fair and did the hanna together with sarah dottie` when we returned to the class, i sensed something aint right coz its already 1 and lesson's gona start soon but the whole class was lyk so empty & the atmosphere wasnt gd. entered the class and when i turned right i saw azizah sitting on the chair in pain again. she was kicking in the air, struggling and screaming loudly, suddenly she dropped on the floor. its scary` i was standing lyk a statue together with sarah in total shock. thou its the 3rd time happening but its really terrible and frightening. hopefully she gets well soon. *prays for azizah* yeahh took the train home & i slept. omg i actually overslept for the first time ever. was supposed to drop at braddell but i ended up at newton. luckily i woke up otherwise i'll be going marina bay (-.-) aint no idea why am i always feeling so tired. i seriously tink i nid to go back to my gym!! hopefully i'll be able to find time. gotta go driving later on. *yawnx* hmms. feel lyk going to wrk part time for the convention during the 1 wk break to gain experience coz i was lyk tinking if i were to work for the convention, it'll be gd for my future at least i get the idea of wad it is abt. however, i duno if i've got the time to do so coz the job is super pengs. gotta wrk full shift if i aint wrong. yeahh i've already got driving and my dance prac wads more i'll busy with my new home. ppl pls tell me wad to do..shud i work or not? thou its during my hols and i seriously nid a break but i dun mind tiring myself out for the sake of experience. oh man i tink i'm insane. i guess i'm a workaholic. haha. hard to tell right. lolls. *siighhs* okay i seriously tink i've got problem with guys. perhaps i really have got clashes with guys. i can foresee myself being independant & not attached to dem. i aint no idea whats up with guys nowadays. its lyk they are totally different. guys nowadays are lyk so insensitive, freaking ego which i can't stand, selfish bla bla bla the list just go on. one phrase to end it all` guys are jerks. can't freaking stand them now. urgh! totally scrub off the image cum impression i've of them. i guess my prince charming is totally extinct now. so ppl now dat u noe the reason pls stop asking me to get attached coz i seriously can't stand guys & i dun see the urge to be attached. i'm just not interested okay` weird? maybe i'm weird but i simply can't get myself to be attached with such guys. simply sucks. haha. for now freedom is still the best for me :) and yeahh abt dat idiot ass. maybe in the first part he has got this 'thing' for me but frankly speaking i can't find the chemistry with him. nothing can ever happen` i aint breaking ppl's heart alrights & i dun lyk breaking ppl's heart but i can't control nature right? i guess he've found another one by now and it'll be gd for him. besides i duno why can't we get along? its as thou he wants to be in control of me? eeks. i can't stand it when guys start acting dis way to me. he reminds me of d----. its freaky. i nbr lyk ppl to control me specially when we'r not even together. i duno but it seems dat he's the only guy fren i noe dat i can't get along with & the first person to actually dare to voice out his opinions of me which is unfair coz he always misunderstood me & on the other hand he doesnt even noe me dat well? arghs. darn pek cek. its not dat i lyk to find fault with ppl. i dun quarrel with him but its always the misunderstandings which he create. can we really become friends? or juz a hi bye fren? wadever. i guess it due to his psycotic mind. i aint mean to say him crazy but seriously if u get to noe him u'll also agree with me dat his mind is crazy...

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Happy 19th birdy chipy day daphy niece!!

auntie jjac lurrbbiee ya *mmuahhs*

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i'm tired!!! so darn tired` extremely exhausted. shall have a quick winky before going for my driving. i seriously need a gd rest. doubt i can drive with a clear mind tonight as my brain aint functioning today. i'm afraid i might bang onto someone lyk last fri. almost bang onto the motorist learner. had 2.5 hours of sleep due to pia-ing my banquet ops project for the entire night. at least 89% is completed. as usual had a hard time waking up. cudnt even hear my hp alarm ringing & my mummy had trouble waking me up.. overslept again` was suppose to be awake by 7 but i slept till 74o. tankiex god my dd is ard to send me to sch. wore specs to sch again as my eyes were freaking tired. cudnt even open wide & can u imagine how small it is when i've already got small eyes. haha. cudnt concentrate during quality service..kept drifting to twinkleland & had to buy a can of coffee frm the vending machine. nbr lyk coffee frm the machine but had no choice. if i dun drink it, i'll really slp thru out the whole entire lesson till break time & it aint a gd thing. yups. didnt really have my lunch today. had waffle with kaya dat my dd bought for me dis morn & the coffee. went to find brother bear of the clowns during break. haha! tankiex for the noodles u gave to adrian. i hope u didnt hunger urself :x saw laren & he gave me a bohiew attitude` lolls. wadever. had a slice of mango cake as its daphy's bday. thou its fattening but it was yummylicious (-.-) haha. simply love mangoes` my ultimate favourite! haha. i just love mango cakes & tiramisu especially the tiramisu frm 'starbucks' & 'sweet secret' yes yes i noe its fattening but i dun eat it everyday except for special occasions or when i've the craving for it :) aikes..shitto!! guess wad? mrs kreiner just told us dat we'll be having another english project~ arghhs. not again.. seriously i'm sick of projecttts!!! i think its insane. dis sch is crazy. projects siao. tink the sch got ntg better to do. can u imagine having 6 projects dis semester? dammmnn. hhhellllpp me pls. can sumone juz dig a hole for me to hide till everything is over? okay my plan foiled today but nbr mnd i shall continue my plan tml. shall see wads --- going to do. haha. --- tink --- can escape so easily juz lyk dat & i'll let --- off the hook so easily? dream on. dun come and act as thou nothing happen at all & gimme dat 'i nbr do anything wrong' look. fcuk off. to tink i treat --- nicely & kind heartedly help her when she's in trouble & --- blady hell take it advantage of it. blady hell screw my grp & made ad tear...i swear i aint gona let u have an easy time... bbiiattcchhh!!! bet --- has got the guilty conscious. dare to look at me when i aint looking but dun even dare to look into my eye when i look at ---. useless shit. one thing for sure --- has been condemed and --- aint worthy of my frenship. yes & damn that xxx i did not scold *** dun anyhow point ur finger at me saying i'm in the wrong. aasshholle. i juz told *** in a stern manner & dats not scolding. do u noe the difference of scolding & saying in a stern manner? get ur blady facts rite. boo. blady lcps.

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back from sch. my brain's exhausted. stayed back after school to discuss abt the project. left 2 freaking more days to hand up & we're not done yet. yikes! well its another boring day with poa, cost control & banquet. can't stand mon & tues. after sch went to the new house to check out wad was done. i'm so in love with my house. its beautiful even without the furniture. simply love my dining table light` haha. hms. was suppose to go for my dance practice tonight but i din go again as i decided to go home & pia the banquet project. i guess i dun intend to slp that much for dis 2 days till the project is done.

aint in a gd mood today. was already pissed on the way to sch coz of my mum. shall not say why. later on was kinda fed up when --- just smack my butt & its not a light smack coz u cud actually hear the piak sound so blady loud? fucker. cnt say excuse me i wana cross issit when i'm blocking --- way otherwise can go the other way round wad. nb who --- tink --- is to cum and smack my butt? --- tink wad? my butt can anyhow juz let ppl smack or touch issit? machiam i vv close to --- lyk dat` kns. if ppl whom i close to (excluding guys) do that i dun care but fuck man. blady idiot. yeah den something unexpected happened. was freaking shock when adrian broke the news to me. after recovering frm my shock i was feeling kinda pek cek. how cud they do such things? went to seek out justice with dem and found out the truth` we got to noe who was behind the "brillant idea" indira and i guessed & suspect it was ---. u might be tinking we shudnt pin point at ppl juz lyk dat but come on okay we dun simply point our fingers and accuse anyone juz lyk dat. the reason is so simple. for a few occasions while we were privately discussing our project in class by whispering, --- start to come nearer to us by listening wad were we talking abt & we told --- off. i mean come on la its ppl's stuff right if its not meant for u to hear dun come and blady kaypo. wad the hell right. i bet --- has got a guilty conscious coz --- dun even dare to make eye contact with us. idiotx` *siighhs* poor adrian he cried. for the first time ever i saw him teared. i guess i understand why he cried. he must be feeling darn vexed and fuming inside. when a person is blady angry they can't control their tears even when they tried controlling its useless. haiis. dun worry k adrian everything will be fine. i believe everything will go smoothly. they can do those shit to us but we'll do much better den dem coz one thing for sure we will not resort to do such thing & secondly we know what we want. dammit man` simply can't stand it when ppl have got no sense of originality & that they try to cover up their act by giving a stupid lie. thats so damn low class. can't stand such ppl. making me feel so disgusted abt their behaviour. its lyk so fcuking last min can? how wud u expect us to believe that shit? nb. pls alright dun do such things behind ppl's back. its as thou u've been stabbed behind ur back. dun gimme such shit coz i wun tolerate such nonscence. blady hell` u cum and blady fcuk ard i'll blady play back with u. tink wad? trying to fool me issit. i may have a super low iq but dun tink my iq low means my eq also low. i can be vv nice to ppl` but dun take it for granted by tinking i'm nice to be push over or taken advantages of` coz i really hate it when ppl do such things to me. i'll fcuking swear u'll be condem by me & i'll fcuking take my revenge back. if u tink whatever i'm saying is juz bullshit, ur so damn wrong. ppl often tink they noe me inside out but what they really duno is whats hidden beneath me. u wudnt want to see the ugly side of me. when i'm evil.. i can be really be mean and nasty to the extreme. dun tink when i keep mum abt sumthing i'll juz let it go easily i'll blady make sure i'll get back at u. a tit for tat thats my philosophy in life.

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i'm back. was half stoned at sch. not only was it a monday, it was due to sleeping darn late last night. as u noe i've been lacking of slp since the starting of this sem.. i must say today's lyk shit..feeling half dead & was wandering in twinkleland in class. to make it worst, lessons are freaking boring with poa, cost control, communication & english test. omg..my concentration level was not even 5%. ahh and speaking of my compre test i tink i just screw it up as my brain aint working at all. gona bathe and catch some winky of sleep before going for my driving lesson again..

was suppose to go for my dance practice yday but i skipped it coz i was exhausted as i was practically doing banquet ops project the whole of saturday & also stayed up quite late. decided to stay at home to continue doing the project till 4. took a cab down to yck for my driving as i was late. haha! was fun & i've been going out driving on the road continuously instead of just focusing on the circuit :) my parents came to pick me up & asked them to send me to dhoby ghaut as i was meeting fad & julian they all there before proceeding to planet paradigm to support glenda's peagant. congrats glen :) the peagant ended lyk 1o but we stayed on. drank again but not too much as i controlled myself. decided to cut down on my alcohol intake. danced with my mates & with martin they all. had great fun..haha! left ard 1215 & the rest headed home wherelse the 4 of us(me, fad, julian & yad) headed to kopitiam for supper as the guys were hungry. fad was horriblely high and he was practicially running ard like a crazy ass. the best part? he did it on the road & later on he went to lie on the taxi boot. lolls. u guys shud see wad he did. freaking funny. oh guess wad i only had hot milo for my dinner which actually isnt dinner already but supper? lolls. reached home abt 1..bathed and off to bed. lolls. dat why i'm so stoned today. my mummy wasnt pleased with me coming home so late as there's school today. lolls. had difficulties waking up today & couldnt even get off my bed. tankiex god they din say anything. assumed that my dd will be sending me to sch i took it for granted and continue slping. outcome? overslept and had to rush like crazy. was dieing on the journey to sch coz my lap top was freaking heavy? dun even have the strength to carry it as i didnt have dinner last night as well as bfast? lolls. was freaking hungry today & guess wad? i amazingly finished my food and was freaking clean. lolls. oh yeahh had flairing workshop during our break. overall was okie. the flairing was nice. had a few sips of alcohol. some drinks were nice and i just remembered i drank on an empty tummy which aint a gd thing` was feeling kinda funny. simply love the drink K Ice`vodka and lemon or wadever shit? haha. arghs. i can't stand my home now. just can't wait to move into my new home.. gotta wait till 1st June :( hate this blady place now coz its infested with bloody suckers. damn dose mosquitoes that kept attacking me. both of my leg has got lotsa bitten marks & its itching lyk hell tankiex to the pests. shit it. is my blood dat tasty & sweet? arghhs.

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*yawnx* i'm back from school. nothing much happened today. morning class has been cancelled. went to sch at 1pm. had cost control test followed by comprehension and ended ard 34o. i tink my test really cmi already. lolls. gona fail gracefully :) initially wanted to study last night but i gave up due to me being a sleepyhead. woke up at 9 to read thru some notes. apparently, my brain can't absorb much. whatever` lolls. shall have a quick nappy after i blog..i need sleepp!! haha. gona have my driving later. hopefully i'll be able to go on the road again. whhee.. so fun driving out instead of the circuit. lolls. yeahh i guess after my driving i'll be heading home & off to twinkleland. aint gona do much today as i'm gona be busy dis weekend. gona pia banquet project the whole of tml & on sunday i've got my dance practice followed by my driving @ 43o & to planet paradigm to support glenda. we're all placing our hopes on her to win dats why we'r voting for her lyk crazy. haha. total madness` especially one crazy ass guy who's so competitive. messing ard with the dtms & keep fighting with our class. its lyk how much we put in he'll add a lil more on top of it. lolls. the money we had are combined together but dat ass he juz take it out frm his own pocket. duno where the hell his money came from. perhaps he's a rich kid & prob doesnt give a damn abt money. glenn jiayou wor..we believe u'll win..prove those bytches wrong & dun be afraid of them saying anything abt u :)

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zombie panda me

just gotten home not long & i've yet to bathe. shall pompoms after i blog. yeah i ended sch lyk 415? but i dropped at jurong east station as my dd & bro came to pick me up as dey were at imm buying toileteries stuffs at sim siang choon. on the journey back i slept in the car. was really in deep sleep. can u imagine how tired i was? cudnt even open my eyes & i tink my bro had to call me lots of time. haha. when i opened my eyes i was lyk why aint we back yet? din noe dey went to lim kopi. lolls. i'm lyk darn tired & i've got cost control test which i've yet to study a single topic? shit. i'm dead. real dead..~ was asking my dd why aint we home and he told me since it was half an hour b4 my mummy knock off dey decided to lim kopii. picked my mummy up & later went to pick cheryl. had fish & co's fish & chips's for dinner at the airport. its lyk a bon voyage dinner as my bro's going back packing with his mates to new zealand for a week and a half. *siighhs* lucky him. if only i could go.. i'm like stuck here with tons & loads of stuffs to do` which seems never ending? i've always wanted to go to new zealand. guess i shall have to wait till i graduate. simply love new zealand & dat wud be my ideal destination if i were to migrate. i can imagine my bro's drinking wine & falling to slp in the economy class of sq. ohh man ohh shit can sumone plls help me? i'm like half dead. aint no idea why am i always feeling so tired these days. wads happening to me? damn. its like i dun have the concentration power & always feeling drained out. guess its pretty damn obvious coz my bro was asking why am i always falling aslp and seem so tired which i aint lyk dat b4 & issit bcoz of my medication and stuff? seriously i do not noe. i doubt it has anything to do with my medication but coz of dis semester. its seriously insane. freaking busy causing me to have lack of slp. ggreatt i doubt i've the confidence in passing tml's cost control. firstly i've not touched a single topic. yes i'm serious aint lying alrights. secondly i'm tired. my brain aint functioning already all i wana do is just sleep. i'm damn stressed up now due to projects test and lots more. arghs. i need meditation. tink my dis semester gona be disastorious & a flop. arghhs. i dun wan dat to happen..

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i'm back at last

been a long time since i last blog. my internet connection crashed for no apparent reason & my com's filled with loads of virus. yup just sent my com for an operation and its virus free. haha. sadly to say it has lost all of its memory due to reformatting it. i blady hell forgot to zip my fav mp3s. arghhx. so sad all my datas + my hundreds of mp3s are allll gonnne :( dahh` wadever. i'm lazy to red/l everything again besides i'm planning to buy a lap top for myself. *siighs* gona save doublely hard frm now onwards aint gona ask my parents to buy it for me. i know if i were to ask they would surely buy it for me besides my mum has already offered to get it for me but nope. i dun want to rely on them. i want to learn to be independant. i guess its time to slowly learn to adapt on my own instead of always relying on my parents :) hmms. i doubt i can upload any pics unless i d/l my picassa programme. lolls. oh b4 i forget pls dun send me any files coz i wun accept as i dun wan any unwanted virus to screw up my com again. haha ;P

i'm tired. think my energy level is draining. i seriously want to go back to my gym and work out but i just can;t find time//my schedule is already so packed. its also been ages since i last meet up with my frens. i'm like a zombie in progress & acting as a mighty woman juggling with loads of stuff. i suspect my brain is nuts that sometimes i dun even know what am i doing or understand myself. *siighhs* this semester is crazy for me! really straineous for the mind with loads of projects on hand & tests. the last thing u wana noe is exams. on the other hand i've got my driving lessons on alternate days and my dance practice on sundays. practically my weekdays & sundays are burnt. thou i'm free on saturday i rather stay at home to rest & nua but at times its also burnt due to meeting up for project. ahhhh..i seriously think i'm insane. yes i'm-no doubt abt that. can' wait for this term to end. lolls. i need my rest!!! i'm amazed that i cud actually fall deep aslp in 1omins. boyy..when have i become a sleepyholic? i guess i should not regret on the decisions that i make but to fulfil it with joy. blahh. wad rubbish. lolls. whatever it is i believe i can do it. the feeling of achieving it is just too great. okay i know sometimes people often misjudge me as being weak or wadever shit but pls dun underestimate me coz when i've set my mind on it i'll really prove u so darn wrong. i may not interact much but pls i'm no push over. i might not fight back verbally but i've got my ways to get back at u & i'll make sure u'll regret whatever actions u make and make u feel guilty. u might think i'm fake but seriously i'm not. its just that i have yet shown my other 'me'. besides its an important survival skill to survive in this world. yeahh and humans have got to be humble. :)

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boring sunday !

alrights. i'm back to blog. sorry been busy thats why i've not been blogging. busy with tests & projects *ssiigghhs* okay now that i'm free today shall blog in detail & it'll be a super long entry to make up for it. haha ;P
okay usual i'm being a blur shit again. initially i thought there was supposed to be dance practice today so i woke up early this morning feeling sleepy due to clubbing last night. lolls. i was in half mind thinking whether shud i continue sleeping but still i woke up. went to the sofa and nua for a lil while & i was feeling kinda funny coz its lyk my body is telling me not to go especially today. decided to msg my fren & ask her. she replied telling me its next week. oh great` tankiex g0d for my intuition & me msging my fren. otherwise.. i'll be a blur shit again prepare to go for my practice & the next thing i know i made a wasted trip. just like my driving! haha. of coz i headed back to twinkeland. doubt i'll be going anywhere except to my aunts place. invited us to her new home which she has shifted for quite some time` as for me i shall have to wait for another month to go. :)

[ 3oth April o5 ` Saturday ] .. went out the whole day. was force to be woken up at 113o. lolls. bathed changed & get ready to go out with my family. went for lunch together with Cheryl, my bro's gf. later on dropped her off & headed to jurong imm to meet nelson, our designer. discussed about our colour and stuffs. after that headed to sim siang choon to get stuffs for our toiletries. haha. oh i didnt know my bro's friend is glenda's cousin. haha. decided on some stuffs but still planning & deciding on more stuffs. was getting late, asked my parents to dropped me home to get my stuffs & they headed to united square to purchase the plasma tv + sound system. okay.. was suppose to meet adrian & fad + dian mei at 715 but i was late. very late. reached somerset at 745 the same timing as dian mei. lolls. oh boyy` felt so bad for making them wait. headed to rosette to support harris's EC and boyy i tell u their menu is simply fabulous. it was yummy delicious but sad to say i couldnt finish it. the meal was really good. its a pity if u guys didnt go. haha. adrian brought champagne. we drank till abit high. ad's face was vv red during dinner & mine was vv red after the dinner. lolls. took some pics using dian's cam. wanted to bring mine but was spoilt. yups. after dinner headed to black to find slyvia & her bf. martin joined us too with his fren. well..it was a last min decision plan during dinner. haha. oh guess wad? i stopped drinking after the champagne at rosette. at least i'm able to do some self control. lolls. oh not forgetting we made friends with another girl called stephanie. well she's cute & as usual i shall not comment much. some of dem shud noe why. lolls. just realised her mouth resembles like shirin, my sec mate who's a total hot babe. lolls.
took some pics using my hp.

yummy dessert` ice paw paw(papaya) with strawberry

precious trio. the bean curd is damn gd.

funny ad` hmm. cant rem wad funny thing was it but i managed to capture his funny expression. haha!

[ 25-29 April o5 ` Monday - Friday ].. pardon me coz i'm vv lazy to type day by day. lolls. okay all i can recall was my dd came back from his oversea assignment on monday. really miss him loads. he bought loads of things back. chocolates, watch, perfumes, necklace & ear rings, cosmetics. lolls. luurbbiie everything he bought for us. tankies dd! haiis. anyway my dd will be home for a week and he'll be flying off again next week. tuesday was a horrible day. freaking pissed at ad & we sort of had a silent conflicts. he being unreasonable & blah blah blah. okay i'm at fault too. as wad i told c.w the both of us are vv strong headed. the fact that i knew it but still i didnt give in. i let the demons over rule my head. but seriously if u think i'm the kind of girl who can take ur shit den ur wrong coz i'll surely fight back & gain my rights. wednesday was english presentation. was really panicky. damn nervous as its been ages since i last presented to the class. kan chiong spider. lolls. but everything was paid off. the hard work the conflicts. haha. scored pretty well. 72 or 73 / 8o i think. lolls. i'm satisfied with the result thou i know we cud have been better. finally one project down 4 more to go. haiis. thursday was poc test. couldnt concentrate much. lolls. in the end i gave up & went to sleep. hopefully i'll be able to pass. frankly speaking i don't expect to score well this semester coz its really vv stressing & difficult. as long as i could pass every subject i'll be contented. i shall close one eye on achieveing for great results. dun want another disappointment. friday class ended early but had to rush home to change & prepare to go fort canning. 7 of us was working part time to do some ushering stuffs. worked frm 4 - 1o+. damn tired & the weather was blady humid. leading me to suffer from headache. lolls. wadever. got paper cuts on my hand too. stupid. wasnt just one paper cut it was 3 at a time. darn painful & the blood kept coming out. hate to see the sight of it. tankied g0d i had plaster with me.

took some pics again..

lolls. hmm. was i meditating or studying for poc test?

my seating partner. indira babe & duckling jac` lolls.
opps. :x now dats a vv fake smile from me.

oh boy oh my. fad sure do have got an extremely huge feet. his shoes are darn huge leaving loadsa space with my feet in it

simply love the smell of the perfume my dd bought
the whites mine & the blacks my brother's. haha

stupid face of mine @ koppii beanniie.
taken using my cuzzie hp

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