when the mind feels uncertained, the heart seemed unclear

if only $ grew on trees. lolls :x

i need money
loads & loads of it!!
to have high spending power
maybe a sugar daddy will be good
sugar spice & everything nice :)
anyone wants to be mine?
lolls. opps. :x
urhh just kidding alrites ;P

hmms. gona go out later in the evening. dinner at ocbc` sumhow or rather i cant help feeling lyk an extra. :/ din intend to go anyway- as i was kinda 'forced'. lolls. opps. :x haben decide whether i wana go down to galib's place after dinner. ggreatt` i'm in half mind. hellpp!! haha. pardon me for being such fickle minded. i'm always like that. oh gosh oh man. duno why but right now i'm really crazy abt buying sk-ii products. damn. bet they aint cheap but by hook or by crook i'm gona buy some of them specially the mask!! maybe not all at one shot :) gona save money frm now onwards. maybe i shud cut down on my shopping. alrights. i know my skin is flawless, no pimples or blackhead; almost perfect but cmon i dun want to just stop at one point & be contented. i must try ways to improve it further to make it perfect. yes perfect & preserve the way it is too. haha. i tink i'm crazy yes i'm. perhaps someone shud just call the hougang chalet`

eews. some irritating barbarian is smoking outside the corridor. so darn inconsiderate. the blady cigarette smell is coming thru my room window :/ cant they spare a thought for others? despise & simply cant stand dose inconsiderate freaks living in my estate. its either talking god damn loud in the morning waking me up or smoking outside the corridor or throwing litters down the windows or peeing at the stairs. screw u assholes. yups. we finally got a contractor to renovate our place costing 21K excluding the furnitures & stuffs. most likely will be shifting in mid may. haha. just cant wait to move in :)

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comparison (-.x)

oppsy. :x stole this frm pretty one's blog`
*prays hard dat she dont killl me!!* haha.
but dere's no wording saying copyright. blleahhx
nanny nanny pooty pootx!!

lllinnggxx!!! how cud u resize won bin's pic?
and how cum u din put a nicer pic of him?
*l a u g h s o u t l o u d*
tackey doesnt look as boyish as b4.
he dun hab dat aura of cuteness already
won bin's sux in this pic.
but he's still looking good
one heelll great looking guy with da manly look
did i mention i saw him at the airport while doing my attach? the way he wear the cap is somewhat similar to jay chou.
and yeahh. my fren resemble a lil lyk him (-.-)
but of coz won bin's much much more yandao

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*sighhs*

damn.
i could still be sleeping at this point of time
but i'm feeling darn sick & uncomfy
the feeling is g0d damn horrifying.
never encounter such thing before
aint no idea what is happening..
whats up with my body?
boyy` i remembered i was dreaming
but couldnt remember wad was it abt
suddenly pang.. my chest felt so tight & in pain
i couldnt breath properly & i woke up..
thought it was a dream but it wasnt
saw the time. it was 645am
tried slping but cant.
the feeling is just so darn terrible.
makes u tink ur on the verge to "die" anytime
felt lyk puking, my chest was darn tight
couldnt breath properly. giddiness
feeling as thou my blood pressure is low
and sharp pain in my tummy
oh man. what on earth is happening?
no doubt i'm always falling sick..
but i've nbr gone thru such situation b4
its the worst feeling i've ever come across
:/

tried puking just now but nothing came out. i tink i've got lotsa wind in my body & maybe i'm having tummy flu. made myself a hot cocoa & forced myself to drink thou i din hab the appetite. still feeling the same but maybe slightly better? fcuk. why am i always feeling sick these days? its like eversince the starting of 2oo5 every month w/o fail i'll either be real sick, falling sick or feeling sick. arghx` was having a terrible flu last night. kept wanting to sneeze. *sighhs* din tell my parents abt it coz i'm afraid they will restrict my movement & furthermore din wan them to get worried. hopefully things will get better later on *prays hard* haiis. yeahh` i should be resting instead of blogging but i cant seat there feeling god damn horrible & feeling pathetic for myself. i need to get myself occupied in order to get rid of the pain. went to see myself in the mirror. my oh my. couldnt recognised the girl i'm looking at. she's looking g0d damn pale & with dark eye rings beneath her eye making her look lyk some pathetic zombie. feeling darn ugly. is that me? yes it is.

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kookiie monster`

who took the kookiie in the kookiie pot ?
who me? yes u
couldnt be. den who?
yups. its me..
boyy the kookiies are mouth watering
*yummylicious*
haha.

oh boyy` dose kookiies are simply delicious. even my dd said its nice. ate afew pieces of it. *yums* but i still beat u in baking coz u cheated. haha. :P am learning my E`learning on my theory driving now. haha. i'm suppose to fully concentrate on it instead of half blogging half msning & half learning :X the best thing is i havent had my lunch. why? coz my tummy filled with kookiies. haha :x yups. doubt i'll be going anywhere today. gona pia my 4 lessons by today :) i'm crazy` but hack. haha. if i dun do it by today den i'll have no time to do it the following days. tml gotta follow my parents to meet up another contractor, Thurs got dinner followed by galib's place in the night, Friday might be meeting up either Cheryl my buddy for 9years or another fren, Saturday gona meet my fren & Sunday my dance practice. see i'm so busy. haha. blah excuses excuses excuses!

Oh yah! guess wad?
i finally could own a puppy after i shift into my new home :)
whhee...so damn happy.
its like a dream come true after 2o years.
cant wait for that magical moment to come.

celebrated my 2oth birthday with my family for the whole of yday. my parents gave me red packet as dey din noe wad to get for me. aint telling u how much i got :) went out with my parents in the day & in the evening, my bro & his gf for dinner. boyy` damn full. had oysters for appetiser, carrot soup, lobsters & dory fish. followed by apple crumble / pie which i didnt eat it coz i was freaking full at that point of time. i've got a very small tummy. on the verge of puking if i continue eating. overall the meal was damn good. *yums* :)~ went home to cut my tiramisu cake. had a tiny weeny small portion. boyy` the cake is damn good. took some pictures. after that send cheryl home & my bro back to his campus. received a pink titus watch frm my brother & his gf. awww.. its so horriblely sweet & i love it to the max! *mmuahhx* tankiex kor & cheryl. went down to raffles mrt to meet alien. lolls. so damn lame. i've forgotten its a monday so there was no movies to watch in the end we walked frm cine to p.s & landed up rotting outside of p.s & headed home. yeahh den c.w passed me my pressie coz i saw him. read my bro's bday card when i reached home. my eyes were damped. not bcoz the words were hurting but touching. affter dat opened the big box & found a packet filled with choco kookiiex` & a bday card :)

.::||-x kor x-||::. i know u've clueless idea of my blog url but hack` tankiex for everything. the card, the words, the pressie. i love it to the max. :) i know things have changed but no matter wad happens, ur my dearest brother & always will be` whom i love dearly. all is forgiven in the past. i love u lots!

`_ Cheryl-// hey girl. i'll either be meeting u on fri or sat okies. cant wait to meet up with u~! hee *huggiex*

//-* lings *-\\ my darling cuzzie. hopefully we can meet up dis week. spongey is waiting for us!! haha.

+- Clown -+ opps. i still owe u ur pressie :x ehh.. we watch other movie okie.. but when?? haha :x

..][- c.w -][.. haha. u cheated & ur kookiies are darn sweet!! too sweet for a sweet person lyk me. haha. oops. :X u wan me get diabetes issit? lolls. wadever it is. tankiex for the pressie & the card. u muz hab taken lotsa time & trouble to bake those. appreciate it loads. hmms. i'll try to get back dose smiles in return yah :)

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a year wiser = a year older.

happy birthday to meee!

okay i'm being lame.
but hack.
birthday only come once in a year.

birthday wishes?
hmms. havent thought of it yet.
*laughsoutloud*

boyy` am i feeling old right now
at this point of time.
i've turned 2o. yes 2o.
reaching adulthood?
*shrugs*
hate the thought of it. haha.
but i cant reverse back time can i?

+- to those who remembered my day -+ .. haha~ yeahh tankiex for having me in ur heart. appreciate lots. i dont need anything from u guys. its the thought that counts. haha. anyway for those who i own them a day out pls wait patiently alright i'll surely meet u. haha.

+- Cheryl -+ .. sorry for not replying & taking so long to reply u in msn. i'll meet up with u one of these days during my 1week break k. :) *hugs*

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candid shotx`

lurrbbiie ddurrbbiie pretty one lotsa

*sticks out tongue* blleahhs

**shall upload the rest when i'm free :)

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a new chapter bytching ?

alrights. gone with the wind are the histories of the past. right now its smell of the presence of a new beginning & its time to accept the fact that i'm no longer young but growing old or maybe wiser? decided to start a new blog & get rid of the old. dun wish to cling onto some of the memories dat i blog. okay i noe dere's a word called delete but truth is i'm lazy to do so. haha. yeahh perhaps its the last time i'm gona blog. aint gona shift or change it already. apologies to all my frens for the inconvenience but hey why am i apologising? its my blog aint it? oopps. am i being mean? *Laughs Out Loud* hope not.

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h m m s.

yups. just got back from KL. left last friday. went with my family & relatives. been eating shopping & sleeping for the past 2.5days. feeling so fat right now. gona go on diet. but cant do so coz for the next few days i'm gona predict myself to be going out with my frens & pretty one. poor her didnt manage to come as she has got to prepare for her exams. miss her man. no shopping khaki with me to sparkle up the shopping sprree. anyway din really buy much as dere aint any nice stuff dat caught my eye. felt bad not getting any stuffs for some of my frens. sorry yah~ met up with uncle paul( my dd's younger bro ) on da last day. boyy` he look darn haggard & old + he's balding :x haha. while clearing the customs back to singapore, i bumped into jas jie. she was the one who saw me & i was a blur shit when she called my name coz for a moment i was lyk urhh who's dat calling me. lolls. as usual i aint fully awake frm my beauty slp. haha. okay i'm not only a pigsy but a blur shit :)

[[..24o3o5 ` Thursday..]] was the last day of my attachment & i'm feeling so carefree. finally after 3mths of free labour shit. its the end of everything. :) met pretty one in the evening for dinner. was late for 2omins. felt so bad to make her wait again. *sorry lingz :)* met her at dhoby ghaut & headed to piaza for dinner. ordered & shared caesar salad, lasagne & brownie together. the dinner was yummylicious but the standard kinda dropped. overall was a satiffying meal. din really do much. went to walk ard in p.s & headed to somerset. settled for coffee bean & went to slack. took loadsa pic on dat day. haha. had fun with her *mmuahhs* luurrbbiie durrbbiie her lotsa !

-+ Lingx +- .. woohoo. wad can i say? ur the best! boyy am i glad to have u as my darling cousin :) really appreciate the fact dat u spend the time with me thou ur exams are round the corner. haha. perhaps i'm an exception today as its for celebrating my advance birthday? haha. no matter wad tankiex for everything as well as the dinner~ had a great time with yerr & taking dose candid shots. lolls. mmuahhs. i love u loadsl! -darling cuzziex always-

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