if only she could delude herself in this reality; complicated life

2008-06-16T00:09:00.000+08:00

Thank you to those who have been coming & reading my entries.
However i ain't gona post anymore entries in here (:
With love, Jaclyn

2008-05-16T03:34:00.001+08:00

if i'm a bitch, she's a swine.

i hate to hate for it only makes me miserable

i hate to detest for it makes me feel horrible

& i'm being forced to detest cause of a bitch that doesnt FC*K OFF

people's reaction shows & proofs it all..
a day to come, i'll tell you straight that she's a bitch & see how you'd react to it

2008-03-30T21:14:00.000+08:00

she's learning to be independant and leave this place when the time comes..
she's nothing but troubles and can never be perfect in every way she does

2008-03-23T20:49:00.000+08:00

i'm missing you sweets, real loaddddds..

i miss every moments we spent together & there's so many things to say *sighs*

you will & always be the bestie sweets i hearts! MUACKKS~ see you on MSN

2008-03-15T14:40:00.000+08:00

turning 23 in two weeks time, and i'm not looking forward to it

i never knew what pain is till i felt it myself..
when it hurts too much, and feels as if shattered pieces of glass has just slashed my flesh
tears that doesn't seem to stop; i don't know what has becomed of me
confused and lost; tell me if i should continue holding on or let it go?

2007-12-22T16:11:00.000+08:00

HAPPY HOLIDAYS with love!

double shiokness because i get to be off and away from work due to PHs (:
christmas is coming yet i don't have the christmas mood this year..
perhaps i've been working for too long and i'm getting tired thou money makes wonders
i need a change and i hope i'm able to get through whatever i'm hoping for
i shall be back again when i'm finally free with pictures thats way overdued

PS. - i love you besties ;
cherishing every moments thats left. i don't want february to come fast

that indescribeable emotions one can never understand

its like a circle that never ends till the day her heart died

2007-11-12T22:03:00.000+08:00

Goodbye people. I won't be blogging anytime soon..
I'm not in the right mood and it sucks
Hopefully by then i'll be a happier me.

[ Timbaland - Apologize ]
I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearin what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...
It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothin new - yeah yeah
I loved you with a fire red-
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...
It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah
I'm holdin on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground...

moving on and not looking back

2007-11-08T23:30:00.000+08:00

* Knock knock * Heeelllllooooo there.. After ages, I'm finally back and I know i haven't been updating regularly; in fact my blog is getting dusty therefore its time to take out my broomstick and brush away the dust. Heh. Frankly speaking, i do not have the intention or should i say i didnt even have the mood to jot an entry but somehow or rather my fingers led me here, so say "thank you jaclyn's lil fingers". LOL!

As promised, i've got truckloads of photos ahead (: i bet you just wana check out those snap shot and because i expected that to happen, i'll do more peeks and less words in this entry =P Actually to be honest, i totally forgot what i did which is why the less words! Heh.

[[ R E W I N D & B A C K T R A C K - OCTOBER ]]

I can't remember when but my big toe hurts like hell due to an in-grown nail and i tell you people, it sucks horriblely to the max. I always dread it whenever my big toenail grows together with my flesh and when that happens, you can't even touch your toe because it would have that swollen effect at the side and it was hell painful that my right foot couldn't walk properly or even wear my stupid working heels. Thankfully i've daddy with me and my pain was finally relieved as he took the nail clipper, removing the in-grown nail seperating it away from the flesh and i was screaming away in pain. Ouch!

I must say, my TAIWAN trip with the darling girls was fabulously hell fun, interesting and enjoyable. I'm just so glad that we embarked the gettaway trip together creating beautiful memories for a lifetime and i'm missing the powerful se7ens because they bring joy and smiles throughout; if it wasn't for them the trip wouldn't be fun (:

What else can you expect when you put seven girls together? Shopping's definately a must for us and i tell you its frantic crazy! Throughout the 6days in taiwan, we practically shopped till we dropped and to the max, not forgetting even before we depart we ain't still giving up shopping and whacked the DFS in their airport. LOL! We're crazy shoppers that we aint even bothered about eating till the last few days.

Not forgetting Taipei's LUXY club and it totally blew our night away cause its really fun and their club atmosphere's really different from our clubs. They were actually hosting an event due to some DJ performing in there which i've no clueless idea and couldn't be bothered but have fun with the girls instead =P

You know what, I ain't a KBOX person but i must say, taipei's partyworld rocks and their room's really big. You wouldn't believe that they even have R&B's included in their song sheets and every songs in there ain't no where near outdated. Hyped up we were and all freaking exhausted but happy at the end of the day.

And yes, how can i ever forget taiwan's TYPHOON! The one and only lifetime exposure and it was really an experience for all of us. In fact, we find it so interesting that we kept taking videos and laughing away, not bothered by the fact that it was actually dangerous to be out when the typhoon strike cause their schools, shops and even major malls gotta be closed therefore for that particular day, Taiwan's WATSONS became our one and only place to shop because there ain't anywhere to go.

On a last note, Taiwan's a must to go with your gfs but definately NOT with your BFs because you'll lose out plenty of shopping. My poor brother's gf got the impression that Taiwan's a boring place and came back empty handed because she went with my brother plus my brother isn't the patient kind and he hates shopping. Its a lucky thing i brought a bigger luggage with me and didn't listen to my mum by bringing the smaller luggage. Thanks katie and glen's aunt for helping me close my luggage cause i was having difficulty closing my luggage.

[[ T H E OFFICE A F F A I R ]]

Plenty of things have been happening all at one shot. Whatever you can expect in the company it'd happen. I cannot comment much but things are detoriating standards that i first joined parred far behind till it totally differs. I guess the decision that i made was a right one because i've been hesitating for the longest time but after all that i've seen i think it would be better for me. All that i've to say is, i'm slightly happier right now and i'm trying to regain back the moments that i've lost and get back to my normal lifestyle i once used to have but couldn't due to the time constraint. I just hope that the days ahead of me would be a better one (:

[[ & L E T S T U R N B A C K - NOVEMBER. ]]

#Friday`o211o7 ; Headed to phuture with Glenda, Ying, Amanda, Pipi as well as her friend. It was like decades since i last stepped in there and i swear the last time i stepped in there was like 6months back. Gawd i can't imagine i've become a hard core workaholic with just work and no social life. And you know the feeling's kinda weird that i'm clubbing once again. I ain't into drinking already because I hate the taste of alcohol now and I still think my fruit punch taste the nicest. Anyways, i really had fun with my sweeties and it reminds us of the LUXY times in Taiwan but without the other 3.

#Wednesday`o711o7 ; Caught the 1205am "Game Plan" with Ying last night together with Tiancai, Zhongyi and Iris at cineleisure. I'd rate the movie 3.9/5 poppys (: People who like hilarious movie should catch it and you wouldnt regret watching it plus its kinda touching at the last part of the movie. Was laughing non stop like a crazy lady in the cinema. And then we headed to bugis hk cafe and slack till 4 i think and home sweet home!

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I just realized that no matter how silent people would like to be, there will still be others noticing your every movement and they are actually watching you in silence. You know whats one thing that puzzles me the most? Its that i'm just someone ordinary and i ain't an attention seeker but why am i always being aimed and condemned by girls for no apparent reason. Its absurb because i myself don't even know the other party but simply become their target at and I hate that. I do not understand what do girls have got to be jealous about? I do not give a damn about guys, I'm not like those cheapos out there going around seducing other people's bf, I ain't a drop dead beauty, I do not have a hour shaped figure and I ain't even being rich. Please do not make me hate you because you have been making me feel so irritated. I'm taking my guard on you because you are just one of those silent watcher cum reader and checking out every details.

I thought i could just forget and give up but it seems that it still mean something to me but i guess i should let go because i know things can never be back the same. I've only myself to blame because I did not cherish those moments and just let it slip. There isn't a beginning but at least i had memories and i'd just smile when i think of it..

Till then, with love ;

2007-10-25T13:54:00.000+08:00

Uh-oh! I havent had the time to actually post an entry for i'm busy..

I tell you, TAIWAN rocks ten thousand times and you gotta go with your gfs. Will post an entry on my trip when i'm finally free and i promise there'll be truckloads of pictures in the next entry!

You know what, after waiting for a freaking year i'm finally getting my hands on that piece of paper which states.. "diploma in tourism" but the thing is i'm giving a miss and ain't attending graduation on saturday because i'm flying off to korea tonight and seriously i wouldnt regret missing that cause its gona be a boring one.

I think its time to pack my luggage for i've yet to do so as i came home freaking late last night and i swear mummy's gona scream at me again.

Thank you for the scarf you bought for me and i'll definately be warm throughout even if its freezing cold in korea (:

Last but not least to my DTM classmates, after going through the blady three years its finally graduation for all of us and whatever future beholds ahead of you i wish you guys all the best and good luck with whatever you are doing now.

P.S - I just thought of sharing something. I know every individual has a different mindset of its own and i've no right to say this but really i feel sorry for the other party for being so stupid to be made used of. Why do people claim that they love their partners wholeheartedly, when in fact they squeeze them dry? Being together with the person you like isn't something for you to take advantage and make use of. Please do not HL to the whole world cause i think it would be an embarrassment plus they will say that your partner's a dumbass.

Till then people, with love (:

that presence puts a smile on her face..

2007-09-27T22:40:00.000+08:00

"now little buggy please shoo away cause you're not being loved by me at ALL.."

The attack of the sick bug has hit me once again and i've been sick since last saturday night and yet to recover. I guess my body starts to retaliate right now. I hope i recovers before my taiwan trip cause i so don't wana miss the fun. And yes its the stupid graveyard shift yet again before i fly off on Thursday :(

Daddy's heading off to U.S. for his business trip on the 2oth and mummy and i are planning on a gettaway trip to Korea at the end of October but have yet to confirm cause the timing just clashes. Its either i miss out the graduation on the 27th or miss out on my vacation trip for its like neither here nor there and thats the case i'd rather miss out the graduation cause i think its so gona be boring and collect my diploma from school.

One more day to pay day. Yay! Thou its gona be pay day yet i can't spend cause i'm gona be broke soon for i'm gona ask daddy to get me a coach bag from his trip that cost me 4oobucks and besides that i'm bringing 1K for my taiwan trip cause all my expenses will be on my own account. I just can't wait for my gettaway with the girls. Whheee.. Holidays i hearts and if so i hope to travel to different destination every year. I think i'm just so lucky to be loved and pampered cause daddy's sweet enough to sponsor my taiwan trip and mummy's lovely enough to bring me to korea if nothing corks up (:

Yesterday was a bad day for me, something happened and i was really upset and angry with myself so much so i can't even concentrate and know what am i doing. Even till now i'm pissed with myself. Sighs. People can never understand the way i feel cause for me when something happen i'd take it seriously cause its the way how i handle things. Don't wana talk about it; all i can say is that every lil things that i do, i take pride in it and i don't do things half past six and i'd hate or be pissed with myself if i make a stupid mistake cause it will affect my mood badly for i love my work to be perfect. Perfectionist that is but i can never be one but at least i try to be near perfect. Everyday's a learning process and people learnt from their mistake. Anyways, another chapter of my life will be closing soon and another new chapter will be awaiting for me to discover and learn. I'm not saying what but i hope life will be better and happier for me when another chapter starts. Hopefully by then i can change the way things are right now and i'd have more time (:

Last saturday was Jasmine jie's wedding and i was her jiemei. I must say it was a joyous occasion yet a tiring one as well. Had to wake up at 4am with only 3hours of sleep and being awake all the way till 2am in the morning. I was struggling to keep myself alive cause i was really tired when noon comes and with the scorching weather gosh i tell you, you'd wish you could just collapse on the bed. I wore two pink dresses in different shades of colour that day and had my hair done by her make up artiste in the evening for the wedding dinner at Grand Hyatt. Didn't fancy the image the lady gave me cause she gave me a messy look and in curls. Perhaps i ain't used to it. My parents love the curls that i had but i differ that cause i love my straight hair. Anyway, i was looking freaking shagged out and my hair was shit by then when i reached home and brother was playing MJ with his friends. Brother's friends were like looking at me and I was like goodness me. Nice of daddy to sent me to my friend's place wee early in the morning and fetching me home way late in the night; i guess its the priviledge of being daddy's lil girl and i'm really thankful for that cause nobody dotes on me as much as he does. Anyway, I didn't bring my cammie that day cause i was in a hurry for i was late plus i don't know where my brother kept it. Till then when i receive the photos, i promise i'll upload the photos which will be a month later? Heh =P

Sleepy look of hers at five in the morning (- o -)

The bride's bouquet..

Ain't it cute for an angbao collection! :o

Lisa, and she speaks chinese :D

Everyone's looking all exhausted by the end of the night..

Finally homed and shagged out

<- that aint my bra but my dress yea

For what i think, wedding's a lovely and joyous occasion for everyone yet it isn't an easy thing cause you have to plan and worry about plenty of things even when its a big day for the bride and groom and it can get real tiring. Brother's wedding's next and its gona be in July just few days after his birthday. I must say its gona be a busy affair due to having church ceremony and the wedding dinner. I'm so looking forward to it even if it makes me exhausted, its worth the exhausion and really i'll miss him zillions.

I think i'm having a mild fever now and i guess its better for me to head to bed..

Till then, i'll be back for more after my Taiwan trip (:

if you could feel the way i feel..

2007-09-20T22:17:00.000+08:00

Hello people, i decided to post an entry before i head to bed as i'm working 6am tomorrow.

My mood kinda brighten up particularly this week cause i'm doing morning shift and you don't know how much i love morning shift even though i had difficulty waking up or the least chance to upsell any room(s) but its okay. As long as i've the time and the time to rest i'm happy. However such moment(s) doesn't last that long cause my manager's an ass for he seldom put me on morning shift which i don't know why, but more to noon and night shift (which i hate!)

I'm in a dilemma state right now cause i seriously don't know what to do. I've been offered another job and its office hours, its like 9hours a day and 5 and a half days work week however the pay's like 300bucks lesser than what i'm receiving and in fact my pay's more than what i should normally receive because of my monthly incentive(s). I don't know if i should accept their offer cause if i do i gotta start from scratch learning new things all over again and i gotta submit my resignation letter next month which i'm still not mentally prepared to do so cause there's something that seem to be stopping me from doing that which i don't know what. I'm really really exhausted from all the irregular hours and i don't even have any time for myself but the stupid thing is i can't bear to resign yet. Perhaps i never did realize that i love my job but the fact is shift work sucks and at times the people in there makes me feel that they should just drop down dead instantly! How now brown cow? OMG i hate making decisions and i know mummy would confirm wants me to take up that office job. She says money isnt about everything and whats the point of getting so much money and on the other hand making me exhausted and affecting my health which i can't deny that its the fact and the truth.

Okay enough of typing i shall post a snappy..

A snappy shot of adrian and i on his 21st celebration..

*the dearest buddy of mine & i'm really glad to know him this lifetime*

I haven't been taking much photo(s) lately cause i look h i d e o u s..

I ain't sprouting nonsense but the truth and i've got sufficient PROOF!

See.. Proofs that shows i've nasty eyebags, looking shagged out and don't know how to put a smile on my face anymore. Shalini said my cheeks kinda sunken down but i think otherwise..

Now you know why i seldom take pictures? So pardon for the lack of pictures!

I want to change my hairstyle but my stupid fringe's growing so SLOWLY that it ain't helping me at all :(

Aiights. Twinkle land's awaiting for me right now..

GOOD NIGHTS !

i had a dream; a dream of you but before it could go on, it faded away..

2007-09-18T13:25:00.000+08:00

I was suppose to be on a morning shift today but i took a day's leave since i had too many leave on hand and need to clear it slowly plus it was really last minute like only yesterday? I only informed my manager in a very last minute way before i head home yesterday with a stupid reason which left me with guilt. A guilt not because i took leave and not turning up for work but a guilt because of the reason to cover up my reason to take leave. Whatever reason that was, i ain't saying. I took leave for a reason and also ain't saying what but at least i get to getaway from work. I'm just getting exhausted and let me just have a break for once. Besides i've got 12days of leave, adding up the four days of off in two weeks which means i've 16days in total and knowing that its freaking hard to clear all my leave at a go, it aint no harm wasting one day's leave.

I wish i can be a sleeping beauty and sleep as much as i want to cover up my deprived loss of sleep within this one year.. Once all that is done i'll be back to normal once again.

Okay this is just so boring and random cause i'm kinda bored and i can't imagine having my friends going in to army so fast.

I'm counting down to 16 more days before my TAIWAN trip! whhheeee.. i just so can't wait cause i need a holiday BADLY and i love to travellllllllll. Yippee doodles (=

nothing matters when i hear you speak..

2007-09-12T14:07:00.000+08:00

thank you for coming down last night; even when it was really late
thou it was really short but i'm happy cause i saw you..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST ADRIAN
Finally 21 and into adulthood (=
Good luck for your army buddy.

..and and and of course, good luck chuen wei for your army too
Enlisting on Friday which is pretty fast and i'll have short of 1 person to disturb
don't act too goody and BE SELFISH. Care for yourself first (=
You have 2days more to go to the temple, to pray & be a vegetarian to change your luck.

2007-09-10T23:40:00.000+08:00

I took MC today; been too exhausted lately that i decided to skip work
I remember how guilt ridden i'd be if i took a mc
I can't imagine how silly i was in the past that i actually went to work when i was really sick
But now i do not give a fc*king care cause my health is more important; People change.

Dinner at some cafe and ben & jerry's with Chuen Wei & Alison just now at vivo city
Thou a short meet up but it was really something that i hadnt felt for ages
At least i'm slightly happy for now
From the bottom of my heart, thank you Chuen Wei & Alison for the evening (=

I'd realized that it has been long since i last really did talk much & really laughed out loud
I'm glad cause i havent been acting like this for a long time..
Its like going back to what i used to be yet aint gona be cause i know its just temporary

I'm really confused right now.
I do not know what am i suppose to do; am i suppose to leave or to stay?
I so much yearn to leave badly cause its affecting me terriblely yet i can't bear to..
Cause i know i'm gona miss whatever i had been doing for the past few months badly
Hell with those emotions; its time to be heartless Jaclyn.

And yes i don't think i was like this in the past
Feelings nor emotions have never exist and neither did it belong to my dictionary
Since when did i actually have feelings and develope emotions like this? OMG.

2007-09-05T13:45:00.000+08:00

In a blink of eye, its the month of September. Pretty fast i must say. Pardon for the lack of updates cause i haven't got the chance to. As usual, i've been busy with nothing but work and catching up on my deprived rest cause i haven't been getting sufficient rest lately and sleep is all that i ever needed. Countdown for me okay people; 6more bloody months!!

My emotions weren't being normal for the past few weeks, thats because i had many shit(s) to settle and clear, however i must say not all has been done but at least things are getting better cause 1. i don't wana make myself in a miserable mode, 2. after all whats done been done there aint no reverse mode, 3. i just had to work doublely hard again and earn back what i need to, 4. i've made some decision. Plus i had a big time conflict with someone thats important to me and i'm glad all's clear now and no more arguements with each other cause everything's back to normal (=

Due to my stupid working hours, I haven't been able to spend sufficient time with my family and i'm glad that i finally had some quality time with them lately and not made me feel that i've neglected them cause my stupid boss finally gave me a pathetic week of morning shift. My recent off(s) were spent with them and at least i managed to talk to them a lil without anything happening.

You know what, my mum hates what i'm doing now (so do i -i'm hating it cause its starting to turn me into someone i do not know & exhausting me out!). Every now and then she will look into the classified and cut different job articles for me & it always ended up in the bin cause i'm not keen in it. She simply wants me to quit my job and she's really enthu about it. And yes one fine day she called the university up and enquire about my degree course and few days later woala the application form was sent to my mailbox. Did i mention that she has been wanting me to go back to school and has been persuading me about it for one year? Like three months after i started my job? And i have been putting it off and avoiding the subject till now whereby i finally gave in and promised her that i will, only till next year cause she wanted me to quit my job now as the intake is in december. In fact i didn't want to cause it isnt something i really wana do for i had something else in mind but in the end i had to cause they are my parents and i had to make them happy. I ain't gona say which university i'm looking into till everything's really confirmed but its gona be a local uni.

September will be a month filled with occasion(s). Dd & Mummy's wedding anniversary tomorrow, Adrian's turning 21, my friend's getting married, i will finally be graduating with my diploma cert and by the end of the month it will be my one year working in RCMS. Plus i'm gona submit my application form to the university for my degree as well. Okay and i hope the bloody school just faster send us the letter as to when we will be collecting our diploma.

I guess there's nothing much to blurt about yet since its just the start of September and yes its adrian's 21st celebration this saturday! (= Of course not forgetting August, its time to trackback with just pictures cause i forgot every lil details.. And yeah i had this sudden outbreak of rashes on my face lately; perhaps its the lack of rest and you could imagine how panick and worried i was for my face is spot free and i swear it aint easy to maintain. Am gona take extra care for now =/

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- A GET TOGETHER DAY with the CKs @ Glenda's Place -

Labels : BBQ, ktv, snake & ladder together with shots of baileys & tiger beer, endless of snappy shots

- DRAGON FLY with Yingy & maomao -

Labels : Shopping @ Bugis before dragonfly, chinese songs, R&B, supper with her guy friends.

P.S -dragonfly so aint her cuppa and thats the last place she would ever wana go

- A day of shopping @ Town -

Labels : Shopping, Coffee Club, Snappies !

- Waffles on Tuesdays @ Gelare -

Labels : Waffles, Gossips and never ending updates with Glenda & Yingy, No Pictures taken

- Chinatowned & Lunch at Novena Square -

Labels : Glenda & Yingy, Booking & Payment, MOS Burger, Yami yoghurt ice cream, No Picture Taken

- Boring Day @ Work when she was on 5pm shift -

Labels : Dinner Break, Fooling around when there aint no guest, Pictures pictures pictures.

There's actually more to it in the month of August but thats all that i could recall cause i've forgotten the rest of it and you know what people i'd just realize that i'll only post an entry whenever i'm doing the graveyard shift. ( - . - )

Aiights thats about all and i'm off to bed for now, take care peeps and with love (= GOOD NIGHTS !

feelings that were once there seemed to have faded away ;

it ain't gona be the same like before..

2007-08-24T13:14:00.000+08:00

I'm so tired, so exhausted and i'm numbed with everything that surrounds me
Nothing's ever going smoothly for me right now; everything within me is in a mess
Problems occuring one after another, piling on top of one another combining into a major shit
I really wonder why is this all happening to me?

They say, "after every hurdle of obstacles it makes you grow stronger"
but how long can i remain that way?
I can no longer take it further; i'm going crazy

I thank god for blessing a miracle on me..
He knew how badly i needed money right now and how god damn broke i was..
He blessed me with luck and made me the highest upseller which means my pay will be much more this month and i don't have to scrimp and save

4more freaking days to go before PAY DAY..
It has been killing me waiting aimlessly for my pay.
Nobody will ever know how torturous it was

Would anyone know how it feels when you worked extremely hard for your money and knowing that you have got the capital and the ability to spend but suddenly one day an uneventful thing befalls on you and taadaa all your hardearn money that you've worked for month's gone and without knowing you are left with a 100bucks to spend when your pay is like 3 weeks away? That is fucking depressed.

I'm sorry people i know this is a sucky post but i can't post something proper when my emotion's unstable. I need to break free and i'm awaiting for the month of december to arrive and end.. WHY? Cause 2007 sucks big time for me and i need a new year with plenty of changes to be made.

2007-08-08T12:56:00.000+08:00

Stacie Orrico "I'm Not Missing You"

..and it describes her current mood right now

Be back for updates again

she's trying to open up.. to you that is

2007-08-02T12:56:00.000+08:00

f*ck the word trust ;

i can never place my trust and have stopped trusting people.

f*ck the word friends ;

you can have plenty of friends but the one who are true are really limited

everyone might seems genunine yet made of plastic

f*ck the word jealousy ;

cause i swear it kills.

i don't get it why do people wants to get close to you when everything's just so fake?

they don't get to gain or benefit anything from it.

and i read people's behaviour. i give no fuck care attitude to you if you are one fucking shit.

give me a god damn break and leave me alone.

can't i be in peace and live in my little own world

i'm just counting down..

to the days of freedom and finding back my happy bug that i lost for months.

2007-07-25T14:45:00.000+08:00

Its been ages since i changed my layout and i've finally changed it.

I love my current song. aint it EMO enough? haha

I've removed my tag board cause i think its getting redundant. MSN me if you need

AUGUST is coming, gona be a busy month.

Okay thats all for now, will be back for updates again

Take care people, with love.

there was never a beginning and it'll never be an end..

i'm getting tired and it aint gona be easy;

till then, when its all over; i'll never look back for i'm numbed

2007-07-20T13:22:00.000+08:00

Hello people, since i'm doing night shift this week i decided to post an entry since i've gotten the time right now which actually not cause i'm suppose to sleep but whatever cause its my last night doing the darn graveyard shift before i finally get to really rest on my off days and yes the owner of this url is kinda lazy to recap and recall every single details therefore i shall do some major photoposting instead of writing out every lil details as my STM is always reacting so you aint gona expect me to recall everything from last month.

You know i really hate doing graveyard shift. Not that the work during the night is horrible; it is actually much better than the day cause its just so peaceful and not political but i just can't take it. I know i'm always having late night outs but it is totally different from working; let alone working 5days night shift. Even though we gotta do like once a month and its my second time doing night shift its hell terrible and killing me already. I get really so brain dead and drained, whereby i can't focus and my face really do look shag. Aaaahhhh this is so not good for me and my health.. Thank god its the last night i gotta work for tonight. I so can't wait for my off days!

*the tired and drained out look of hers..*

At times when work gets really dull.. You'd be glad you have colleagues that keeps you entertained..

Oh and i forgot to tell you guys that my uniform has changed like ages ago. Remember i used to wear this when i first joined? And now its gone..

The uniform with just a scarf inside that i wore for the first 3months.

I just can't imagine how time flies cause i'll be graduating with my diploma in two months time as well as gaining a year of working experience in the hotel industry. Thats pretty fast isnt it? And soon every individual will be leading a life of their own which is kinda scary cause you can't predict your future and speaking of planning the path that lies ahead is really a stressful thing. I'm still deciding on the path i'm leading cause i'm in two mind - whether i want to further my studies with a degree next year or continue working but of course there's something i've put my mind to it and decided which i ain't telling. If my tolerance allows, i'll stay till February cause everything's getting fc*ked up.

I can't wait for my pay day for this month cause my upsell for last month was good which means i'll get quite an amount for my incentives *happy happy* (= I guess everything's base on luck cause not every month my incentives will be pretty good and i'm working extremely hard because i need money. Not that i'm desperate or anything like that but you won't get to understand why i'm working so hard for my money. Now that i'm working, my parents has stopped paying for my credit card and phone bill and no more frequent shopping sprees with them like i used to have in the past.

For the whole of last month till now..

Caught Fantastic Four with Glenda, Ying and Katie at Cine's Cathay. I'd rate the movie 3.9/5poppies. Headed to the beancurd shop at Geylang after our movie and slacked till late..

Ying's Birthday @ Zouk - Worked in the day, headed home & napped for an hour. Popped over to Glenda's place and thank god daddy sent me there cause it was hell late. Headed to zouk and dinner at the coffeeshop. Nothing much to eat but horrible carrot cake. And yes, picture shows it all; it was alcohol overdosed that night..

Met up with my two "brother(s)" one of the day(s) after my mid-night shift and yes you can imagine how shag my face looked and how dead tired i was cause i was practically dragging myself to be alive. I know i could go home and sleep but i can't cause we decided to get his present(s) together and we had to wait for all the shops to be opened. Had breakfast at Mac Cafe and thanks brother for the breakfast. Went over to Suntec and we went into this bear shop whereby you create your own bear. I tell you the bears are so cute and huggable. I wouldn't mind if anyone of you are willing to buy for me. Haha =P Lucky it isnt hard getting him his present and i got him something from Ashworth which isnt cheap.

Glenda's Birthday @ MOS - R&B was good but a pity we didn't get to dance and it was alcohol shit again. Thanks ashton brother for your jacket as i was freezing cold and shivering. Didn't stay till late and met up with my "brother" after that as he wanted to go for supper but i was so tired with my head hurting from the alcohol. In the end, he sent me home and i had to force myself to bathe before i collapse on the bed.

Caught "Transformers" at Vivo's GV sometime ago with my "brother" and i'd rate the movie 4.9/5 poppies. Its a great movie peeps it'd be a waste if you havent catch it. I love the movie so much i tell you and the soundtrack's my favourite song! Hurhur. Anyway thanks "brother" for the movie treat and accompanying me to watch the movie even when you've watched it. Met up with my other "brother(s)" as well mister wong for dinner before heading home. Thank you for walking me down to the train station; even though its a short meet up but at least its good enough and that moments you gave aint something that can be replaced.

I took MC few days back; not that i'm sick but its for my brother's graduation cause i didn't had off that day and i had no choice but to report sick cause graduation only comes once in a lifetime whats more he's my one and only brother who's someone significant in my heart. Headed to NUS wee early in the morning and i was still in a daze as i didn't get sufficient sleep cause i came home late from work the night before. As you know i can't stand long talks and while the ceremony was going on, i kept dozing off till it reached brother's ceremony of receiving his cert as i'm suppose to snap him while taking his cert. Anyway, mama was trying her best to keep me awake and she was like telling me, "Better don't keep falling asleep and wake up. Got so many cameraman here later they film you sleeping then everyone can see you sleeping." And i think i was semi conscious den and i replied saying, "I won't be so lucky to let them film me sleeping la" and i dozed off again. Lol. The whole ceremony lasted till noon and we took pictures. Pictures of my brother's happy face and my just wake up face..

Dinner at "Lao Beijing" at Plaza Singapura with my grand aunty as she came back to Singapore for a short visit. As much as i don't wana have a meal with her but i've no choice and also to celebrate brother's birthday. HAPPY 25th BIRTHDAY Brother dearest, with love from me (=

Went to cut my fringe at REDs last week and did some shopping alone to kill time before meeting the girls. Met up with Yingying and got to know her friend, Denise at town. Shopped with them before heading down to Bugis in meeting Glenda. Sorrryyy sweets for being LATE! Lol. Opps. Yes its more shopping again and i'm loving every minute of it. Shopping's addictive and my love. Basically its shopping day for me and damages in my pocket for i bought loads of things. Went to old airport road(i think) for our dinner and yea a last minute decision to pop by zouk and its hell pack plus humid like sauna.

Lastly, no more manicure sessions for the time being as i had my acrylic nails removed and my nails are kinda weak and fragile right now..

Okay dokies its the end of my entry and i know my pictures are huge for i don't have the time to edit which explains the outcome. As for now, I'm heading to bed to catch my deprived winky sleep otherwise i'd be a zombie(which i already am) at work tonight.. Nights people.

at times i felt like letting everything go ; was it a mistake all along?
do you feel the same way as i feel? tell me that it aint true cause i can't figure out what it is

2007-07-06T13:23:00.000+08:00

If there is anything i'd like in a week, it would be my off day
Like who doesn't like to be away from work?
Only idiots like working..

Wana know something?
My damn report has yet to complete. haha.
And i'm still typing away.. Whatever.

Have been partying and drinking lately..
Been overdosed on alcohol; which is real bad
Am gona put a stop to it.

Lastly, midnight shift sucks.
It robs away my precious sleep and made me look like shit for almost a week.
It felt as thou my whole energy level was being sucked and drained
Hell am i gona do that every month.

Here's the evidence..

Look at my blady eyebag. Freak it; its disgusting!

Let you on a secret..
I'm getting sick of my job.
September 25th would be the date i'm waiting for..

Yet again this is just another OH-SO-RANDOM post of mine.
I'll be back to post a proper detailed entry; that is when i've the time & really free.

2007-06-21T21:05:00.000+08:00

My brain's exploding soon cause i've been forcing myself to write at least 2,000 words a day for my report. Yes thats how hardcore i can get; which is why i'm stopping at 4,500words for now and aint continuing till i finally get another inspiration.. I know it isnt much but who the hell would forego her sleep in the night to burn out 4k within 2 days? I'm practically becoming a zombified panda. Lets hope i can get done with the shit within a week cause i'm really tight with time.

I've pictures to upload but then again i've no time. Will be back for the month of July as for now i'm gona head to the showers and off to work cause my midnight shift officially starts tonight. Hopefully my eyes will be able to open wide till 8am the next day and you know what i'm gona smuggle my ipod with me to keep me entertain throughout the entire night. Hotelier's life sucks and i wonder why did i even choose this line in the first place. ( - . -" )

2007-06-13T20:06:00.000+08:00

Took MC today because i had to go for my doctor check up at NUH and its a freaking hell of 250bucks damage done. I'm just thankful i've my parents with me because i seriously cannot afford to pay for my medicals yet. It isnt a yearly affair thing; it used to be an every 3 months thing and then it got better when i get older cause i only get to see the doctor twice a year. Just a check up and blood test alone its hell expensive; which is why i gotta work like hell right now. The only thing i could afford is my medicine cause its only 20 over bucks. I've my entire life to thank my parents and the government cause before i reached the age of 18 all my medicals were being subsidised by the government; thats the good thing when your parents are civil servant. And yes this lifetime of mine doesnt come cheap but expensive; daddy says its worth half a million just on my medicals itself since i was a little child. I guess god must have been fair, there isnt such a thing whereby everything's so yummy gooey good. He blessed me with a comfortable life together with a wonderful family but on the other hand gave me a health that isnt so perfect and also plenty of obstacles to overcome.

Daddy dearest is the greatest! Seeing how hard i was cracking my brains for my damn report, he asked me to stop typing last night and asked me to sleep. And then he brought me to the library today and helped me search for the resources i need. Yay!

* resources she needs for her report..*

At least i don't have to crack my brain so hard. Thankfully i remembered i had 3 freaking weeks left and so i finally started typing my 15000 words yesterday with a total of 400words typed and a remainder of 14600words left. Yeah i know it isnt something to be gleeful about with a miserable 400words when other of my classmates might have finished their reports or halfway there. Tell me where am i to find ample time when my shift work is totally rubbish where i don't have hoads of time to actually be able to sit, brainstorm and type it off. Speaking of that, i'm gona start my graveyard shift in 2 weeks time. Oh hell do i dread doing midnight shift and there goes, its finally starting and i'll just say bye to my beauty night sleep. Please do not be shock should there be a day when you see someone looking like a panda bear. Its time to stock up more eye cream and eat more bird nest.

Recently there have been many interviewees coming for interviews and everyone of them are girls. I was thinking, why can't those ladies just scram and i was wondering where are all the guys? I don't wana work with girls and i don't even love working with them even thou i'm a girl myself. There has always been this thing between me and other girls, they just simply detest me even if i don't know them; its just something i can never be able to figure out why. Freak it because i don't care. They can detest me for whatever stupid reason and i detest them too. My stupid workplace has already been domineered by ladies and i just don't seem to understand why can't my manager employ more males instead. So what if I just simply love working with guys rather than girls. Girls are bunch of bitches; yeah i know who am i to say girls are bunch of bitches when i'm a girl as well. I know i can be a bitch at times but its doesnt makes me bitchier than them.

I need to shop. I've got lots of things in mind to purchase. Can the time just stop so that i can have the time to do everything and not keep chasing after the stupid time. Gah! Anyway, my off day(s) which i requested for the weekend has been approved. Yay! And i shall burn the weekend typing away but before that its gona be hell loads of fun partying away with the sweeties celebrating Ying's birthday this friday! Its so gona be TGIF. Hurhur =P

Okay, its time to backtrack. Sorry people, as usual my STM is reacting again therefore i forgot when was it.

A day of catching up with my dearest friend, Chynna at Vivo City. Had dim sum at the food republic and i tell you their black sesame bao is heavenly. I so love black sesame bao right now, simply yummerty yums. Window shopped around and got myself a green top and Chy got herself a pair of flips. Later on we went over to some coffee place *i don't know the name* and talked about everything. She's really a sweetie i tell you and its really great to catch up with her cause its always so hard to bump into her at work and i'm just glad to have found this precious friendship.

Anyway girl i really do hope your feeling better cause i know how it sucks having to lose a love one precious in your heart. At least you didnt have much regret as you manage to spent time with your gran before her days were up.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY my dear SHALINI! To sum up everything, we celebrated her 22nd birthday by staying over at the Ritz in one of our club suite and having fun with the lovely bubble bath with 3 girls sharing one bath tub and being wrapped in towels only. And the towels kept draping off our bodies cause it was so soapy and slippery but a good thing nothing was exposed.

* the ferris wheel overlooking from the bathroom..*

And then we headed off to MOS to party the night away till 3 in the morning as the both of us couldnt take it due to being hell o tired and we couldnt find our other colleague therefore its just the 2 of us heading back to the hotel wihout our room keys and we had to go to the desk to take another key.

Slept throughout and woke up at 12+ and went back to the desk to work with just a dinner for the entire day. The best thing was, everyone in the office started spreading what happened thanks to that colleague of ours who gave us the room keys and the words that were being spread aint being a fact at all in fact it was rather ridiculous.

On the eve of Vesak day, i went down to DBL-O after work to celebrate my dear "brother" birthday. I tell you the whole of clarke quay was packed and the queues were just horrible. I'm like goodness gracious me and didnt even have the mood to even club at all cause i was so tired after a long day at work but i still had to go down. I didnt drink nor really partied that much that night cause i still have to work the next day and i reached home at 10 in the morning, slept all the way till 3pm and headed to work at 5 in the evening. I was like a total zombie that evening at work. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY "brother" and i hope you like your gift (=

Just oh-so-random..

this is what happens when one gets bored / aint no guest(s) at the desk..

*on random working day(s)*

1.You just can't help but snap it away when we know we aint allowed to do so at the desk

* Jaclyn, Shalini & Aniz ; people she just love working with..*

2.You just take the pen and highlighter and draw on your colleague's hand

* vandalizing her colleague's hand; a monster drawn by me..*

Such things only occurs when you work with people you click with.

*marc and i during dinnerbreak..*

Aiights thats about it for now and seriously, I need to lose weight.

GOOD NIGHT READERS !

2007-06-04T13:30:00.000+08:00

with less than a month and a 15000words pending;
can someone just shoot me dead..

*ahchoos* boy am i sick again and its like the second time getting sick. My health hasnt been good since young and whats more now, its even weaker cause i kept falling sick lately. Yes and as usual i'm going to work later despite me feeling unwell. I don't know what am i doing cause i think i've already gone crazy. My manager on duty suddenly like out of no where asked me if i still have the passion for my job and i just looked at her. I didnt reply her my honest opinion because i've many replies to it. Whats more people like her calibre aint trustworthy at all.

Anyway, mummy brought up the issue again and she asked me to get my degree next year. I didnt give her a definate reply cause i'm still thinking and kinda hestitating. I wish i'd have the answers to it, it may seem to be a simple question for you people but its different for me cause you would never be able to understand.

Okay people i gotta go cause i've to prepare for work. Hopefully i don't have to do overtime as i had to cover one of my colleague's shift and did overtime last night (foc and not being paid; thats hotel's life). I'll be back pretty soon.

P.S -Would anyone like to do my report for me; i'll pay you 100bucks for it.

a candid shot of her sideview taken by marc;

busy clearing her paperwork at the back office

2007-05-28T20:15:00.000+08:00

Lalala.. I simply hearttts my current song, 'cry on my shoulder' thats playing right now because its oh-so-EMO! Now how long have i not been emo-ed (iwonder)..

Yes i know cobwebs and fungus gona grow and mould should i not be updating sooner or later. As usual i don't have the time, perhaps i should stop posting and i wonder should i? Anyway life isnt pretty much interesting for me. I've been doing lotsa thinking lately and i couldnt make do with a conclusion or decision to it yet; its just so complex and confusing which makes me even more frustrated. You know at times when you wish you'd be able to just stop and give up and let go of everything and just do whatever you wish to do yet its just so hard to do it. Saying it is easy but the action makes it tougher. Working life sucks and isnt fun at all *imissschoollifebadly* but the thought of having money rolling in makes you smile because you get to buy whatever you want in order to pamper yourself dearly! Life is all jumbled up but its okay because i'm working hard to get out of this place and to enjoy life in the later part of my life. And yea reality bites. Boo..

Oh yea.. I did said i'm gona go on a gettaway for 12days and if you'd want to know where i headed to.. Scroll down and read otherwise there's hoads of pics to tell you everything.

#o4o5o7`Friday - HAPPY 21st Abbie! Was working in the noon and ended work at 113o in the night was freaking tired by then because work was busy! Couldnt join the CKs for dinner to celebrate Abbie's 21st as i was working but at least i managed to meet up with them after work. Took a cab and headed down to Zouk and met up with the CKs as well as vivi and ying. Was a lovely night out with them because we don't get to meet up often and i met up with my other friends as well.

#o5o5o7`Saturday - Finally a breakaway from work for one week! Woke up late as i slept at 5am in the morning and yes i was practically going crazy because i've yet to pack my luggage. I didn't have enough time as when i woke up the whole family was waiting for me to have lunch and we headed to crystal jade together with Cheryl. I had like only 2hours to pack as i was still in a daze for i aint fully awake. And you know when one does not have enough time to pack, guess whats the outcome? I'd just throw in whatever that comes to my eyes first not bothering whether the clothing did help and do a final check. LOL! Anyway, I went on a gettaway trip to the south side of New Zealand with my family and silly me assumed that it would not be that freezing cold that i only brought 1 jacket with me and the rest of my clothes aint thick at all to protect me from the cold which is totally useless because i was freezing like crazy but thank god mummy kinda expected the outcome and she did help me bring along warmer clothes and jackets. Still it didnt really help because practically everyday i've been wearing 6tops together with the jacket; thats how cold i was feeling.

We took the evening flight and only reached NZ's Christchurch 1ohours later which is like 5am singapore time and 9am NZ time the next day. Daddy rented a car for the following 12days from hertz and yeah basically we took the car and drove and explored the whole of south new zealand. From Christchurch to Mount Cook to Geraldine to Twizel to Milford Sound to Dunedin to i cannot remember all the places name. Haha. Basically we went from one place to another and staying from one motel to another. Went on an overnight cruise at Milford Sound. I went kayaking with my brother and my hands were all frozed up cause i was freezing cold and i managed to see a seal while kayaking and cute lil dolphins while the cruise was heading out to the Tasmian sea. There's just plenty of things we did but i'm kinda lazy to explain every details. Basically my gettaway trip was a good one and i managed to get sufficient rest. Its like a last holiday trip together with my family cause my brother's getting married next year and so no more family holiday in the coming future. Anyway people you should really visit NZ if you've got the chance to do so cause its really a beautiful country with all the scenic views thou there aint much of a shopping to do and the sky turns dark when it reached 5pm.

New Zealand in random..

sorry peeps too many pics; will upload in my multiply gallery when i'm free!

*the cute lil sheep pillow she got from NZ..*

#2oo5o7`Sunday - You'd never know what i did.. I spent ages clearing my room cause i've been so caught up with work and busy that it occured to me that i havent been cleaning it since last year. LOL! And yeah plenty of junks has been cleared taking up 4 paper bags of rubbish. Aint no idea how much junks have i been storing in my room.. I'm so happy with myself because my room's finally clean like real clean =D

* bags of rubbish & the tiny corner in her room thats neat & tidy! *

#21o5o7`Monday - Its a boring shit to be off on a monday and tuesday yet no matter how i dislike it i still gotta accept the fact that its my off. Headed back to my office to settle some stuffs and i was kinda late cause i was suppose to meet my friend at town at 5pm. Had to hunt for a present as one of my friend's birthday's coming. I tell you i hate buying stuffs for guy(s); its hell torturous cause i've no idea what they like. In the end i bought a braun bruffle wallet with a damage of 9obucks. Didnt know what to do after dinner and so we decided to catch a movie at cine. Bumped into vivian and had a lil catching up. Anyway we caught this movie, "blades of glory" and i give it 3.5 outta 5 poppys. Go catch it people if you are into some lame shits; its hell hilarious.

#22o5o7`Tuesday - Its SHOPPING DAY for Jaclyn and its she herself and her alone. I used to think how strange and uncomfortable it would be to go out alone, with no friends of yours by your side and how i dread the fact and resist the thought of going out alone. However as time pass all these have changed and no longer become an issue. I'd prefer to be left alone at times, doing hoads of thinking and clearing my complex mind. Anyway, its been long since i last pamper myself and so i bought myself stuffs again. I earn to pamper myself to make myself happy and put aside whatever that makes me unhappy or when i'm stress. And yeah i went to have my hair cut at REDs (again) cause its getting longer and its making me irritated.

#25o5o7`Friday - Was working 5am ever since Wednesday and i met up with Shalini after work. Accompanied her to Raffles Medical as her leg got bitten by insects and headed over to Professional Nails to do our manicure(s) together. I did my acrylic french manicure cause i'm so sick of having my nails chipping like crazy whenever it grows longer. A damage of 7obucks and i love my nails right now cause they paint it really nice and most importantly it aint gona chip. Dinner at Pizza Hut and we had lagsania for the both of us were craving for it. Took a cab home as i was really tired by then..

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*Sighs* I hate it whenever conflicts arises again. I don't know whats wrong, i tried hard not to let it happen but everything suddenly just go berserk. Maybe i've been tolerating and suppressing it too much so much so i can no longer take it further. I know whatever i said just now, the words and sentence i used bites and i've cause damaged but i really don't mean it cause once my tolerence reaches its limit my mouth will just say whatever it wants to say. I'm sorry and i'm regretting everything that just happened. I shouldnt even have opened my mouth cause i know each time a sentence is formed, nothing good will turn out of the conversation and yes i was right, an ugly outcome was what i just had. Perhaps i should just talk whenever necessary and not say a thing further like i always do. I don't want anything neither do i expect anything from the both of you i just seek for your understanding and respect my thoughts but why is it so hard for that simple thing to be done and why can't our minds think as one. Seriously i really hate working but even so i still continue to do so cause its a way for me to numb myself, get myself tired and sleep to forget whatever thats in my mind.

Pay day's finally here and of course every girl's favourite, the Great Singapore Sale. Its time for shopping again and there goes Jaclyn's little pocket..

THANKS MUMMY.. (for the beauty needs)

THANKS DADDY.. (for the miniature dior collection)

And she feels pampered..

at times when she don't feel like smiling and be friendly ;
her stuck up attitude starts to appear..

Good Night Readers..

at the end of the day, no matter what.. i do still love the both of you

2007-05-03T13:30:00.000+08:00

I was wondering whether i should post an entry because time has been pretty tight on my side and because i'll be away i decided that i shall post whatever i can for the month of April within 2ominutes because i've got to get ready for work and its raining cats and dogs over at my place. Perhaps i shall take a cab down work later.

Work is killing me physically and mentally and i cannot wait for my off whereby i finally be able to breakfree for 2weeks. Yea everything is about work. Nobody do really understand anything about it because the perception of people might think that working in a 6 star hotel might be prestigious and oh-so-wonderful but you'd never be able to analyse the actual thing; it is in fact oh-not-so-wonderful. Been so busy with work lately that i don't get to see my parents for the past 3days, which is that bad and i aint kidding. I doubt i'm able to take it further because practically everyday i've been clocking 12-13hours of work and ending work at 2+am instead of 11. Its freaking draining me out and daddy was asking me just now why have i been doing so much overtime lately that he don't even get to see me these days. I know he's concern but then again i got so irritated with all his never ending WHYs cause i already made myself clear to him and he can never seem to understand what fc*ked up shits i've got, to face and to clear. And you know what, work has screwed me up badly that lately i've become someone so short tempered and i don't even give a damn about being polite to guest that i gave them attitude when they freaking hell irritate me and shalini even said that i've become kinda violent cause i started kicking the damn printer with my feet, throwing the freaking pen when i'm pissed, banging the stupid fax machine, threatening her to stay far away from me before i smack her and other stuffs. Gahh! Thank god i'm going to breakfree and flying off on saturday; to where.. I shall keep you in suspense till i'm back.

Pardon me peeps but i kinda lost track of the time and forgotten where and when and whatevers i have been doing. All i know i've been spending money due to the never ending shopping sprees and that i've got endless of things i still wana get.

*shopping makes her happy!*

I don't know when but i went out with my darling friend, Chynna to town for a day of shopping and i spent almost close to 2oobucks on that day itself. Seriously i don't know what i bought and why was my money flying like crazy; all i've gotten myself is one black top, one red top, a pair of heels, guess bag, a facial blotter, a lip glooss from face shop and one more item i cannot remember what but i don't give a damn because shopping makes me happy and releases my stress within. Chynna brought me to 'Canele' at paragon for dessert and i tell you people its so yummy and sinful things brings you to heaven most of the times.

* the darling friend she's blessed to have..*

*the meal that we both shared..*

Tuesday=Waffles day! And yea who else would i go waffles with? Noone but glenda. Met up with her in the evening after work as i was working 5am that day and was freaking hell tired as i realized my eyes was open for almost 24hours due to me having to wake up at 33oam in the morning. Anyway, it was a great evening with her and all the updating shits. And seriously i cannot wait for our next holiday trip together again hopefully cause i'm so missing the HK trip we had together last year. I bought stuffs again. We both got ourselves a concealer from the skin food and a bag from the sale at taka. I tell you its the best buy because the both of us went to check out the sale at the basement of taka and we ended up buying a bag from lacoste together and its like on sale and cheap.

Dinner with Chynna, Yahui and Hayami on last Friday and before that i met up with ShaliniMarina Square and i as usual being late again. Went to pamper ourselves with manicure and pedicure treats @ professional nails with a damage of 58bucks spent but its worth it because the service is good and my nails till now has yet to chip. Went over to breeks later on to kill time while waiting for the girls to end work and the 2 of us got so bored that we did stupid stuffs.

Headed to Soup spoon at Raffles City and thanks shalini for the cab ride in dropping me off halfway. I'm just addicted with their pumpkin soup cause its really yummy.

* foodies @ soup spoon..*

Went to catch '2oo pounds beauty' with Yahui at Shaw house as Chynna and Hayami gotta work the next day and i tell you people i so love that show. Its freaking god damn nice. I give it 4.5/5 poppys and the show's pretty touching and funny! I tell you the lead actress is darn pretty and hot.

Okay there goes my random post and pardon me peeps cause i've no time to post a proper entry. I promise to do a detailed one when i'm really free. As for now i'm heading off to work because i'm running late already. Won't be blogging anytime soon so don't bother clicking my link.

2007-04-21T23:30:00.000+08:00

Finally a day back from work
I'm sleepy, tired, exhausted and getting insanely crazy..
Thou i just had my 2 days off on thurs and fri' but its NEVER ENOUGH!
There's just too many uneventful things happening to me right now
..and i'm so sick of it, which explains my mood.. =/

and so ITS..
7 more days before pay day
3 more days before my off day
2 more days and its pampering treats for shalini and i
1 more day and daddy's finally back from his Europe trip
andddd i might be gone for 1 & a half week next month (which depends on dd's schedule)

Aiights i'm gona bathe and sleep.
Its mid-shift again tomorrow, my "ultimate-favourite" shift
Shall update again during my off days if i aint busy. Good Nights alll..

2007-04-12T15:32:00.000+08:00

Sometimes its totally right for one to indulge in their favourite occasionally..

dark choco pocky = TOTALLY SINFUL!
..but sinful things makes you smile don't it (=

If there's one thing that i love within a week, it'd be my off day! I just love being away from work as its totally stress free and this week is good because i get to work for 2 days and off for 2 days and back to work for 3days. Yippee! But but but good things doesnt last for long isnt it cause its gona be busy next week as the occupancy is rising like crazy again which is bad for me. I wonder whats my roster like for next week and hope that my manager will not give me morning shift till daddy's back cause i'm gona be so broke as i've decided that i'm gona take cab to work in the morning. Reason being 1. daddy's going to Europe this saturday for his oversea trip again 2. i CANNOT wake up wee early in the morning 3. i aint used to taking mrt early in the morning. 3. i'm so used to be driven around by daddy dearest. I can't stop people from defining me as pampered because i am. My parents spoils me for good so much so i can never be as independent and that i know nuts about public transport because its been like this for the past 22years.

I have been a good girl this week cause there aint no late nights out. Heh. Headed to town with Shalini and Chynna yesterday. Simply love going out with this two lovely ladies and they are the ones that perks me up at work. Went to do our manicure at far east and i cannot stand my nails right now because its so short and i think its ugly. I love it when my nails are long but it keeps chipping like crazy when it grows longer =( Perhaps the next time round i shall try doing acrylic nails. Bought a new watch with sha and i felt like a bimbo at that point of time *aint telling why* cause i couldnt do much movements due to my painted nails. Dinner at soup spoon and i was rather hungry for it was like my first meal of the day. Simply love their pumkin soup cause its yummy! Brought Chy to do her threading and we wanted to catch a movie later on but there aint no available slot thus we settled for hongkong cafe and their yummy ice mango dessert.

There's so many things that i wana buy and its so tempting but i'm putting on hold first and we're going shopping together again. I'm gona get whatever i want because i've got the ability to do so. And everything will be from my incentives. Money can do wonders isnt it. It makes you happy and on the other hand gives you the sense of satisfactory by spending your hard earned money and not depending on others to get the things you want.

* the 2 of us playing around in the fitting room while chy trying on her clothes.. *

Met up with Yingying, Vivi and Glenda last Saturday and headed to town. Wanted to catch Mr Bean with Ying to kill time while waiting for Vivi and Glen to meet us and i forgot its a saturday as if its not booked in advance there aint no seats. Dinner at hongkong cafe and i had this cheese spag with pork i think. I don't know why but its freaking filling and i can't finish it up after a few mouth. And please don't drink their mango ice at cine's because its totally way off different from what i last had when i was at the katong's outlet. Its sucky! I saw mr woofy that evening but didnt manage to talk to him cause he was with a huge group of friends. Anyway it was a last minute thing to MOS and we configured that we cannot go inside the dance floor because the music would suck. As usual it was packed like nobodies business and the rnb wasnt that bad. Its like reminscing back to the old days. Did i mention that my favourite drink now at clubs would be fruit punch? Lol. I don't know why but i just love that juice. Please don't laugh cause if you do the fruitpunch will be offended and who knows you'll have fruits coming your way punching you straight on the face. Okay this is so lame. Actually the fact is i'm just so sick of having alcohol downed my throat due to the past recent weeks. I guess as you grow older everything seem to have differ and changed; its no longer as crazy as what it used to be in the past.

I pray and i hope that my management will send me for japanese class cause they had this email asking if we are interested in taking up either japanese or spanish language. I seriously hope it'd be true cause sha and i penned our names down and it will definately be good and help because i don't have to spend a single cents on language class. This is what i call making use of the best while you can. And you know what i'm gona further my studies for a degree. Perhaps next year or maybe the year after next. I aint sure myself because i havent really decided as there's many things that left me hesitating. The good thing it is that it enables me to study a year in local and another year to switzerland which makes me happy for i've always wanted to go abroad to study (=

Daddy's going to Europe tomorrow and hopefully he gets something back for me from DFS..

For the month of April and maybe May..

1. I'm gona cut my hair again. Yes another trip to the saloon soon, you heard me right thou i just had it snipped off last month.

2. I gotta have time out and drag myself down to the traffic police to replace my lost licence cause its been 3 frigging months losing it and not doing anything about it. Thanks to my i-cannot-be-bothered-attitude.

3. LOSE weight. Yea its back to my dieting regime and to the gym; 5kg that is.

BYE people. Enjoy your weekend; its back to work for me.

sometimes you left me pondering and i wonder why is this so..
at times i felt like giving up but yet not ; i can't seem to understand whats in your mind.

2007-04-06T12:15:00.000+08:00

Ittss GOOD FRIDAY yet i'm working today but its okay because i get to accumulate all my PHs and claim it all at one go; thats what i love about it - the thought of clearing my one week of PHs is superb and i shall start planning when do i want to claim it.

Anyway, i must have been blinded with work that i've plain forgotten that its a public holiday today because i only found out last night when i ended work from my manager. Yeah thats how bad it is; a "hardcore" workaholic indeed.

Good friday reminds me nothing but cute little bunny and easter eggs because two days later it'd be easter sunday! Heh. Okay it isnt just about bunny and eggs but god sacrificed himself to remove everyone's sin and i know people goes to church and pray today and they try not to eat meat. I don't know if people practice that but my dad doesnt eat meat on Good Friday. Did i ever mention that my family has a mixture of religion. My brother and dad are catholic and mummy's buddhist and me being a free thinker. So i'm like neither here nor there. Its a good thing my parents are open about it because they give me the freedom to choose thou i know my daddy would want me to be a catholic but i guess i'm gona disappoint him as i've something with catholic(s) and christian(s) that i'll never convert myself to be one.

I hope it will not be a boring day to work today. I cannot stand my management because they are plain childish and an ass in the brain. They don't let me work with people i'm close with but people i cannot stand working with. They intentionally give different schedule and seperate good friends; thats how idiotic meanie they are.

Whheee its gona be the weekend off for me again and i wonder when will be my next off next week because she wants to see that someone. And yes i cannnootttt wait for the 28th of this month because i've loads of incentives coming in together with my pay. Yippeee!

Okay my entire entry is rubbish and i don't know what am i crapping about because i'm just bored so ignore this entry please..

she'll wait till the day she finally found what she wants and felt beneath

2007-04-01T21:36:00.000+08:00

*sometimes things aint easy as you think it'd meant to be..*

If you're wondering why havent i updated its because my life has been busy lately and me being exhausted. Now where shall i start because there's just too many things to blurt yet i'm just plain lazy to do it and i shall just end the month of March with this post.

What else can Jaclyn be busy with? I'm just so occupied with work and when its off day its about getting back my deprived sleep, outings plus chilling out with colleagues & friends and family bonding. What else can you expect. My life is monotoned for now and if you'd ask me if i'm happy with my life right now and whatever i'm doing, the answer would be no. I really think i should adjust my whole life. Its getting no where, i need and want to change my life cause i'm starting to hate everything but i can't bring myself to do it right now cause there's many reasons that i've no choice but to hold on and can't simply let go as and when i want.

And so if you're wondering what have i been doing for the past few weeks, its time for memory refreshers. At least my life doesnt evolves so much about work thou it seems like it and i've no idea why but my manager just simply love giving me either mid shift or afternoon shift and rarely in the morning whereby i always end work late in the night which explains why i kinda MIA-ed at times and you could just imagine what i do after work; BEAUTY SLEEP!

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#o7o3o7`Wednesday ; Headed to zouk with Shalini and supposingly with the rest of my colleagues but they couldnt make it therefore its just the two of us but not until i met my other friends. Crazy night it was but it was definately fun and something memorable. Aint no idea whats gotten into me plus i didnt drive that night. Had like 4shots of don't know what, 2 jugs of vodka and yucky long island i downed while playing stupid finger games but sweet of him helped me drink and i know i'm safe with you looking after me. Perhaps its due to stress at work thats why we drank like nobody business. Oh yes, i hate long island tea; disgusting shit - Yucks!

#o9o3o7`Friday ; TGIF = Pampering day for Jaclyn. Had my brows trimmed and neated, did manicure and last but not least aint no idea whats gotten into me that i went to cut my hair at REDS, spending hundred plus just on my hair alone. As you know its always when i'm not in my usual self or rather feeling rather down whereby i would just vent it by cutting my hair. And yes, i don't know whats up with the hairdresser as i wonder if they understand what i told them because each time i said i wanted to keep my fringe it would end up me having bangs again. Plus the after effect of hair cut made me look like a small kid - _ -" Being young when your aging is a good thing but looking too young is another thing. And wana know something? An important guest of Ritz onced asked my age and whether i've passed the age requirement to work and then he said to me, "since when did Ritz Carlton started employing underage people." I was like OMG and my colleagues were grinning away. Its crazy i tell you.

* stupid haircut of hers.. *

#16o3o7`Friday; Was working in the noon and work wasnt that busy that day. Out to chill after work with Shalini as she wants to relief stress from work. Was suppose to meet Christopher as well but he didnt turn up after ending his shift, making it the 2 of us again. Went over to Alley Bar and we shared a bottle of Champagne with a damage of 88bucks and had 3 glasses each. Dropped by zouk later on to meet up with her friends and i got so lucky that i bumped into my cousin. I'd know mama would know the very next day but i couldnt care less. And after a crazy night, we went back to Marina Square to find one of our colleagues before heading home at 53o. Yea i know you might think i've gone nuts but its just one of the moments whereby you just need to unwind and release the stress within. You'd realize how insane it could be if you're working in that stupid environment which i don't wana elaborate. And fyi i aint turning into an alcoholic.

* retarded snappies of the both of us..*

#17o3o7`Saturday ; Shopping with my darling one at town and we spent the whole afternoon till night shopping non-stop till we forgot about dinner. Bought cosmetics and tops for myself. By the way does anyone wants the small sponge for the compact powder; its from FANCL and i don't need it cause i don't even use compact powder. Went to find my parents later on as they are in town as daddy had to buy his winter wear for he's going on a business trip again to U.S. and i'm gona miss him for sure.

#24o3o7`Saturday ; Mummy's colleagues camped over our place the night before and i only slept at 4am waking up at 9 as it was so noisy and its disturbing my sleep. Wanted to head to town in the afternoon to do some stuffs but i'm just too lethagic and decided to take a nap the whole afternoon. Met up with C.Wei, Abbie, Alison and Ying in the late evening and we had dinner at Taka's Crystal Jade Xiao Long Bao; because it was a little birthday celebration i gave them a treat. Not that i feel loaded or pay day's coming but whenever there's an occasion i don't mind paying for it. Had La Mian(s) and rice for our mains and xiao long bao and guo tie as side order.

The LaMian was like a huge portion and i think the bowl was rather heavy because the lady slammed my bowl on the table. As usual, i couldnt finish up the noodles again. Anyway i simply love Crystal Jade's xiao long bao; its just so juicy and yummy =D Headed over to the Balcony and met up with the rest of the CK members to chill out. And you know what, the whole building had a blackout and the place was like so humid without air-con. Went over to star bucks later on and slacked till 33o. Its really great having everyone gather once again and having all the updatings since we hadnt seen each other for month(s) and of course thanks CKs for the night out. Hopefully soon we'll meet up again.

#27o3o7`Monday ; I have been having insomia lately and been really exhausted. Not only that my stupid company has been interupting my sleep wee early in the morning that gotten me paranoid causing me to wake up at certain time in the morning for fear that my hp would start buzzing. Never mind about that i had to work overtime for them foc even when i'm dead tired and brain dead. Poor me already like a zombie and forcing myself to work, can you imagine how worn out i was when i went to work and my colleague was like asking if i was alright because my face doesnt look fine. Not that i'm complaining but work is getting shittier each day and its totally draining me out that i couldnt take it any further therefore i decided to take MC halfway through. People who know me well enough would know that i wouldnt take MC any-o-how but this time it was exceptional; i was just sick of working and decided to take the half day off. Of course daddy and mummy was shocked to see that i was home early and i just told them that i was tired and decided to come home. At least i got some benefits today cause i got to earn additional money as i sold a bedroom suite to a china guy. How greattt to think that my pay will have more money again with all the incentives coming in. *Dear god, please bless me to be luckier and have more upsell so that i'll have more incentives..* Yes i must remind myself again that i've to work for the sake of money.. It aint about being materialistic and i aint becoming one but its about my future that i'm looking at. I aint hard up for money but i'm working like crazy for my hard-earned money so that my life will be better off when i'm older.

#28o3o7` Wednesday ; HAPPY DOUBLE TWO to Jaclyn! *i just wish to be happy thats all and its as simple as that* Turning 22 doesnt seem like a big issue to me but time really do pass quickly as it seemed as if i just turned 21 yesterday and i aint at all looking forward or excited to my 22nd. Was suppose to go back to my workplace as i've got department meeting but i can't be bothered to go back and seeing those faces makes my mood go dull. This birthday wasnt really a happy or good one because my emotion's like a roller coaster. Had dinner with family together with cheryl at a japanese restaurant located near bukit timah. The food was really good but a pity i can't eat much cause i don't have a huge appetite. Headed to zouk later on to meet Shalini and the guys. Stewart came later on and nice of him to find me cause he doesnt go to phuture. My manager came as well but i refused to meet him leaving Shalini to meet him alone and i felt bad later on. Met up with Adrian and its so good to see him again and i unexpectedly bumped into mingo and kenneth. Definately did have fun that night and we did some stupid shits that i'll never forget what the four of us did with the ice and i had B52, flaming lambo, jugs of vodka and yucky long island again. Thank god i wasnt a drunk shit that night because i refused to drink alot and i'm glad i've someone by my side. Homed at 43o with Shalini sleeping over at my place.

*too bad peeps i'm lazy to upload the rest of the pic*

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Yup and so this ends the entire entries of March. Pardon me for the lengthy contents and i will be back for April if i aint too busy plus i've to start forcing myself to begin with my 15,ooo words whereby i've got 2 more months to complete. Like i've said, any kind souls out there willing to write it for me? And of course you'll get something in return. Haha. Aiights i'm gona stop here and head to bed as i'm really sleepy due to waking up at 345am for work and before i finally end, here's something for certain people ;

Thankies Ying, Vivi, Rebecca, Mr Boyfriend, Daffy, Liyana, Andrew and my dear CKs for the lovely present you have gotten for me. Not forgetting the personalized lovely yummy birthday cake baked by Ying. I'm so touched by the effort because its the first time someone actually bake a cake for me. Too bad Ying, you are a girl and not a guy plus i'm awfully straight and aint a lesbian because if you're a guy, you'd melt my heart and i'll fall for you and if i'm a lesbian i'll chase after you. Okay enough said because its getting lame. LOL!

* thanks Ying for the pocky! *

Thanks Chuenwei for lending me your listening ear and basically everything *you should know what i mean*. I don't know how come and why but you really seemed to understand me well thou i never did told you anything but i really do appreciate it alot and i'm really glad to have you as a great friend. Seriously i think you should be a girl instead because you really do understand girls alot; i guess the name CK sister really suits you well..

Thanks Issy for the dinner treat and the talk we had over dinner; Thanks Chynna and Shalini for the necklace you girls gotten me for my gift and Shalini, thank you for being a wonderful colleague and a good friend. Even thou its just a short period of time where we get to know each other but the friendship's just amazing and i hope for the one year to come and that the both of us be happy once again..

Thank you daddy and mummy for pampering and doting on me so double much and always giving in to me when at times i get out of hand. For tolerating my nonsense and my rubbish attitude when at times work gets really bad. And daddy for always driving me around especially to and from work even when there's ERP. I know it hasnt been easy bringing me up for the past 22 years and i really do appreciate everything even when your love at times can be so suffocating making me go nuts and always ever so overprotective of me. Even thou you will never get to see this but still i'm just so blessed; i will never be what i am today if not for the both of you. I just can't imagine what would become of me if i don't have the both of you by my side but then again i hope you could just let me decide the path i want to go and really want to do.

Thank you dearest brother for the gift, i really love it. Thank you for waking up wee early in the morning sending me to work last week when daddy was in U.S, i really appreciate it. Thank you for being protective of me, lending me your ears and being there for me when work gets to the extreme till an extend i teared uncontrollably and keeping it from daddy and mummy. Thou you can be a pain in the ass and always irritating me everyday without fail, i will learn to tolerate your irritating shits because i know it isnt for long whereby you'll be getting married and i wont get to live under the same roof with you, snatching the bathroom and taking ages in there, coming to fetch me from work, complaining to mummy when you get really so irritating. I'm really happy and glad that i've got a great brother and i hope you'll be an outstanding lawyer in years to come

HAPPY BELATED 21st brother bear! Hope you had a great one and sorry for not attending your chalet due to work commitment.

Lastly, i hope i know what i really want and be back to what i used to be. Its really horrible having to lose the smile i once had and i can't imagine smiling when you know that that smile of yours is just a plastered on and looking oh-so-fake when it means nothing at all. I hate that and i won't let myself crumble down. And can someone just wake me up from my delusional world and feel what i really feel within and not delude myself any further.. Will time unveil everything; i dont know.

And yea..

HAPPY APRIL FOOL everyone.

..happy fooling around but don't get fooled in return =P

Your presence makes everything different..

2007-03-07T11:26:00.000+08:00

emotions that twirl you around and manipulates the mind
if only she'd wish she could have the answers ;
tell her no matter what it is everything's gona be the same and not what she fears of
why does things have to change when there's an answer to it
why can't everything be the same ; it isnt fair at all, at least to her
she doesnt understand why things must be this way.
she doesnt want to gain something yet lose another but she doesnt have a choice

2007-02-26T20:53:00.000+08:00

HAPPY OINK OINK YEAR dear readers !

OPPS! I know i'm always lagging and a week has passed but still CNY has not ended yet. Heh! Hopefully everyone had fun for their CNY and smiles that form when receiving your red packets as for me CNY this year is like every ordinary day just that i get to breakaway from work and the feeling's rather weird as my granny's no longer here(idomissherstill) and it doesnt excite me receiving angbaos which makes me realized that i havent open any of it yet as i couldnt be bothered to do so. Was kinda upset that i couldnt follow mama to put flower for my granny and wish her greetings before i left for Penang as i gotta work.

I went to Penang with my family for a week to celebrate CNY as daddy wants to go back to visit his siblings and i've got no choice but to go even when i'm reluctant. My dad's a Singaporean but his hometown's in Penang and his siblings are located in Penang + KL which explains the trip. Didnt get to meet all of my dad's side but its rather weird and strange to see them again after 7years which explains why i aint close to them. Everyone changed and looked so different. I guess i wouldnt be able to recognise them should i bump onto them on the streets. Anyway it wasnt an exciting trip, the only fun part was that i get to see firecrackers that almost made my ears go deaf and the only good thing was that i managed to have plenty of rest. I almost died of boredom as there aint much of a thing to do and Penang's so laidback. Furthermore my stupid hp died on me for no apparent reason and i couldnt msg at all plus i got sick of the food after the second day as the food's nothing but oily and nothing healthy at all. Its like most of the time everywhere's about prawn mee, hokkien mee, char kuey teow so on and so fore and i don't eat these kinda food. The only appetising meal i had was my aunt's steamboat.

Met up with Glenda, Adrian, Shiying & friends as well as Amelia at zouk right after i came back from Penang. Didnt drink that night neither did we take any pictures but at least there were nice R&Bs going on. Left rather early that night as i had to work early morning the next day; sorry ladies for not being able to stay longer the next time round we shall have plenty of fun! =)

[ Flashbacks.. ]

#10th Feb'Saturday - Headed over to Rebecca's place for her baby Emberlynn's 1 month celebration and i wore my specs out that day because there's something wrong with my lens and my eyes are tired as well thus i decided to let my eye rest for a day; couldnt be bothered if i looked geeky. Gosh i tell you, her baby's so adorable together with her little hands and legs that makes her even cuter. Plus her baby has got delicate skin thats so smooth and nice to touch =P

*her and baby emberlynn..*

Later on went to town with parents for a last minute shopping with a total damage of $28o. Thankfully mummy was so nice to sponsor me a 1oo bucks for my new year clothings and the remainder money out from my pocket otherwise i'd be broke!

Ohhhh guess what? I saw Daniel Wu, the HK actor acting in the 'Protege' movie by chance and i must be lucky to have attended to him as he approached me for his room keys plus i get to talk to him. Thou i aint a fan of his but he's really cute especially when he smile! Aiights this is so lame.

I guess thats about all. PAY DAY's coming soon and i shall buy something nice to pamper myself. Time to check my account because i havent been updating it for 2months and i've got clueless idea how much i've got in it; hopefully i don't get a heart attack. Thats the bad thing when you've got card(s) in your wallet, you just swipe non-stop and at the end of the day, you've got no idea where that money gone to. And yes freaking MARCH is approaching. In exactly one months time i'll be freaking damn 22, yes the big double TWOs; can i not have that to happen? OH GOSH! And of course, without knowing it sooner or later the stupid month of June or issit July will approach and goodness gracious meeee i've yet to type a single word for my hell 15,ooo words report which i've got no timeeee to do. Would any kind soul be willing to write my report for me (=

Yet again its another brand new week..
Have a great week my dear readers ~

*perhaps she should give up ;
tell her if what she feels aint true..*

she'd hope if you could share your pains with her and be happy once again..

2007-02-13T12:56:00.000+08:00

Happy collecting your red packets my dear readers.
(..and i hope your CNY will be a good one)

My 1 week leave has been approved; i will be gone by this friday till maybe end of next week.
Gona take MC tmr not b'coz i've got a date on valentines but a date with my doctor & the hospital.
Won't be posting any entry for this 2 weeks so don't bother popping by..

P.S - Have fun on the 21st my dear CKs

BYE all. I'm off to work for now.

2007-02-09T14:28:00.000+08:00

*if only she'd have one wish..*

Omg people i tell you its really TGIF for me as its finally my off today cause i get to rest. But even so the days doesnt seem long enough to get sufficient rest as i'm really freaking exhausted this week because work is draining me out lately. Its freaking hell busy lately and its really hell crazy i tell you; makes you go nuts. Been clocking extra hours lately and i ended work at 230am last night instead of 11. Lucky i'm off today otherwise i'll just take a mc. Its not about the hours thats long but when the hotel is seriously overbooked with insufficient rooms and you having to face demanding guests its really mental drainous. My brains just stop functioning after work and particularly everyday this week when i go home i'm like a total zombie and daddy was like so worried asking me why do my face look extremely shag. Thanks daddy for coming to pick me home as i missed my night transport, i'm just so blessed to have my daddy because he really dotes on me. Gawd! I seriously need a sleepatheraphy.

* her nasty eyebags exhausted looks.. *

Anyway i cannot stand people from that particular country called C****. Sorry i don't wana get sued for being racial discremination and furthermore my parents are under the government. Freak-o-hell to them. So what if your stupid country is booming and dont freaking throw your weight around acting all arrogant dammit. I got myself into a heated conflict with this group of C.people like the day before because they are extremely arrogant and unreasonable. Like hello cant people be understanding enough. You came with like 8 reservations and we've got no less than 12 clean rooms and you expect speedy service in 15mins? Its not as if we aint trying our best and they start complaining like hell saying they waited for 1hour which is blady exaggerating & not true. Never mind about that, that blady woman make a big hoohaa demanding me to serve her and her male colleague when 2 of my colleagues are already helping them furthermore don't she have eyes to see that i'm handling another guest and its hell rude to ask me not to serve my guest and attend to her. I seriously refused to serve her because of their shittiness airheaded in them and so that guy with her started saying vulgarities that i was like so pissed off because i hate it when guest start saying vulgarities furthermore he has no right to be so rude so i argued back with them. Who cares about guest is always right, when it comes to fucked up guest i do not give a damn and then that asshole looked at my name tag and said, "your name is jaclyn i'm going to complain about you". Fuck it la if he thinks by threatening me i'll be afraid, he can complain for all he want because i don't give a damn and i can't even be bothered to apologise to them because they don't deserve a word of sorry from my mouth. Seriously i don't know whats wrong with people these days, being so unreasonable cum demanding and cant they be more understanding and stop hurling vulgarities at people. If they think our jobscope is so easy why don't they themselves try it theirselves and understand what it is like.

I'm going shopping later for my last minute new year clothes and i won't be around for a week from the end of next week. But first its gona be dvd timmeee.. i'm so addicted to the current korean drama i have on hand right now.

that very night where we had fun !

* 1/2 of CKs together with Ying & Vivi chilling out together @ The Clinic.. *

Like how long have we not gone out together to chill out? It was a rare Saturday whereby everyone manage to get together. A pity that C.Wei & Alison couldnt make it otherwise it would be a complete CK outing. Headed to Kandi Bar first while waiting for Glenda to arrive and had mango magarita; i tell you the alcohol was freaking strong till my face turned red. Headed to Coffee Club to have our late dinner and slack there before we headed off to the Clinic. Its fun but their drinks cause a bomb with a total of 2oobucks. Crazy isnt it but it was worth the fun and experience. Anyway to my dearest CK family and of course not forgetting Yingying & Vivi, thanks for the fun and joy; it was definately a great time out (=
[ P.S - i doubt i can make it on the 21st Feb' Sorry if i cant join in the fun ]

Pardon me peeps as i'm really lazy to do anything or edit the pics. Aiights i'll be back to post another entry again

Have a great weekend my dear readers !
(..and if i do not post an entry next week )
HAPPY PRE-14-FeB & CNY =D

2007-02-03T01:45:00.000+08:00

You know what people..

I FELL SICK !
got a viral infection and i almost lost my voice..
thank god its better now and am recovering

* its yucky medicine time.. *

* yucky medicines for recovery.. *

been coughing non-stop especially in the night
can you imagine me being unwell & still gotta work
freaking workplace has got lack of manpower lately
poor me had to strain my voice while handling guests =/

stupid doctor at Raffles Medical freaking giam siap with MC
i had no choice but to go to the doc b'coz my throat was feeling real awful
next time when i don't feel well & wana take MC..
i'll fork out my own money & see the doctor that aint liase with RCMS
it isnt as if i'm poor and couldnt afford a doctor consultation fee.

work sucks today. i'd realize 2oo7 isnt a good start for me
nothing good but being sucky ; i HATE it *sighs*

I've comed to a conclusion..

I will learn to be SELFISH

and i'll NOT..

be too nice, too kind and be helpful to people around me

(..it gets you nowhere but trouble)

I've got a feeling that one day, i'll just explode
when that happens i don't know what will happen
b'coz i swear it wouldnt be a good thing

If i'd have a wish..
I wish i could get back my smiles & joy
because i havent been happy (iknowitmyself)
its just an empty shell left within me right now
everything i do, its to make them happy and not myself
what do i get by doing this..
nothing but pain and the loss of endorphines

If people who knew me well enough..
they'd realize i aint being the way i used to be like before

I know i should be home resting but still i went out with Chyna, Shalini, Hayami, Nanami & Tomoko san(s) this evening & as usual i'm freaking 1.5hrs late(even when i took a cab down) with them having their dinner started first. Anyway it was a dinner date with my female colleagues and they wanted to have dim sum therefore it was settled at the dim sum coffee shop at Mong Kok of Geylang Lorong 8.

<- i like this

They ordered so much food with a total of 88bucks in all and of course it was a great outing with them. Seriously it was my first time being in Geylang & having my meal there. Wouldnt want to go there and my parents wouldnt allow me to go that kinda place either. Oh yes and i tell you people, i was waiting for the bus together with my colleague Chyna and this blady freaking asshole kept staring at us like nobodies business till his bus came. Like whats his problem ah. Hell man, he got that fc*king look on that face & the both of us was like so pissed off. I guess he doesnt understand English because we were like saying 'stop staring la' to him freaking loudly. Chyna was so cute as she took out her perfume so that in any case he comes any nearer she would spray the perfume at him. LOL! And you know what when his bus finally came, he boarded the bus and even continued staring at us giving us that kinda cheeky look, like WTF! GRRR.. can't those assholes get a life? Not everyone who goes to that place are that kinda people and i aint stepping into Geylang. It felt as if you were being watched by countless of eyes. Yucks! Anyway i had an enjoyable bus ride back with Chyna. She's like the only one whom i could truely trust and talk about almost and basically everything. Thanks girl (=

Meeting the CK family tomorrow evening and a good rest before that.

Nytes my dear readers & a lovely weekend

2007-01-31T00:24:00.000+08:00

WHHEEEEE.. I'M ALL SMILESSSS =D

Wana know why?

Simply for 3 simple reasons..

1. ITS PAY DAY !

2. I got a PAY INCREMENT; thanks to our big boss.
(aint telling my pay so don't bother asking)

3. Sold a suite & i'm gona get my INCENTIVE(s)!

Yea its all about money, i'm not about being materialistic but how great is that when the thought of money coming into your pocket. Never would i imagine i would have a pay increment and like which hotel would actually have that salary with a 2 days off week? And so, for the sake of my future i might re-adjust my plannings; it wouldnt be for long but it wouldnt be that short either because the work is shit. Anyway i'm gona try hard and save 10k within a year. I know its crazy and might not be possible because afterall my pay is still peanuts and i do give some of my salary to my parents but then again, the impossibles can also be possible and i'm gona make that happen. I aint born with a golden or silver spoon in my mouth and i'm neither well to do therefore i need to save for my future because my parents are getting old and i cannot depend on them forever. Besides i gotta save for my medicals because it aint cheap and i'm not as lucky as you people as i've to see the doctor for a lifetime.

My roster is pathetic this week because its neither here nor there but its okay because i get to have the weekends off (= Shall pamper myself a good shopping therapy. Gona be an occupied weekends. Having dinner this friday with my colleagues, meeting my friend on saturday and finally spring cleaning cum family day on sunday!

Met up with Glenda at town afew days back and we did some shopping. Headed to bugis later on because it has been ages since we last visited the place. Bought a black top and yea its black again; not that i'm sadist but i just love black and my wardrobe has been conquered by blacks so much so my mum hates me buying that colour & i'm still buying it. Like i care. Haha! Gona clear my stupid wardrobe and get rid of the ones thats been lying like a white elephant, nothing but collecting dust and taking up space.

Oh you know what people. I never did realize that even when you don't contact the people surrounding you, they still do talk about you without you knowing it and taking note of what your actions. I seriously have got no time to entertain everyone and friends of mine ever since i started working and my life has been so dull that i don't understand why do people still bother to know whats happening with my life. I got to find out something interesting lately and i seriously have got clueless idea. I'm amazed with the fact that someone has been saying that i've been attached when the fact that i'm not. Like how comical is that? I aint disturbed by that but goodness me whoever you are please get your facts right before telling people the wrong things. I know people are concern that i'm still single but at the end of the day its my life that i'm leading and not anyone else (=

Its 24 more hours before the month of January ends. 2 more working days to my off day. 1.5 more weeks before my leave gets approve. 2 more weeks till someone's exam ends. 3 more weeks to CNY(i think) and why don't i have the festive mood in me? 4 more weeks before the month of February ends and i seriously want the month of February to end slower and the month of march not to come.

Aiights gotta stop here and get my rest. Working midshift later and i'm falling sickkk again. Last but not least congrats to rebecca on her birth to little emberlynn and having her one month old celebration soon (=

Twinkle sweet dreams my dear readers !

*her afterwork tired look & Sheryll, a nice girl she knew recently *

2007-01-25T22:09:00.000+08:00

Gah! Got a tummy run today and its good cause it clears my system. I'm amazed with myself for i slept at 7am this morning and i woke up at like 12 in the noon? My system is screwed always waking up early when i aint working and always unable to wake up when i had to work. God knows why.

Recently been craving for japanese food and i'm a sucker for sushi(s) and sashimi. Been eating sushi(s) recently and mum bought me my favourite, i don't know the name but its salmon with rice & little chilli padi. Total YUMS ! Buy me that and i'm all smiles..

I so wana cut my hair but decided not to because of certain people but i guess it won't be for long as i cant resist visiting the saloon. Anyway luckily i'm being reminded that new year is coming in 2 weeks time and i've yet to start my new year spree. So much so for being busy with work that i lost touch with the days and months and the life i have.

Working mid-shift this week and its busy as ever. Went out with my colleagues last night; a last minute outing. Ended work late yesterday and only reached home at 11pm with me having to bathe and rush like a crazy woman as i'm meeting the girls at 1145pm and as usual i'm late. Headed to MOS and partied with Chyna, Julie, Abbie, Nanami & Hayami san, definately a fun time out with them. I'm just so glad that i did went out with them last night as i was hesitating whether to go for i was kinda tired at least i get to ease the troubles and stress within me.

I havent been myself and i can no longer smile the way i used to because somehow or rather i aint as happy & cheerful as before. I can no longer control my emotions and handle it well. There's just way too many thing within me and its bugging me, stressing me out. I wish i could just let it all out but nobody could ever understand how i feel and the things i have to face. Its just way too much, i'm getting tired. I wouldnt be amazed should there be a day i fall into depression again since i experienced it once and seriously i wouldnt mind being warded into a mental hosipital cause i rather be a crazy person being unaware of the surroundings around me. Even thou mental people have got a shadow in them but they aint troubled but happy. My life's no where perfect yet it seemed as thou it was painted perfect. I'm just like a walking doll leading a life that isnt mine yet it belongs to me.. Can i ever lead a life that is mine and belongs to me?

TGIF & a great weekend my dear readers

2007-01-21T13:05:00.000+08:00

* emotions isnt something that can be described but felt within..*

Oh yay people i finally have my weekend off which i hardly ever get. Can you feel the smiles in me? I'm supposed to be spring cleaning for the coming CNY but i just got this i-cannot-be-bothered-to-clean-and-move mood right now. LOL! Okay so what if i'm being lazy but i just cant help it. Eversince i started working i just cant be bothered with any other stuffs that has to do with cleaning and i know i shouldnt make that as an excuse therefore and perhaps i'm gona clean my room next week. Who cares about CNY anyway, i'm not even looking forward to it and the mood for it. Things aint gona be the same it used to be and i miss my dearest grandmother. It'll be my first new year not having her and forever will be. Daddy's so looking forward to penang and i've no choice but to go when i just cannot be bothered because i cannot stand my relatives there.

Ended work late on friday because it was my first time closing my cashier with cash. Finally gotten my cash float and its so troublesome i tell you. I'm so bad at counting especially dealing with money; all these shit gona make me go crazy. Took a cab down to cine in the night because my last train had left and met up with Glenda and Shiying. Headed to Swensen's and we slacked there till late with many things to talk about. Wanted to head over to Alley's bar for a drink but a changed of plan and headed to Glenda's place. Watched dvd and drank baileys as well as chivas.

Was so freaking tired by then because i was awake since 5 in the morning and my face was red like a blusher; definately an enjoyable time spent with the girls and knocked out at 5am. Thanks daddy & mummy for fetching me home in the morning.

Family day on Saturday; i was a total knock out zombie and slept from 12 all the way till 7 when mummy woke me up as daddy's bringing the whole family out for a treat of seafood together with brother's gf. Daddy ordered seafood soup, kailan, long bean, oysters, 2 big black pepper & a chilli crab together with mantou(s). Didnt really eat much and i only ate a spincer as i was too tired and not much of appetite. Daddy was like saying i was so quiet the entire night not even talking. I seriously think i need my 8 hours and more of sleep every day otherwise i'll just be a total zombie and a day would be wasted just by being concussed.

Gona head out later and do some shopping. I so wana cut my hair and i'm gona cut it as its so untidy not bothering the fact that mummy aint letting me cut my hair; stupid fringe of mine so irritating me. My bill's here and i gotta pay mummy my damages that i spent; thank god pay day's coming real soon (=

Ending off with a mixed kinda feeling that surrounds her;
if only you could tell me why is this so..

2007-01-14T19:02:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMELIA !
Turning 22 and getting wiser ;
with loadsa love from me & the CK family (=

Its back to work and after months of working i finally get to work in the morning instead of afternoon and i love morning shift because its not as hectic cum crazy plus i get to go home early instead of doing extra hours. YAY! (= Just had my off days and i simply love being away from work(like who doesnt?) because its stress free. Work has definately made my stress level zoomed up to 1oo% and above. Everyday seems like a peak period and i hate it; its just plain C R A Z Y ! Gona apply for a week(s) leave soon and i hope my boss approves it plus i'm gona take a day mc. Not that i gek it, but its for real. Gotta go for my check up again and might stay in for a day as doctor wants to do more tests which is bad as the bill's gona cost an enormous bomb for my parents and i hate doing test; make me feel weak and sick =/

Went out with daddy to VivoCity for some shopping on Thursday (= simply love spending time with him. Headed off in the evening to bugis and met up with Helda, Hayami and Sharilyn. Had steamboat and was freaking full. Felt like puking after that; think my system's screwed as i have the urge to puke after every meals. Was a fun time out with my colleagues.

Met up with chuen wei in the night and went to Thomson's Liquid Kitchen. Drank a cocktail that tasted like chocolate milkshake. Lol! Anyway, thanks c.wei for the treat and it was definately a nice time catching up with you after a few months.

As it was our CK's Amelia's birthday celebration yesterday and due to work i couldnt make it therefore decided to make it up by meeting her for lunch on friday. Met up with the 2 CK ladies together with Adrian and had Sakae Sushi for lunch. Ate a chawamushi and a main dish *i forgot the name* Simply love japanese food; my favourite and it will definately make my day (= Anyway sorry ladies for being late as i totally overslept; thank god for the missed calls =D

Can someone please enlighten me why do the days zoom pass so freaking fast? I can't imagine that in a months time it'll be CNY and i'll most probably be out of town. Plus the next thing i know, its gona be half a month being a workaholic. That isnt the main point but the fact that in another 2 more months i'm turning 22. Can i not have that to happen? Makes me feel old and yes i'm getting older but thank god i'm blessed with a baby face. I shall sleep early and cut down on my late nights plus stupid work is causing me eye bags. Don't wana think of anything else and shall take everything one step at a time.

Aights i shall end off now and before i finally do that, one last thing to add on. People who came across my last entry's paragraph might think that its too much to post such a thing but do you think i care? When things have gone beyond limit, it'll be beyond my limits of what i'll do. It isnt my thing to do such stuffs but when things have become terrible, don't blame me for being mean. I have my limit and patience; don't test me because i can do tons of things people can never expect me to do. I can be nice but don't take it for granted; don't do things that irks me off and when i'm pissed off, thats it.

Bye all. Its Monday ~~blues~~ tomorrow.

*that unpredictable feelings in her..*

2007-01-06T15:30:00.000+08:00

Yea yea i know i'm days late but who cares..

HAPPY 2oo7 my dear readers;

with loadsa love from me (=

Now where shall i start off with. Perhaps a happy start because its the starting of a brand new year before ending my post with the past of 2oo6.

Guess what people; I'm feeling happy because i lost 3.5kg. I don't know how i manage to lose the weight but i shall continue to do so because I SO WANA LOSE 10KG and it shall be my no1 resolution of 2oo7. LOL! and yes my p-plate's gone for good since the start of 'o7 (=

Was suppose to head to sentosa with my parents today but i came home late in the wee morning and woke up in the noon therefore the entire trip was cancelled. Brother's friends came over to our place for MJ session which is why i'm able to post this entry. P.S -don't read if you don't like the things i post.

My off day was a fruitful one yesterday because i had uber fun (= Headed to town in the noon meeting the 2 CK ladies during their lunch break and i did threading. My brows are like so untidy and its time to neaten it. Later on met up with the guys in the evening; an outing with 2 guys and me being the only girl. Headed to Carls Junior and had 2 pieces of wedges because i had not much of an appetite. Caught 'Confessions of Pain' at GV VivioCity and it was a dumb show; almost fell asleep and sorrryy for choosing such a dull movie. Overall a rating of 2.6/5. I know this sounds stupid but the reason i caught that movie was because Takeshi Kaneshiro was acting in it; my favourite actor. LOL! Thanks mister wong for lending me your jacket; it kept me warm and cozy throughout (= Headed home after the movie to find my ic because its horrible to be like an immigrant with no ID on me as i lost my driving licence. Took the car and drove to glenda's place before picking shiying up at suntec and headed to zouk in the night meeting up with 2 of ying's gf. Only had a baileys and one stupid fruit punch as i was driving. R&B rocks later part of the night. The funny thing was this guy approached me asking if he could dance with me and before he knew it the music stopped and lights on which means party's over and his face was filled with embarrassment! LOL! OPPS! Phheeww thanks to the dj who totally saved me. Saw Mr Toa Payoh and we went to river valley for supper. And you know what people after 2.5 freaking long years i finally ate one piece of ROTI PRATA. Felt like puking after that as my body aint used to eating flour with LOADS of OIL. Uber fattening and disgusting! Gotta go on ultra dieting. Sent Glenda, Mr TPY and 1 of his friend back and reached home at 615am. Was freaking tired and finally knocked out at 73o.

You know what i simply love working during Public Holiday(s) especially Christmas and New Year's Eve because everyone's in a oh-so-happy-mood (= I got to see the new year's eve countdown fireworks before meeting up with glenda, shiying and vivien at MOS after my work to celebrate the starting of 2oo7. Seriously i cannot stand that place as its filled with all the milo or charcoal coloured people and everyone's just pushing and being so aggressive. And yeah thanks to vivi i got an MOS ice cube with the red light blinking =D Thanks glenda sweets for the ride home and i was super tired by then and to think that i gotta wake up early and head to work at 12.

Yup so this is it, the beginning of a start of 2oo7. Whatever lies ahead nobody knows and i must say it'd gona be another different and interesting journey to begin with for 2oo7.

I must say 2oo6 was a year filled with loads of memories, be it with smiles, tears, frowns or anger and it was definately a journey that had made me learnt and grow. I gained the knowledge and meaning of life and on the other hand lost precious ones in my life. 2oo6 was a year whereby i turned 21 which is the start of adulthood, lost a friend as well as my precious grandmother in my heart, completed my studies, started working and earning my own hard earned money, and last but not least lost a friendship that caught me by surprised. And of course i've changed, physically and mentally.

As you know people i've got STM therefore i'm just gona blurt whatever i remembered of what occurred the last year of the month.

I don't know when it was but we headed to phuture. It wasnt a pleasant clubbing night because my toes got stepped many times by different clumsy people and the worst and sad thing was...

I LOST MY DRIVING LICENCE !

Now how great is that? And i had to lie to my parents on how i lose it and where it went missing =(

My christmas wasnt a good one because i fell really sick. Had a horrible throbbing migrane that i had to take mc and be away from work. While everyone's celebrating the joy of the season i spent my time sleeping and recuperating because the stupid doctor was so stingy with mc that he only gave me one day away from work. Blahhh! Anyway, thanks brother and cheryl for the hp chain with my initial on it; simply love it to the max, thanks sweets for the shirt and of course thanks mummy for the last minute surprised thailand trip for my christmas present (= Mummy had to go thailand for 2 days for her work and she bought me a SQ ticket to bring me along as accommodation has been paid by her office. Didn't get to do much as it was way too short; did some quick shopping and i went inside of the Embassy of Singapore in Thailand and explored the whole place.

Last but not least..

This is for someone whom was once close to me but not anymore because she proved to me that the friendship we used to have does not mean anything to her.

I never knew friendship can be so breakable and and that my friendship to people doesnt even mean anything but a piece of shit that can be broken anytime they wish too silently and you being in the dark not knowing anything but having to find out yourself. It'll be a reminder for me to judge every single person whom i encounter from now onwards. You chose that path therefore its between you and glenda not me. So what if i am close to glenda but that doesnt mean i just break and let go of a friendship that was formed. FYI i'm not one who doesnt cherish my friendship because i do treasure them. Thanks for letting me know and showing me how important one friendship values because it shows to me that it means so little to you. Since you chose to break it i'll let it be and not be bothered about it. You decided to be this way so don't go around telling people another different thing.

[ 2511o5 ]

Thanks for the memories and all these has become a past and no longer shall it be a present.

2006-12-23T23:56:00.000+08:00

boohoohoo! its a bad bad day today =(
i am totally innocent and i got !@#$%^&* for nothing
its was TOTALLY HORRIBLE till an extend i teared. *SOBS!
many great thanks to that blady mother fucker asshole bastard.
I HOPE YOUR MOUTH GETS SORE & CANNOT TALK FOR MONTHS
or better still you become IMPOTENT. NB.
yes i am this vulgar when it comes to unforeseen circumstances.
I SWEAR I DO NOT ANY HOW HURL LANGUAGES AT PEOPLE
NEITHER DO I SIMPLY SAY NASTY THINGS
its the worse kinda situation i come across & ever happened in the service industry.

seriously, I CANNOT STAND SINGAPOREANS !!!!!!
their behaviour is so irritating; if i could have a chance can i slap them?
please okay, people in service industries are also HUMAN
STOP THROWING YOUR WEIGHT AROUND
WE DO NOT OWE YOU A GOD DAMN LIVING !

I'll update again with a proper entry when i seriously have the time; there'll be plenty to rant. I'm sick right now and yet i still go to work. My nose is runny, i'm feeling cold, my lips are cracking and my head hurts hell painful; i havent seen a doctor and neither do i have any medication at home. My manager is worried for fear i would take a mc. Seriously i doubt my sick bug will recover anytime soon; hopefully my fainty spells comes back to visit me and i'll just faint unexpectedly like how i fainted in the past.

2006-12-16T23:42:00.000+08:00

i think i'm falling sick(ihopenot)..

christmas is coming yet i do not have the festive mood

i just want plenty of rest and nothing else.

will mr santa come knocking on my window on the 25th?

it'd be easy for him since i'm living on the 36th floor

somehow i wish fairytales exist..

if only it does, i hope mr santa will bring me to netherlands

it'd be so wonderful to sit on that sley high up in the sky with the reindeers :)

(..and that i need not have to work like a crazy workaholic)

okay i'm dreaming, work has made me gone absolutely N U T S !

Sweet dreams my dear readers ~

2006-12-10T23:18:00.000+08:00

as much as girls detest me as much as i DETEST them; esp' bitches
i wish they just vanish right in front of me. or rather..
i wish i'd have a voodoo doll poke it zillion times when being provoked
i almost had a conflict with that god damn bitch. i hope she knows her limit.
my tolerance level is rather high but trust me i'll explode pretty soon
I HAVE BEEN TOLERATING YOU EVER SINCE DAY 1, YOU !@#$%^&*

2006-12-09T01:34:00.000+08:00

It suddenly occur to me that as days pass many things change and i must have changed too. I'd realize that i've been living too much in my own reality and i guess its time to snub it off. My life and everything seem to have change dramasticly. Was browsing through all my pictures in my computer because i think its time to clear away some of it as its taking too much space in my ram. Anyway, i just found out i had more clubbing snapshots compared to my family pictures including mine. I wonder if i should delete some away because those were once the memories we had, all the crazy fun shits where one could never forget.

COCO LATTE

DBL O

MOS

ZOUK

**There's actually more to it but i'm too tired to upload it..

Glenda sweets ; you will and always be my craziest khakhi in everything and the fun times we had during the good old days are really the days whereby we had the craziest loads of fun. I'll never forget the days where we partied like nobody business, drank like crazy and puke like never ending, got freaking hangover, almost didnt turn up for lesson, from a big group to just us, Missing the good old days yeah and i wonder when will we ever get to revive those days again. Aint as energetic and crazy as before anymore. LOL! *muacks! Love you man.

My manager spoke to me today, about my confirmation and i've been confirmed. Certain things he spoke to me made me really ponder and think in dept. Maybe its time for me to get serious..

Please don't ask me whats my entry about and what am i doing typing away at this hour of time. I think i'm crazy, i'm suppose to get my beauty sleep and not type this nonsensical entry but then again; I HAVE GOT PLENTY OF THINGS RUNNING THRU MY MIND! Can anyone just understand what am i thinking or rather my thoughts? Therefore i decided to blurt a stupid entry to ease my mind a little. And seriously nothing in this entry make sense.

Can the time just stop for a moment? Its just too scary..

Time to shower and head to bed. Nytes my dear readers!

2006-12-07T12:39:00.000+08:00

Alrighty, its the month of december. Like really, how many of you do take note and know the importance of each day. Gawd, how time flies; pretty soon it'll be the end of 2oo6 and everyone can say hello to 2oo7. I hope it'd be a good year ahead for me cause the year 2oo7 doesnt seem so right or should i say sound right to me. Never like the number 7 anyway. And you know what, before you could do anything much..

CHRISTMAS IS COMING :)

which means time for present hunting. I wonder if i've got the time to do that, work has been so crazy. Festive season is good but not good at work.

Jaclyn's simple wish for this christmas..

1. to have more time for myself and love ones

2. work not to be so freaky busy

3. everyone she knows to be happy (esp' her) =D

now how simple is that? Haha =P

I wish i could update a proper entry because this current entry of mine will just be really simple and nothing elaborate. I have been really busy and there're plenty to rant about however i shall keep it till my next entry. I aint using the computer as frequent as i used to as you know my lap crashed plus my brother's having exam. Work is killing me lately; busy like nobody business, clocking 12hours practically everyday, and even when i'm asleep i've got nightmares of work. I'm going nuts soon, yes i am. I'm so drained out and exhausted that even when i'm off i do not wish to do anything but regain back my insufficient rest. It seemed to me as if i've worked for ages but its just a pathetic of 2months+. Anyway, i super can't wait for the 25th of december because its the day whereby i'm officially confirmed and i can start taking mc(s) without having my pay being deducted plus i'm so awaiting for my end year bonus =D okay maybe it aint gona worth alot because i only just started working but at least i've got 3 months additional right which is better than nothing.

You know what people, i'm so sorry but to say this.

S'POREANS HAVE GOT AN UGLY BEHAVIOUR

I'm not saying all singaporeans but most of them. I'm sad to say this but i'm very ashamed to serve my fellow nationals. If i had a choice i'd rather serve foreigners than to serve our fellow nations and i hate to admit the fact that if given a choice i'd rather not say that this person is from my country.

Yes i do understand people's needs but requests are due to hotel's availability furthermore it isnt a guaranteed booking. Hotels are undergoing a busy peak period and rooms are being overbooked. Why cant people just understand and not making a big fuss. Its not as if we do not wish to give in to people's request but people got to understand the busy situation. Don't people understand simple basic english. Be glad that you still have a room to stay and stop being so picky with replies like, "So low floor, i need a king size bed, i want a late check out". Singaporeans do not even appreciate what they have been given and their behaviour at times is so ugly and cheapo that i'm speechless. I have experienced so many encounters whereby i don't know where to begin with.

One incident i had with this god damn bastard yesterday. I'm sorry about my language but he is really a bastard furthermore i do not simply call people bastard and he almost spoilt my mood. My colleague even thinks he is a yayapapaya. Please don't think that having to book a premier suite in our hotel and having to add on to our revenue means you got the authority to throw your weight around plus the fact that doesnt mean you are rich you can be so authoritive cum rude and everything got to be given in. SO WHAT IF PEOPLE ARE RICH? I do not give a damn. You are afterall a human. Back to my topic.

1. Please understand the fact that Hotel check in time is 2pm; even if you have got a booking but the room is still dirty, you still have to wait.

2. Don't think you are the only one to wait for your room because practically every guests in the hotel got to wait, even those who checked in at 8am.

3. Normal check out time is 12pm and late check outs is prior to hotel's availability; please note that when hotels are overbooked and running on high occupancy, we cannot give in to late checkouts at 2pm or 3pm and we'll have to charge u for half day rate if u insist.

That bastard not only being rude but do not understand simple english. I'm lazy to repeat the whole incident but if u were to read the points i've written u might roughly have a brief idea what had happened. Anyway this idiot is just so rude, demanding, cheapo, arrogant that i cannot take it and felt like smacking him. I know being in the service industry we have got to be professionals but when it comes to such arrogant shits, i do not give a damn. Afterbeing so polite, i decided not being nice to him and i immediately shut my smile. Bastards dont deserve to see me smiling at them. His replies was total shit like "what do u expect me to do", "i have been travelling and i have been hearing this kind of things. I want a late check out at 3", "i came at 1230 and u made me wait for my room, i want a late check out and you better take note", then he calls for his son "XX, give her ur credit card" One thing i do not understand, if ur son has got a c/card and able to register himself in why do u need to be a hindrance to him and be there to register thus causing him to be embarrassed. I really wish his son come across my entry and realize what ugly father he has got. Really, when people have been polite and nice to you please do not snub them off and be so arrogant cum nasty. Secondly, I do not care whether u have been travelling, you do not have to show off. Thirdly, you are just an impatient freak and by the way it is your son that has to wait for the room, not you. Forthly, it isnt a big deal that your son at the age of 18 have got a credit card and its just a normal credit card, not platinium. I have got credit cards as well do u need me to take them out and shuff it at ur face.

Another thing I realized; rich people are rather cheapos they try to squeeze you dry and get things FOC even when they are rich. I seriously cannot stand seeing those richs being so arrogant; every actions of theirs are just so detestable. Please okay so what if u are loaded with money. It doesnt make u a god. Yes money makes wonders but the whole world doesnt owe you anything when you are rich. Stop being so stuck up and arrogant. Be bless of what you have and be fortunate by what you have been given. Why cant those rich people learn to be humble. Besides, if you realize people who are rich werent eventually rich, they were once like everyone leading an ordinary simple life before they actually strike rich and overloaded with money. By the way, my entries aint targetting anyone its just that being in the service industry, its really an eye opener to see what it is and how people behave. You could really see the difference. Lets not just say the people i've seen. Even my dad's side, who are rich behaves like that. I just cant stand the arrogance and the airs in them. Stuck up piece of shit.

Aiights ending here for now and heading out to town. I'll update whenever i can.

2006-11-25T12:36:00.001+08:00

TIME TO HIT THE THREADMILL !
~~(and stop being cooped up with work)~~

I SO WANA LOSE MY BABY FAT..

don't like my puffy cheek - . -

Opps! Time to bathe and shit..
Don't wana be late for work!

HAPPY TWO MONTHS WORKING TO JACLYN`
BYE Readers.. I will be back pretty soon =D

2006-11-12T20:09:00.000+08:00

* Life isnt about being fake, its how well you handle people.. *

Havent been updating as i've been busy either that i'm just too tired. All that i know, i've been neglecting loads of things and this can't do cause my social life seems to be fading. I seriously do miss the good old days badly for working life differs and changes everything.

Its been a whole load of mental stress and its driving me crazy plus i'm very bad at handling stress for 1. my brains will go haywired and not focus, 2. lost of appetite, 3. my emotions will just explode which unfortunately did happened. I won't say what happen but i'm thankful for my brother to be there for me (after donkey years) when everything seems uncontrollable at a point of time. Thou nobdy would exactly understand but at least i managed to burst it out. Anyway, hotel will be my thing for now and the rest of my days ahead but one thing for sure, i'm gona further my studies after gaining much experience. Working life isnt an easy thing; its just too complicated in the industry therefore peeps never simply place your trust on anyone.

* boss brought back chocs for our dept from aussie.. *

Mummy has undergone an operation and she's recuperating at home; daddy and i have been helping to do the housework. We took turns to cook the dishes and tidied the house. Lucky me i don't have to wash the dishes when dd is around cause he doesn't like me to wash as he doesnt want my hands to be rough. Oh yes, i washed the toilets again and come to think of it its kinda fun scrubbing and cleaning. As for now, moisturiser would be my good friend =P Get well soon mummy!

Went for doctor checkup at NUH and i lost weight. Thanks to being stressed out but i'm happy that i lost weight and i shall continue to do that. Took blood test this time and know what happened, my blood couldnt flow out or should i say my vein didnt have enough blood and i had to have 2 nurse to attend to me just to draw my blood. Was like laughing like nobody business when there wasnt enough blood to be drawed and the nurse was like telling me, "you still can laugh when your blood not coming out, i don't want to poke you again" i think i'm crazy cause usually when people aint have sufficient blood to flow out they would get worried and wouldnt want to be poke again. Wanted to reply the nurse, "never mind if cannot then poke again" but i didnt i just gave her a gleeful smile. =P Whats a needle to me when i've been immuned to it for 21years. I know people must be wondering why do i have to go for checkup and stuffs; aint gona say a thing till a day i decided to reveil it. Anyway, its a big damage of 300bucks and i guess i gotta depend on my parents for my medicals till i'm financially independant cause its too expensive for me to afford; my pay is peanuts.

W EE K S B AC K . .

Had a feast on dd's bday. Thanks to my aunt and she's a good cook; she whipped up pepper crabs, oat prawns, fish, chicken. Total yums!

Headed to town with hayami and zian after our training. It was shopping therapy for the girls. Wanted get a nice pair of heels for myself but couldnt find any. Spent almost the whole day out and boyy was i tired after that.

*taken ages back // thats the obasang uniform that my jap's friend wearing*

Met up with Glenda and Fad and caught a movie "Material Girls" at cineleisure. Overall a rating of 2.95/5. Left for prata house to slack and thanks sweets for the ride back :)

Went out with my bunch of colleagues and had dinner at sakae sushi cum farewell session for my lovely colleagues from indo. Its a pity i couldnt get to know them better for they are really nice people. We ordered loads of food with a total damage of 120bucks. Was definately a fun time out with them. Wasnt intending to head down to zouk and it was so freaking last minute as i was working at 7am the next day. In the end i went with jenny, hayami and chyna plus sharilyn joined us later but i left really way early. Bumped into steph and sorry adrian to have made you search for me when i've already left. I seriously swear i was like a walking zombie the next day at work.

* hayami, chyna, jenny, christy, noly, yuni, yumi and jaclyn.. *

L A S T L Y ..

- Pictures taken at phuture with my lovely ladies =D

Oh yay, my next pay's coming ! I so need to pamper myself with..

1. Manicure and pedicure sessions

2. Threading of eye brows

3. New spectacles

4. Shopping therapy

P.S - my pay is peanuts so don't even think i'm loaded and part of it are given to my parents.

plus fyi i aint rich my parents work hard to provide us the spending ability and comfort life.

i aint no sugary sweet; find urself a sugary daddy/mummy if u need one. i'm not made of money

Awaiting for her off dayyy..

2006-10-21T03:16:00.000+08:00

* don't be jealous of others but be blessed of what you have.. *

Its been 2 weeks since i last updated and i was kinda hesitating whether to post a new entry. Besides, blogger was frigging lag and i almost gave up waiting; i hate to wait. I've got clueless idea of where and what to rant about first because i'm getting lazier not that i'm a lazy bum but eversince i started working everything seemed to have changed. When you work all you think of is rest and when you rest everything seem to put on hold.

A quick recap of what i did before i start ranting..

1. Cooked dinner for family (= P.S -Who says girls cant cook. I will prove people wrong

2. Met up with Glenda for quick lunch during one of the weekdays weeks back

3. Had my eyebrows trimmed at Hollywood Secrets

4. Met up with darling one for movie and manicure session

5. Had my french manicure done

6. Girls night out at phuture after months away from the clubs

7. Currently still under department training at work but ending soon..

8. Been sleeping at 11+ and not late hours in the night; which is a relief for my eyebags!

9. Got to know more people =D

I HATE THE HAZE! Its killing me sooner or later and i'm sensing that i'm falling sick anytime from now which i cant afford to get the bug. Been feeling cold recently at work and my throat is really dry. Thank god i'm having my weekend off and i'm gona have plenty of rest. No offense to indonesians but really whats in their brains. Don't they know the consequences and how selfish can they get not sparing a thought for anyone. Urgh. Thanks to them we get the misty effect of the terrible haze. Please rainy rain pour your droplets and shoo the evil haze away. You know what, i just shitted blood out and its L.S. instead of P.S. i wonder if people ever L.S. out blood and thats sick. Mind you, the blood isnt my grannies cause it had bid farewell. Don't know where it came from, maybe my organs having fever thus the blood - _ -"

Mummy got freaked out today by my eyebrows and i seriously think she hasnt been looking at me properly since i've been knocking off in the night and you know, people's eyesight couldnt be better than in the day. My eyebrows been trimmed for like weeks already and its still the same just that its neater; she's always freaking out because she doesnt like me to do anything to my eyebrow.

Oh yes, if you think girls cant cook you are so wrong because i'm a girl and I DO KNOW HOW TO COOK plus its edible. Its just that i cook whenever my mood feels like cooking. And nope i don't cook maggi mee. Family love my prawns =D

Caught Rob-B-Hood and the baby is soooo adorablely cuttteeee i tell you. I love babies. They are one cute little thing that will brighten your day. Seriously if i could i would love to pinch that baby's cheek! Overall a nice movie and worth catching it as its really funny cum lame.

Havent been heading the clubs for months and finally it was a girls night out at phuture with the 2 CK Ladies together with shiying, mao member and 2 of her friends. Was a great night out and it made me realised one thing, heading to the club isnt a thing anymore and the craziness we once had kinda died down; its so unlike the past. Met stewart, a colleague from other department and it wasnt till i met him that we actually chatted for the first time. It was indeed a small world and his face was kinda shock when he saw me outside zouk. *will upload the pics we took soon*

4 more days and its 1 month of working in the company and 7 more days before my pay day. I cannot wait for my pay to arrive because i'm really BROKE! Havent been taking money from parents thou mummy wanted to give me 1oo bucks to last me this month but i rejected as i'm already working. Anyway, its my last week of department training and i'm going on-job-training soon. I hope things will turn out smoothly and i'm gona miss my training days. Seriously, training is the best time ever so people if you are sent for training do treasure the days. Undergone training at the concierge, guest recognition, loss prevention, communications, reservations, lounge, fnb restaurants, housekeeping, guest relations, restaurant reservations, bell desk, opera training and i cannot recall already. A pity i've forgotten to take a pic of myself wearing the obasang uniform for i was way too tired for that 2 days. What can you expect from someone who seldom do the housework. I almost died during the 2 days of being obasang but still i did not gave up. You wouldnt imagine the amount of king sized beds i did and i tell you its heavy. Its fun and you get to see things that you don't get to see but i wouldnt want to be an obasang, its not my kind of thing. So please people, next time when you check into a hotel room please do not mess up the rooms because its not easy for the aunties; spare a thought for them okay (= *took some pictures with my colleagues, will upload them when i get it*

* learning of opera training // overview of the marina.. *

Facts of the Day :

Learning to let go of the past as each day pass and untie the knot that was held tightly within. Whatever had happen would be history and time could not be reversed to undo the regrets that wish it could be resolved.

' Delusions are only temporary to delude oneself in order to ease the pain..

Reality is what we have to face in life and the truths that one cannot hide '

Learning to accept the new chapters of life and everyday's a learning process for me. As each day pass, things might not be the same. People change, for the better or the worse and thinkings change. Perhaps what you see in me right now might not be the same months later. As usual, am learning to change for the better and learn new things. Two things for sure, i will not reveal much of my personal life and i will never be and will become a fake person. Define the meaning of the word before you start to comment.

*the rarely once in a blue moon pimple on her face*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY (in adv') =D

Turning 5o and aint getting any younger. Age is catching up and i hope you will always be healthy so that we can always be this close for many years and always have you by my side. My dd, the significant one that holds a great importance and place in my heart who i love dearly (=

Before i end off..

If anyone of you interested in working in the hotel industry,
or any of your friends have the passion to work in the hotel..
Kindly inform me and let me know; i'll fill you up with more info. (=
P.S : NO shabby attitudes please.. Thanks!

* It is the doings of one and people's mentality of what they want to be; it is the path that one has chosen, we can't stop the doings of reality or do anything about it.. Forgive and forget isnt an easy thing; its either forgive or forget or none at all, but time will tell and solve the mystery of it.. *

2006-10-05T21:27:00.000+08:00

* the unpredictables of life that caught you unexpectedly *

tears . worries . fear . clueless . crisis .
who says life is always smooth sailing ;
it isnt always whereby you get to enjoy the beauty of life..
you get hit by the unexpected when life gets better
life has always been blessed and i've never expected much
what would happen if what we fear occur, what would be in become of us ?
my pillar of everything that has a great importance in my heart
all i can do now is to pray and hope for the best that everything goes smoothly
i may always be smiling but nobody knows what laid beneath that smile.
not everything seems picture perfect; the deception of one can be misleading..
life isnt always the way we want it to be.. it isnt always perfect *sighs*

I've been busy with work; no time to update. Didnt want to update but i just feel like blurting out the feelings in me that isnt feeling good hence an entry. I teared because my heart aches so badly; its really painful. A crisis that nobody expects; everything in the mind thinks about 'what if' and 'what will happen'. The worries nobody would understand. And yeah, i aint being emo but something happened and it isnt something to talk about.

I will be back for a full entry when things get better / when i'm free.

2006-09-27T15:40:00.000+08:00

Whheee.. no work today for i'm off for two days and we are entitled to a 2 days off a week. Now how great is that; it doesnt matter if its not on a fixed weekend but c'mon which hotel actually has a 5days work. Was on a 2days orientation and gosh i almost fell asleep; its like back to school days. I was like trying damn hard to keep my eyes open and i think thou my eyes were open my brains were like sleeping. LOL! People there seemed to be much matured at age and very few at my age but i got to know new people. Oh yes, they brought us around the hotel and i got to view the rooms and i tell you its the best deal you can never get from the other hotels. The rooms have got magnificient views, flat screen tv, a breathtaking bathroom with the super huge bed that looks really comfortable. A pity i cant take pictures of the room. Wait till i've gotten my confirmation letter i will definately book a room one of the days. Got to dine at one of the restaurant called the 'GreenHouse' and the food is good.

Anyway, havent officially start work yet as i'm undergoing training for a month. Going to the various departments to get a better idea of how it runs. From front of the house to back of the house. Guess what? I'm going to the housekeeping department this weekend. Hohoho! Jaclyn's gona be a 'obasang' for 2 days. LOL! Imagine me having to help the aunties to clean the room. OMG! I think i will lose out to them because i don't do the housework at home; i probably bang my head and trust me my whole body will definately ache! Lucky its just 2 days of housekeeping but i guess it'll definately be fun. Told mummy about that and she got a shock. She was like saying how come i have to do housekeeping and whether i have to clean the room. Yeah i will take a picture of me wearing the uniform and let you have a moment of laughter that is if i remember =P I'm slowly adapting to the change of lifestyle thou its still hard for me to wake up at the wee early in the morning but right now i'm just kinda afraid that i might not turn up for work or turn up late because there are so many different timings and i havent gotten used to it; you know a blurshit like me can at times get things screwed up. Time will change everything and pretty soon life will be as normal as it is (=

Was suppose to meet adrian on friday but was cancelled at the last minute because i had a very bad sharp pain in my tummy. *Sorry ad; will definately catch up with you soon (=* Had an enjoyable evening on saturday with darling one and for a change we headed to junction 8 and slack cum movie for we're sick of heading town all the time. Saw michelle chia and her bf shawn chen; she's super haolian i tell you. Cannot stand her face thinking everyone would want her attention and she's a shortie. Hurhur.. Opps =X Wouldnt even notice her if her bf wasnt staring at the both of us; aint no idea whats his problem.

*crappy lame show*

Oh yeah, just finished watching 'Princess Hour'. Thanks to mummy's friend who lent me the dvd. Gosh, the actors and actresses are so adorablely cute and i tell you its freakingggg nice to watch; simply love their song. Very funny also that can make you laugh like crazy. Go watch it if you havent catch it and its showing on tv soon.. (=

Fact of the day:

Was given a paper that has afew questions which i have to write about myself. On it, it states what do you like to do for fun and entertainment. Guess what i put? Its not clubbing but watching movie. I'm not a cheater for i've got my own theory which is never reveal everything about yourself (=

*..and i guess not many has seen my hair so neat before` LOL!*

P.S -So what if Hady won the title of being a 'Singapore Idol', Jonathan Leong will be more successful than him; he will be a regional star and not Hady. Boo.

Now my entire entry is a hell lot of crap; don't even know what am i ranting about.. Blah!

2006-09-22T12:11:00.000+08:00

Oh yay! The weekends are here again; let ya hair down people and relax (= Simply love the weekends but its not long before i'm sacrificing it. Aiights. Pardon me but lazy me just gona type a random entry..

1. Met up with the CK family cum ad's belated birthday celebration. Seafood for dinner and fondue. Its definately a great meet up catching up with one another; boyy do i miss the good old days in school. The times whereby we had bits of sugar spice and simply everything. Thanks my dear cks for all the memories (= we shall have another meet up again soon. *hugs!

2. Had my hair cut and treatment done; wanted to cut it at shoulder length but decided not for i've to bun my hair and shucks my fringe is rather short and i wonder how am i gona make it look neat at work. Maybe i aint gona cut my hair anymore but keep it long..

3. Been dvding together with mummy for the past few days as i've no time for that when i'm working. Its like once you start a disc it would never stop and once i start dvd-ing everything will put to a halt. Oh my! Simply into korean dramas; its addictive.

4. Havent been going online or should i say using the desktop that often and no more photoshopping nor learning of it. Its all gone when that lappie died and it doesnt matter anymore. Wont be MSNing that much as well so it'll be hard to get me online now. And yeah my dear cks pardon for the delay of sending u the pics; my live messenger got deleted` will try to send by my yahoo mail.

5. SHOPPING THERAPY i love; bringing a smile on my face (= Bought my working heels, cosmetics, stockings, skirts and tops with a total damage of $26o. Thanks mummy for the shopping spree and to be exact my last spree with her because i'm getting my own pay. And yeah, she banned me from getting anymore tops because i'm always into black and she complained that my closet are mostly black and that she hates to see me wearing black. Haha! Gona get a new specs soon and ditch my current one so that i could wear to work and dd said he's gona sponsor me (= I'm hoping for next month to arrive so that i can finally get a new phone with my own pay..

6. My nose bled and its disgusting having to smell blood. The smell of it is blady bloody. Eeeks!

7. I saw FIREWORKS on tuesday night which marks the end of IMF. Simply love watching it, its B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L and it brings a smile to my face (= The city view from my windows were exceptionally bright that night. Our government is indeed rich, spending millions of money just for IMF. Imagine the poors struggling hard for money and the government spending such an amount for such event. No wonder they didnt allow people to protest.

8. Changing my lifestyle and aint gona be the way it was before. Cutting down on late nights and whatever. I'm going on a diet regime.

9. Its training at work for the whole month and time for me to be serious with work. I wonder if i can stop laming around which is kinda impossible and i hope i wont be a blurry ass. Blah!

1o. Meeting up with adrian for dinner today and darling one tomorrow.. (=

Thats about it for now.

*the CK family get together..*

*Fireworks and the city view*

P.S - If you havent heard from me for days or couldnt get me, its not that i'm missing; just busy =P

Take care PEEPS !

2006-09-13T16:30:00.000+08:00

Although this was suppose to be yesterday but still..

HAPPY 2oth BIRTHDAY ADRIAN !

Another year wiser and a year more before 21.

Loadsa Hugs and you will always be my great buddy (=

*celebrating a year back at kbox..*

GOSH! Finally i could use the desktop in peace. I wish my brother goes to school everyday *unfortunately not* and out with his love and friends. Its not that i don't want him at home but he is irritating me till i'm going nuts. I cant even use the computer properly; i freaking hell need to do my stupid report, which i havent even started and then he would just pester me non-stop trying different methods to make me give up so that he could use the computer - for MSN and DOTA! Argh. *i need a new lappie ASAP* Yes, i am going crazyyyy! One day i shall break his stupid dota CD into pieces and than hide behind dd. That way he wouldnt kill me cause he wouldnt dare. Hohoho! Of course i wont be a meanie and do such things unless it reaches beyond my limit. *Brother, disturb me more and you can say BYE to your CD*

Oh yeah, the visit to the dentist was fun thou i didnt get to clean my teeth because the dr tan said if i were to clean, my mouth wouldnt be wide open to pluck out my wisdom tooth. Anyway, it wasnt scary plucking it out; in fact it was fun. Gee, i am nuts. It isnt painful at all and that you dont even know that it is out. Unfortunately, my 2 roots of my wisdom broke due to being hooked and not straight therefore after plucking the tooth he had to dig and search for the 2 missing hooked roots and that was painful. I think i'm a noisy patient of his and made dr tan nervous for i kept asking him if its out yet. He asked me to relax cause it would make him kanchiong and cannot find the roots. Thankfully he managed to find it as he said if the roots couldnt be plucked out i have to go for surgery - _ - I am going back for another appointment; this time to clean my teeth.

*wisdom tooth no more*

Attended brother's drama play at his school's lectural hall. Was almost late because i took ages in the shower and lucky dd's a pro driver. I must say the 25bucks was worth every cents of it besides its for charity and the whole thing was good. Their drama play that was put up by his whole class was hilarious. Talented people they are, having to script out and direct many different scenes isnt an easy thing. Kudos to my brother who delievered his role well for he have never acted before. My handsome brother and am proud of him (=

I have finally gotten myself a job. Jaclyn shall say "Hello to workaholic life" and "Bye to tai-tai lifestyle". And yes hotelier that is and i aint gona elaborate much. I don't need any comments of what i have chosen, this is what i want; its my future that i'm looking at` not you so please respect mine. I know working in the hotel isnt easy and its gona be tough. Given that i'm a very pampered child but i believe i can survive my way through. If i could survive those 2 years in that place, i don't see why cant i manage now. Even though i didnt have a memorable working experience at that hotel *aint mentioning name* but i guess it isnt fair if i sterotype all the hotels to be that way given the experience i had. Every hotels have got its different environment and i decided to give it a try again. Over the time people's thinking do change; so does mine. I know what i want and have plans ahead of me. Every actions and decisions made have got its own reason and i don't see a point to explain just to solve the inquisity of ones mind. Never mind if i have to sacrifice my social life for i can adapt to changes. Its okay if my life is going to be tough because it will make my life easier the next time and i'd rather enjoy life in the later part. Its doesnt matter how much they are paying me because money isnt an issue; its the learning experience and exposure that i wana gain. Yes no doubt i can be weak at times but i will be strong and i will climb up that ladder given to me. Life is about learning and it never stop.

Oh yay! I cant wait for tomorrow; finally the CK family are gona gather together after months of not catching up and not only that its celebrating of adrian's birthday (= simply <3 everyone of them.

One more week to go before my life turns busy and not super slack. I better pray and hope i could complete my stupid report by the end of this year cause i doubt i will have the time. Pretty please my brains, please get the machines cracking and think of all the bullshits to crap my way through the damn thing..

Anyway might be heading to the saloon and get my hair cut again..

* thinking if she shld cut off her ponytail.. *

BYE Readers, i'll be back soon.

2006-09-04T18:46:00.000+08:00

before i begin my blabberings..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARAH DOTTIE !
Turning 20 & i hope you'll have a memorable birthday today !
Hugs and kisses with loadsa love.. Marmie lurrbbiiee yerr ~
[ ..here's something for you that i found in my computer ]

How time flies.. The snapshot of neoprint that was captured ages back;
those were the best memory and the happy moments (:
P.S- Meet up soon okiie & ur belated present awaits for you. Heh (=

Okay guess what? Apparently VIRUSES LOVES JACLYN. Like HOW GREAT is that? - _ - I have no clueless idea why do VIRUSES LOVES ATTACKING MY BLADY COMPUTER!!!!! ARGH! Can you imagine how pissed am i? FIRST it was my computer that NEARLY CRASHED and thank god my brother came back from HK in time to rescue it. NOW its that useless laptop that hell CRASHED last night. WONDERFUL! It must have been sick of living that it wants to go to glory. Dumb shit. Shouldnt have been so loyal to that stupid laptop; should have told my brother to sell it and get me a new one but i rejected his offer cause i said i could live with that damn laptop but hell it betrayed me instead. I've absolutely no idea how it happened cause i swear i have not been downloading any stuffs or anything that allowed virus to eat up the system. Gawd and now i'm left with no laptop and i could only use the desktop when my brother aint at home. How pathetic can i get. Screw those pea-brained air heads who created viruses! URGH - _ - Thank god i havent started on my 15,ooo words report on that damn laptop otherwise i'll just jump down or bang my head on the wall BUT i lost all my stuffs stored in it. Shucks.

I'm going to the dentist tomorrow. Gona clean my teeth and check on my wisdom tooth to see if it needs to be pluck out for its irritating me a hell lot. I wonder how is it like to pluck out a teeth *if i'm required to get rid of that wisdom* aint no idea if its gona hurt for i've never plucked any of my teeth even thou i wore braces before. Lucky me but not so lucky afterall for i've got 4 wisdom tooth. Blah..

Oh yes, i met up with the 2 CK Ladies on friday and we headed to Kovan for dinner. My first meal of the day to be precise. Cannot recall the shop name but their fondue was good. Love their chocolate, its yummy! *fyi -its my first time having fondue` LOL! dont laugh okay* Their pasta aint that good but its filling and as usual i couldnt finish it. Headed to Phuture after our dinner and it was fun. Simply love rnb. Met up with wcheng and saw mr TPY, kenny and edwin. Homed at 3+ *thanks amelia for the ride *hugs!* P.S -i DID NOT consume any alcohol but only a fruit punch MR *. Hohoho. =D

Didnt head out during the weekends and i'm sorry junior i totally forgot about our dates on Saturday =X Been dvd-ing a HK drama, 'The Gateau Affairs' *with courtesy by Glenda* and completed the 20disc in 2 days. Freaking nice i tell you whereby its hell addictive that you cant stop. I wana watch 'Princess Hours' and 'Save the Last Dance' anyone has the dvd to lend (=

Shall update IF that damn laptop could be revived from its death or when i've the chance to use the desktop; that is when my brother aint around..

CIAOS!

X-X-X-X-X-X-X-X-X-X-X-X-X-X-X

W E E K S B A C K . . .

it was COFFEE SESSION with the girls !

Now its the month of S E P T E M B E R . . .
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to the SEPT' BABIES ( :

( whats next i wonder )

2006-08-31T22:29:00.000+08:00

*all she needs is a light to shine upon her*

Gosh.. I'm finally done with the revamping of my blog layout. Took 5 hours to reformat it and it isnt any better using the stupid laptop cause its hell lagged. I guess this is it and i aint gona reformat it till i get sick of it.

I think my S-T-M is getting into me; couldnt recall whatever shits that i've done. Oh boy, whatever. Haha. Anyway, i went for my interview at the Ritz Carlton and as for now everything is going smoothly and i'm happy but i cant confirm anything yet for i've to go for another round of interview tomorrow. Shall see how it goes (= *aint disclosing much for now* And yeah, speaking of interviews, if you think Ritz Carlton is like any other hotels than you are wrong because they are really selective and putting you through 5-6 interviews before you get approved as their employee. *it drained my energy* As for me, i'm almost there. Imagine having to wake up at 745am(to prepare & makeup), heading to the hotel at 945am starting off with the first interview till the fourth and finally the whole thing ended at 545pm? *being grilled by never ending questions* I spent like 8 hours in the hotel just having to go through 4 interviews? Its like working hours and its much tiring than working. Anyway people at Ritz Carlton are a friendly bunch, they make you feel comfortable and at ease and i was interviewed by their HR Manager, Club Manager, Front Office Manager and the Director of Front Office. Shall update again after my interview with the Director of Sales tomorrow and i hope the 5th would be the last and no more 6th.

Received a phone call from another organization yesterday which i went for my interview for Sales and Marketing 3 weeks back. That freaking company irks me off and seriously its a waste of time to entertain such pee-brained a*sholes. After that interview, it made me realise what b*tches they are. I cant reveal the company but its a governing hotel that manages their own hotels overseas. Anyway, they called to check if i were still available or have i gotten a job. Seriously, even if i've got no job i WILL NOT BOTHER working for you; besides i'm not hard up for money. I've my every reason to be piss with them and you know i don't get pissed easily with companies i barely even know a thing about. Its their loss for not appreciating. Don't over estimate; thinking you are high and mighty b*tch. Like whats with that doubt on your fucking pea brain mind? Don't fucking doubt on me. I can do wonders when i put my mind to it. Yes i am capable; arrogant it sounds but this is me, i have got my own attitude. Lastly, those bitches should take a look of who they are messing with. Yes maybe i've got that "eat-me-up" look but seriously i aint what you see me as. For now its me rejecting you bitches and fuck the hell off. Told daddy about it over the phone today and he told me to ignore them.

Daddy is now in U.S. for his oversea trip again since last Saturday and i'm missing him loaddds; poor him, travelling from one point to another and me always to have him being worried for me but i'm glad that he's coming back this Sunday *oh yay!* (= Currently, i have been sending my brother to school and mummy to work. Seriously, i HATE driving on rainy days. Especially when the rain is freaking bad whereby you hardly could see a thing on the road but depending on the headlights of the car =/ Anyway, had a really bad and panicky situation yesterday. Was raining heavily and it horrible. Bad traffics everywhere with poor visons on the road and causing traffic lights not working at all. Was nearby Tanglin where i was at this junction, the stupid traffic light was a goner and i had to turn into the major junction. Its real bad cause the cars just kept moving and so i've to TRY my luck. Thank god brother was with me cause at that time i was already hell PANICK. He was panick as well. Of course, we managed to pass through and stopping at the middle of the junction which was a dangerous thing to do so. Thankfully nothing happen and we managed to get through it. I am so not gona drive when its raining heavily. Told daddy about it over the phone *yes again. i've plenty to talk to dd as i haven seen him for 5days* and he said to be careful and not drive when such things happen again. Oh dear, i made him worried again.

Caught a movie over the weekend with Glenda, Mr PowerE. and his friends. 'Snake on the plane' and its a last minute changed movie as we were suppose to catch either 'Love Wreck' or 'Ghost Game' cause i wouldnt have watched the movie as i'm hell terrified of SNAKES. LOL! *thanks mr p.e. for the movie treat* Gosh.. To me its like a thriller cum horror movie and i was scared out of the wits watching the middle part. Didnt even dare to look and thankfully Glen wasnt wearing her jacket cause i used it to cover my eyes during the horrified scenes. *Sorry sweets, if i had scared you` LOL* Its disgusting how those snakes kill and attack those poor passengers on board the plane. Ewws, its SICK! Anyway aint my cuppa tea as mentioned, i'm TERRIFIED OF SNAKES. Thankfully i've Mr Woof to message and also kind of him to chat with me over the phone in the night as my mind kept flashing those snakes. Gosh! So people next time if you wana ask me for movies, NO SNAKES or SPIDERS or any CREEPY CRAWLER; it'll just freak me out.

i can't wait for tomorrow. phuture that is with the 2 CK Ladies (= Of course, i will not forget the pact i made. Hurhur, trust me i'm GONA WIN; by hook or by crrookk` *September 11 - i'm waiting!* Lalala..

Will be back to update again.. as for now its time to head to my twinkle dreams and getting through the last hurdle tomorrow. Nytes all ! (=

*the drainous look of her after her interviews..*

2006-08-21T03:10:00.000+08:00

*needing a miracle to shine upon & change everything about this reality i'm living on*

from now till next week, i'm waiting for ritz carlton..

i realised i've been pigging; pigging in the sense of having hours of naps. no wonder i feel so energised in the night and when i dont nap i become zombified, which explains why my sleeping time has been so screwed. i should terminate the pig in me; its bad and i cannot afford ~~to worsen~~ my eye bag -its terrible. i realised that once you've hit adulthood it isnt a good thing at times for you get tired easily which means you're definately aging. boy, couldnt imagine what would i be like when i hit my 4os *gasps*

its healthy living this week; i've been practically going for swims and hitting the gym. sweat it all out and it feels hell good. its a change of lifestyle that one will never believe. of course, not forgetting; catching up with people i will cherish in life and the friendship that makes your life go brighter.

yesterday's slacking was simply enjoyable. met up with the two ck ladies; amelia and glenda as well as rebecca at cine in the night. headed to coffee club, chatted and slacked till 2. was freaking tired by then, maybe its due to the gym workout *dd made me workout so many thing* and had to grab a mint to keep myself awake while driving. anyway you know what, cine's basement 1 toilet is hell sucky; i seriously hate going there *totally freaks me out*. its always in darkness at night and i dont understand why dont they just on the blady light knowing the fact that people do frequent it. imagine having to pee in the dark is already bad enough and then now that its in the you-know-what-month, it gives you the goosebumps. thank god i've got the girls to accompany me in there. i know its dumb but i do ~~chicken out~~ in total darkness whenever i'm in public places.

i wonder how long have i been this happy cause it hasnt been long enough that i've been hit by the ~~emo~~ bug again. i aint telling what happen but it made me really unhappy about certain things and having to have all the frustrations and disappointments within, its seriously too much to handle that i couldnt take it ~~but to break down~~. i do know that i've got friends who're concern and that i could pour out whatever thats troubling. easy to say but hard for me to do so; i'd rather suffer in silence. seriously if i could, i would learn to hate myself; for everything. i know what i'm saying is ridiculous but it made me realised i've been nothing but some ~~invaluable~~ shit thats no where near perfect. i aint saying i'm perfect cause i've always known i'm imperfect. people try their best to be at least near perfect, but for me where do i stand. i wonder if i do actually know the soul living in me right now. i can't even make things right. i know i'm not the lousiest but i'm bad enough to be one; for having all the bad flaws within. i really wonder, why would anyone waste their time or energy on me when i myself do not know myself well enough; don't try adoring me. i don't understand the fact of why do people always perceive or sterotype one by their appearance or judge them by the way they are without understanding what they are like. perception isnt about everything; it misleads and for that people usually often believe what they perceive rather than to try and understand the other party. i hate it when people does that to me; it isnt fair on me - i'm more then what you perceive me to be. don't people get the chance for others to at least understand them? its god given that grown me into this way and i cant change anything about it; ~~can i~~? life is pathetic at times(and for now).

*if you happen to chance upon that previous entry which i've just deleted, pls pardon me for my brains are screwed when i'm pissed*

till then, i'll update again..

-her trying to be strong; will you catch her when she fall..

2006-08-16T16:46:00.000+08:00

was surfing the net one day and chanced upon this on yahoo ;
if you could have guessed, any slightest resemblance that came across your mind?

i'd say this guy resembles like Mr Chuen Wei. LOL! =X

reminiscing back to the past; feeling like a little girl now cause dd blow-dry my hair using the hair dryer. its like i've got this habit of not drying my hair cause i'm never into using hair dryer for it spoils your hair condition and secondly, i'm plain lazy to towel dry it. having to wash my hair in the late nights and at times couldnt wait for it to dry for i was way tired, am always heading to dreamland therefore i was caught by my daddy thus he came drying my hair for me (= it may sound dumb but think about it, when was the last time you received such wonderful treatment having your parents to dry your hair after you reach the age of a TWO. such moments only occurred during your childhood =P

so back to my life. whatelse can you expect when one has been having her tai-tai lifestyle for almost 2 months? and i say thats enough. interviews that is and please not let me have the jitters. i wana WORK! and so i hope everything goes smoothly (= aint gona disclose anything yet so don't bother asking for i'm keeping my mouth shut =X

have been going out lately and of course, money flying like crazy. went on a shopping spree and bought many things with a damage of 1oo+. luckily half of it was recovered thanks to daddy who gave me money (= now you know why i love him uber much and that he dotes on me like nobodies business which explains why i lead a pamered life. dearest brother has fractured his left hand and it swelled as huge as a pig's leg. brought him to a&e and casted his hand. poor him being a handicapped for now. i hope he doesnt abuse his handicap and irritate me more often than he does cause i'll just slap it hard. *just kidding* haha.

my super ex girlfriend was hilarious stupid. freaking lame i tell you, hell shitty cum crappy. if you've watched it you'll get what i meant. if not, no harm catching it if you've lost your laughing bug and in search of it. haha. and you know what, the cinema i was in had this guy and i've no idea whats his problem cause he's such a lagger. its like when everyone stopped laughing, he would then start his laughter and then it made everyone in the cinema laughed again due to his laggy laughter. its stupid. overall a rating of outta 5. anyway, i aint gona park at the open carpark opposite cine from now on *provided there aint no birds*. gawd. the birds there are irritating and they gave my car fugly white dots everywhere. thanks birdies, but i don't need a polka dot car =/ wanted to wash the car before i head home but it was wee late and most of the kiosk i went had their car wash closed, leaving with no choice but to head home. lucky dd didnt nagged and poor him having a hard time washing the car making it sparkling clean.

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* CWei; i cannot confirm with you yet, give you answer two weeks later and your cookies i put on hold first. busy la no time to bake and buy ingredients. LOL! P.S -don't be too gleeful yet =D

* Dearest CKs; work is definately not easy and its tough but endure okay. i'll try to find voodoo dolls for you then you can beat whoever you guys detest at work. LOL! *just kidding* meet up soon and misses i have for all of you. haha! Get well soon, ame (=

* Junior; i will tell you when i'm free. Heh. meet up soon for coffee. *hugs!

* Ling; it was sure double-fun spending time with you. love yerr zillions man. *muackks!

*having her ard is like spotting a rainbow; couldnt imagine how dull it would be, without her (=*

aiights. am out for a swim @parents club. shall update again! take care peeps (=

2006-08-11T01:17:00.000+08:00

i wonder if singapore's gona have its own typhoon. being a light sleeper, i have been waking up in the night recently by the gushing sound of the wind, banging out loud on my windows and it doesnt help staying on the 36th floor - its worse. couldnt get back to sleep whenever such things occur for it sure do terrify the wits outta me. its either having to hide under the blanket or landing up sleeping in my parents room and i did both for the past 2 nights. i must admit i'm just terrified when it comes to such minor things like having such situation occuring or the sound of thunder as i'll freak out. it didnt occur to me till now that what if i were to return home at very wee hour and such things happen. i think i'll panick like crazy.

i'm down with a swollen eye. not the entire eye but the corner of my right eye. it hurts like crazy and its a torture to blink my eye. have been dropping my eye drops like crazy and i've to wear my specs for now. i realized i've been nothing but trouble making my parents worried. first it was my rash and now my eye. whats next i wonder and no i don't want anymore things to occur. no more next. full stop

i made a pact with somebody and believe me i'm so gona make it happen cause i've faith in myself (= lalala. i know its still early to say but hoho am i gona expect a treat pretty soon? i cant wait for Sept 11 cause the deal will be expired and "nice date" right` its just so coincidental. LOL! =X

- mr n*** says her eyes resemble like a cat =/

2006-08-07T16:53:00.000+08:00

puzzled with the behaviours of human and their doings; define life

due to the amount of pics on hand, its just crazy to do anything about it which explains why i aint updating. anyway i've started on my job hunting. *anyone has a job to intro?* and i've a feeling i might just ~~end up studying again~~. i wonder why do we pay so much for that stupid damn diploma yet doesnt come handy when applying of what we want to do. why call it 'diploma in tourism' when the tourism itself doesnt need a ~~diploma~~ but a degree? sometimes i really wonder why doesnt the government school gives the locals some priviledges but to set their target freaking high, leaving ppl like me with no choice but to enter a damn private sch and then let foreigners bombard the schools like nobodies business? and what do private schools do? they don't do anything but gobble up your money and once they are satisfied, they leave you alone to fight for your own survival not bothering whether you are still alive. life can be ridiculous at times. P.S -i aint uttering any craps this time for it does make sense and i wont make you believe what i think or believe cause every individuals have got their own point of view and mindset (=

back to the topic. about my gettaway trip; i had fun together with my family (= ultra quality time spent together; loving every minutes of it. Ending the curiousity of one's mind, my gettaway trip was headed to Koh Samui, an island in Thailand and its simply B e a u t i f u l ! Aint like Bangkok where you do crazy shopping like nobody's business. Koh Samui isnt really a place for shopping freaks cause there're minimal shopping and its hard to find pretty stuffs; a place for beach lovers if you love suntanning and beach stuffs.

Practically everyday was spent at the beach and the pool; not forgetting sightseeing too. Did snorkelling as well and its definately fun; swimming with the fishes and sights of pretty corals (= One thing you've guessed it right, i cant leave without my sunblock lotion unfortunately i forgot to apply it while snorkelling and taadaa i got hell TANNED ~~and aint as freaking fair~~, not forgetting the reddish SUNBURN i had = hell pain. I gotta admit one thing, thou i hate going under the sun and aint a beach person but their white sand and crystal clear water makes one totally in love with it (= The ah guas there are terrible; one word, ugly = CMI. LOL! and its hard to find a place thats air-conditioned and i've no idea why. Everywhere you go are caucasians and maybe thats the reason; angmohs love humid.

Anyway thou i love the place but there are several things i ~~dread~~ :
1. their weather's a total killer, freaking humid and its worse then singapore; perspiring non-stop.

2. Plenty of houseflies and mosquitoes; my legs were being attacked by those blood suckers! =/ *shouldnt have worn short pants*

3. Buying of stuffs is insane cause u really have to bargain like hell as prices are raised freaking high and sometimes you get tired of bargaining cause people there can be stubborn. There are pros and cons actually. Its like my brother wanted a singlet but the price aint worth it and so he bargained politely. The lady wasnt agreeable on the price and showed attitude by walking away to where she was seated, in a way of hinting "either u buy it with the price given or forget it" and i wonder how is she gona survive with the way she behave cause there aint no other customers in her shop? hmm. On the other hand, i helped my brother bargained like crazy at another shop for like hell 5mins and the guy gave in. LOL! *for now, i hate bargaining; its tiring*

*pardon me for da pic; its messy and i did my best already` heh*

Enough rantings about my gettaway trip` i remembered i was pissed before i depart; due to terrible service at the airport.

Was at this shop, awaiting to make payment as there was this foreigner in front of me. The cashier, greeted him and smiled. Returning the change politely to him and saying thank you. When it comes to my turn, she gave me a couldnt be bothered sucky attitude, didnt smile and worse, threw my change on the counter table even when i reached out my hand awaiting to take the change; didnt even have the basic courtesy to say thank you and she just walked off from the cashier for there aint anyone behind me. Its like what the hack; i'm your customer and i provide your sales as well, don't you think you should deliver the same service to all your customers? Besides i didnt stare at you or whatsoever but smiled. Fc*ked up woman being rude to me. Of course, i wouldnt let it off just like that. I purposely say it out loud to mama, "freak la that woman, come and throw my change at me then treat that foreigner so good; don't know what is service issit" i really did that *for that idiotic woman to hear*. she had that nonchalent look while her colleague looked at me; i stared at her and left. *i hate it when people deliver bad service to me and treat foreigners as if they are some sorts of gem` urgh*

Isnt it a pity that singapore's so well developed yet it sucks when service aint delivered properly? Its like do we singaporeans here deserve to be treated differently from the foreigners by our own locals? Its like we are given a second treatment while foreigners are being treated hell nice. Excuse me, aint you a local as well? I'm sure you wouldnt want to be treated this way. Doesnt mean foreigners visit singapore they have higher spending power thus you can treat the locals differently because singaporeans do have the ability to spend too. People entertain you if you have the ability and they ignore you when you aint of use to them. Isnt it true? Like how some sales people gives you attitude when you don't intend to purchase any stuffs or smile continuously like some dummy when you help to increase their sale? Perhaps studying and being in the service industry makes one perceive differently from others. True, there aint no perfections in service; sometimes there might be few terrible customers you wish to slaughter but still service delivered have to be of same levels and not show sides. Get what i mean? and i guess service delivery provided in singapore is terrible; face it.

I finally went to the skin clinic to check on my rash as it got worse weeks back making me irritated. Making my chin and surrounding of my lips hell itchy with the skin peeling leaving blady pinkish red. Its ugly to be precise. Thanks to the medicine that works like a miracle, its finally gone. How can it not be a miracle when it cost a damage of 75bucks. Its crazy and the doctor i visited was really weird. aint no idea how to explain but he's definately not the kind of doctor you chance upon. Anyway, he doesnt look at you when he ask for descriptions and then he only looked at my rash for a mere of 3 sec? then he asked if i had any asthma or whatsoever; like hey what has it got to do with my rash? The funny thing; he kept sticking to what he conclude that it was something i applied on my lips that caused the rash but what has it got to do with that when i've no rash outbreak on my lips?

[the conversation i had with the doctor]
`Doc :: did you put any medicine on your rash?
-Me :: yea i applied chinese cream
`Doc :: what chinese cream - from doctor or medical hall
-Me :: urh duno its from china
`Doc :: don't anyhow put i give you medicine might not know whats in that cream
`Doc :: did you put anything on your lips?
-Me :: i use lip gloss and sometimes lip balm cause lip peel.
`Doc :: why do you have to use lip gloss..
* at that moment i went H U H with a HUGE Q.Mark ? flying above my head *
-Me :: cause i had to do service during my studies and whenever i go out
`Doc :: what service?
-Me :: for my f n b service
(and then.. he asked me the same question again)
`Doc :: why do you need to use lip gloss
* i was like huh urhhh urm; lucky mama was with me & i eye signal for her for help *
//Mama to the rescue :: to make her look pleasant
...doctor kept quiet.

Isnt it weird having a doctor to question you such question and i wonder if he did ask his wife why does she needs to put lipstick. Haha! Anyway he concluded off that i had lip enzymia - _ - oh whatever. my rash has healed and i hope it'll never appear back again.

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Blessed with STM, i cant exactly remember what i did so i'll just try to recall (=

#21o7o6'Friday - mummy's birthday ; passed mummy her present at 1am so she could use it to work on her birthday (= tidied the entire house before heading to the club in the evening for a swim. brother picked gf up and we had dinner at the club in celebrating mummy's birthday; a pity dd's not back from his trip. went home and cut mummy's cake before heading out again.

met up with the 2 ck ladies; amelia and glenda at zouk. Joining us later was meijuan, my primary school mate and the 2 ck ladies working partner. *a small world it is* as usual, phuture was boring and rnb started playing at 2. Gotten into a dramatic scene with this stupid girl whom provoked amelia and i. Freaking pissed us off; pretty face she is but ugliness shown with a venom mouth and hands. *thanks sweet for dropping me (=* homed at 33o //

#24'27o7o6 - Thailand gettaway

#29o7o6'Saturday - met up with darling one in the evening. took the car and drove to town later on; dropping darling one as well as she's meeting her friends. was suppose to meet glenda in town at 945 and lucky cwei was already there for i was HELL LATE meeting them at almost 11. *sorry for being so late :X* dinner was settled at NYDC before heading to cine for our midnight movie, 'Dragon Tiger Gate'

the charming actors that dorned ugly hair, the seh in them and not forgetting the muscles thats hell attractive in making u say, 'gawd the muscles damn power' LOL! overall a rating of 3.9/5 and you wouldnt regret watching it. if you havent catch it, no harm watching it. went to chill at alley bar. had strawberry margarita but i still prefer my mango (= chilled to almost 33o and sent cwei home//

#3oo7o6'Sunday - as always, sundays my family day and i was suppose to wake up early in the morning to follow dd to his golf club to swim but i couldnt wake up till 2. was nagged by mummy when i woke up as she said i was terrible to wake up so late. *tired la mummy* LOL! aint no idea whats with my mind again, started my cleaning mood - this time its my room and not the toilet. spent the blady whole afternoon dusting, wiping and vacuuming it leaving no room for dust to occupy. leaving me all satisfied and happy; you wouldnt have guessed when was the last time i cleaned my room - it was during CNY so you could guess the amount of dust i wiped out even thou my room's always neat and tidy with the exception of my study table. LOL! //

#o1o8o6'Tuesday - dd has been wanting to catch the 'Pirates of the Carribean' and we finally watched it together with brother at bishan's GV.

the thought of it brings a smile to my face for its really been years since we last caught a movie together (= aint really my cuppa tea but still i watched it to acc dd. it wasnt that bad but the ending was stupid and there aint no meaning to it therefore a rating of 3/5. followed dd to his gym in the night to sweat it out and i simply love the threadmill. its the best equipment to have when ur feeling emo cause it helps to drain off ur thoughts and emotions; a pity i haben been in the emo mood. the feeling of hitting the gym is simply great; makes you feel fresh and energetic, turning my face freaking reddish and i love the sight of it. i think i'm nuts. but it doesnt mean i love the sight of me turning red when i had an overdose of alcohol cause thats ugly. LOL! //

#o2o8o6'Wednesday - met up with glenda in the evening at bishan; walked around and had duck rice for dinner at the kopi shop *thanks sweets for the yummerty yums chocoty marsherriimellooww (=*

#o3o8o6'Thursday - monthly issue sucks especially when its the first day whereby yerr tummy hurts like crazy and thank god i wasnt out yet. i wonder why don't guys have it too and its sickening when they starts being gleeful about it, especially the cramps. if i could i would smear 'strawberry jam' on their face. LOL! okay thats gross. met up with lorraine at her friend's studio and thanks dd for sending me. the whole session was really fun *thanks lorraine & benjamin* (= will upload the pictures when i receive it //

#o4o8o6'Friday - met up with ying at town before heading to zouk in meeting glenda. *sorry ying for being late*

saw mark and the crowd was like shit *aint gona discriminate any race here* people being rough and pushing you not bothering the fact whether your a girl or not. of course, don't try me cause i elbow. LOL! was indeed fun with the 2 girls around and rnb simply rocks. a pity i wore the wrong shoe and my feet was killing me; couldnt walk properly after that. *thanks mr power and sweets* homed at 43o and i seriously need a feet massage badly. *sorry silly for not turning up; if i could, i will be there but i'm just too tired* //

#o5o8o6'Saturday - slept almost the whole day. went to dd's gym again to sweat it out; am beginning to love every session of it (= tummy hurts again and stupid monthly issues aint any lesser. i saw fireworks from my living room and its lovely. simply love fireworks; it just makes everything to a stop and brings a smile to my face. gotten really pissed with brother with his irritant act that i couldnt take it anymore and blasted at him` LOL! one thing for sure, don't try provoking or irritating me cause it'll be double the trouble. period. //

#o6o8o6'Sunday - went to mandai cremetorium to pay respect to my grandma as its the 1ooth day since she passed away. really do miss her still and i hope she's leading a better life. grocery shopped with parents and bought a new oven. headed over to my aunt's place to do prayer for my grandma together with mummy and the rest of my aunts//

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* CWEI ; i will not forget your cookies as promised but you must not hurry me. haha! and can you not be so naggy? will frighten the girls away la, mr good househusband-in-the-future and not-a-monk to be. LOL! can you like let me off and not nag at me for once when you see me the next time? i know u missed nagging at me non-stop during school days but for exactly how long then we finally meet up? oh yes, you can reformat ur com cause i'll be sending u more emoticons! =X [ P.S -pls believe in the 2oo6 resolution. LOL! ]

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J U S T - S O - R A N D O M !
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` wana catch this ; CLICK, ANT-BULLY

` got addicted to ; oat milk

` no more beaches, aint going under the sun ; it kills my skin cells. LOL!

*freaking sunburn that hurts like crazy*

` i never knew guys would ever bother to pose for a pic till i found this; LOL!

*her d*ckass brother and his love with his i-duno-wad-pose-is-that*

H a p p y B i r t h d a y Apple dottie and to all August Babies out there.
..and before i forget; Happy National Day everyone ! [in advance] (=

2006-07-19T01:38:00.000+08:00

i'm in a happy mood today. aint no idea why` maybe i've been spending loads of time with my parents or perhaps its due to the shopping therapy i had with mummy yesterday. bought some facial products and masks (= thou my face is spotless but that doesnt mean i don't have to bother taking care of it. thanks to mummy who helped me pay my damage otherwise i would be hell broke as i aint working yet. surviving on my allowance alone just aint enough and yes i'm sending out my resume already. aint telling which companies and i've already sort out my plans` shall see how it goes (= if things doesnt go according to plan i'll just have to further my studies at the university(which i hope not). my rashes is back again and its really freaking bad; hell red and freaking itchy. havent really healed and i hope its not enzymia. time to head to the doctor and heed for some advice especially when it involves my face.

the whole house was especially quiet today and i aint used to it. brother had gone to Cambodia on a backpacking trip while dd has left to U.S for his oversea job trip again and mummy was off to work. ~~hell bored~~ leaving me with little goldie and yea guess what i did today? for the first time ever; believe it anot, i washed my own ~~toilet~~. spending an hour or so in that small bathroom scrubbing ~~like hell~~; i must have gone nuts ~~and its freaking tiring~~. the outcome was sparkling clean, am so proud of myself and for that i shall upgrade myself from the ~~'pampered shit'~~ to the 'director of cleanliness'. LOL! okay i'm uttering rubbish again. seriously i don't do the housework; if i could i wouldnt want to do it but to employ a maid. however no matter what every girls have to learn the basic in order to survive. anyway if i really do own a wand i would wringle it wishing for all women out there not to do the household chores but leave it to the men (=

am going on a short gettaway trip with my family next week (= the moments to enjoy myself before i end my tai-tai lifestyle. haha. i guess i better pray for safety before the trip because i wouldnt want to encounter a big experience with the big wave. speaking of tai-tai lifestyle, was at the travel agency and i saw this 5D4N itinery located somewhere in thailand. a detox SPA vacation costing 2ooo bucks for just 1 person. mummy said she might go with dd during their anniversary. wonder if they would include me along as well. LOL! *just kidding* its helll expensive but if i have the money i will definately go on that trip to experience what it is like to actually be a tai-tai and enjoy life. haha. oh yea while at the travel agency i was being reminded of the abacus course for they had to print out that slip of paper. wouldnt want to be reminded of it cause it gives me hell headache //

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#11o7'Tuesday - met up with Cheryl at town. *sorry to have made you wait* headed to some cafe at taka for lunch. did loads of catching up and she passed me my belated present. *thanks girl i love the presents* time flies and many things happened. she's what you call the 'informant' to every gossips. LOL! how interesting (= been ages since i last saw her and i'm just so glad whenever i catch up with her again. amazingly after 11 years our friendship never once changed (= am really happy to have her around but sadly she's going overseas for further studies soon. later on met up with the 2 amelia and glenda, at hollywood secrets. they were doing their nails for the wedding. as usual tuesdays are a never fail visit to our yummy waffles (= great time spent with them and homed at 9 //

#13o7'Thursday - rebecca's wedding; thanks to dd who came back in time passing me the car. drove down to goodwood park hotel to attend rebecca's wedding dinner. *congrats rebecca; a lovely blissful happiness starts ahead* glenda, amelia, kenneth, wcheng, shihui, derline, deeg, dawn, keith and chee ho were there.

lovely wedding with a pretty bride and groom (= her porfolio of wedding photos was indeed beautiful that portray the petite rebecca. dinner was too much to handle as i was freaking full. left around 113o and headed over to coffee club opposite cineleisure. *sorry dian mei for not making it to M.O.S* met up with my two dear 'brothers' and mr small eyes. chatted and slacked with them. had strawberry smoothie & its yummy. chatted and slacked with them; havent seen them for months and am glad to do some catching up (= homed at 315 and was freaking exhausted cum sleepy yet couldnt sleep till 5 - _ - //

#16-07'Sunday - *family day* didnt send brother to the airport as he left wee hours in the morning. woken up by mummy at 7 and followed my parents to dd's golf club. finally after ages i'm back to swim again (= swam for two hours and felt so refresh. the feeling's just great. was rather bored and should have brought a book as i had to wait for 3 hours for dd to finish his game and so i fell deep asleep on the sofa. had dim sum for lunch and was yummy (= went grocery shopping; had a bad headache and almost fainted. its like an immediate effect for i went to sniff packets of moth balls as i wanted to check out which ones smell nicer to put inside my cupboard. didnt know that its not suppose to be sniff as its hell poisonous //

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R A N D O M - S N A P S !

FACT of the day: do you know that the distance between Novena and Toa Payoh aint far;
you could actually walk from destination A(NVA) to B(TPY) or B(TPY) to A(NVA)
* train distance approximately 3 mins while walking distance approximately 25 mins

Matter of the FACT - i actually accompanied my mum to walk from novena church to my door step. amazing isnt it (= i just did a lame-o-thing and my legs are my transportation. *so proud of it* LOL!

// E N D I N G O F F ;

-happy of who she is; nothing more she could ask for (=

* i'll be back to update after my holiday (= ; take care peeps !

2006-07-09T21:33:00.000+08:00

the bug that took charge of her system; making it a second home

WORLD CUP FINALS; FRANCE - ITALY

[ who do you think will win *i'm betting on france*]

//if you are hoping for ~~loads of~~ snappies in this entry; ~~sorry~~ you'll be disappointed

firstly, happy birthday to my dearest brother. turning 24 and no longer the young boy` please stop being a d*ck and be so crazy, irritating me all day long *hope you'll like the presents i bought for u (:*

aiightts. back to where i shall begin. been leading a tai-tai life recently but aint that lucky as i've been hit by the bug; being sick for a week is really irritating and i couldnt go out. blessing me with tummy flu, terrible migrane, giddiness, bad cough with hoads of phlegm and sore throat. brother thought i've been having too much nightlife that leads to being sick but i've been staying at home since he went for reservist. trust him to assume - _ -" havent been eating well lately or rather seemed to have lose my appetite. aint no idea why. the best thing; no doctors but self-recovery` heh. *i hate docs & medicine* and yea thou sick with the bug i'm still hitting the clubs` anyway my brains were never sane when i was a baby..

its coming to a month and i'm gona job hunt pretty soon otherwise i'll probably go nuts. maybe i love to torture myself by working. LOL! tai-tai lifestyle is indeed comfortable but i simply cant stand slacking and doing nothing. furthermore i need extra money for additional spending (: might take up a third language but still deciding on what to learn and yes give me time and i'll buck up on my chinese. *everyday is a learning process* i don't just want to remain as a potato; at least potato mix with rice` why rice cause chinese eats rice. haha. crapps.

had a dream recently; didnt know if its a good or bad one - couldnt sort it out what was it about and the next thing i knew i woke up with my eyes damp; this time i wasnt sleep talking - i teared. was i crying in my dreams where it became real? i couldnt recall crying and why was i crying? aint no idea whats happening; something that i wanted to know whats it about yet couldnt figure out.. sucky//

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#o1o7'Saturday - Glenda's 21st; thanks to dearest brother for sending me to her place in the evening. CK ladies, sarah dottie, rebecca, fad, hafiz, eli, danny, vivien, martin were there and later on adrian came. saw familiar faces but couldnt recalll their names *STM; couldnt blame* had fun and we played ping pong till we perspired and the soccer game(whatever it is) as well as ktv-ed. didnt watch the world cup 'portugal vs england' match till at the vv end whereby they had the penalty kick. how interesting. haha. dearest brother came to fetch me at 23o and sent curtis home as well as cheryl. was freaking hell tired by then; perhaps i havent been sleeping early but till 6am recently. wanted to catch the brazil match but cant as i suddenly felt sick; felt like puking and with sharp pain in my tummy//

#o2o7'Sunday - *family day* parents brought us to jumbo restaurant at dd's golf club for seafood together with cheryl. been months since i ate those stuff due to being vegetarian and having to eat that was rather weird. had prawns, kang kong, scallops, pepper and chilli crabs as well as man tou. didnt eat much and dd said i've to eat and try almost everything to get my tummy used to it for its already kinda screwed. its like i eat weird stuffs that people wouldnt like eating it and i don't eat the kinda food that people find joy eating it. walked around the club and i love the swimming pool (: *i wana go swimming again!* couldnt do much for its already late and everywhere's closed. sent cheryl home and i fell sick again. this time had fever and feeling way horrible//

#o4o7'Tuesday - waffles day; went to town and met up with amelia and glenda in the evening after their work. poor girls looking all tired. had our all time favourite at the usual place. chatted and slack before they head for home. wanted to hunt for presents for brother and mummy but wasnt feeling well again thus heading back to rest//

#o7o7'Friday - brother's back from reservist; thou i missed him but having him around means losing my peaceful moments at home. initially was suppose to meet up with mummy in the evening for shopping but i had a sudden migrane attack thats freaking bad and terrible. couldnt get to sleep in the night as the pain was killing; aint no panadol at home = sucky. beared the pain and mummy helped to messaged my head. boyyy can you imagine it was so bad that i had giddy spells as well. freak it//

#o8o7'Saturday - celebrated brother's birthday in advance and dd brought us for lunch at "Lawry's" located at Paragon, together with cheryl.

simply love their ambience and the service delivered was good; dining at such place definately aint cheap. their staff uniform was unique as well rather different from other restaurant but a pity i didnt take a snapshot of it. dd ordered beef for me as i'm an idiot when comes to deciding what to eat.

was yummy and freaking beef was really tender; couldnt finish up and brother helped me with my remainders. gosh and a dish like this cost 5obucks. must be some expensive cow they serve` LOL! ..and dd's total damage came to 25o bucks; lucky they had some promotion going on otherwise it sure do gona be way expensive.

went shopping with dd and mummy after lunch while brother went elsewhere. parents bought me a shoe and its rather cute *thanks dd & mummy* shopping on a saturday afternoon when there's sale going on is definately crazy for its hell crowded and i do get irritated. shopped around for brother's last min present hunting and finally bought him a wallet together with a belt as well as royce choco. gawd brother your present is killing me leaving me a half brokie` but its alright; birthdays comes once in a year (: mummy bought him a cake while i did the choosing of flavours for him - his all time favourite, chocolate. heh. (:

was spot check by mummy of what was i wearing before i left the house. lucky i was clever to wear different outfit; wasnt suppose to be out when i'm sick but parents just gave in to me. met up with glenda and her friend ping ping(i think) in the night at M.O.S. saw phyllis quek parking her car inside the carpark; seems haolian to me. anyway partied with her other friends. crazy bunch of girls whom i don't know but was fun clubbing with them. as usual was freaking packed inside and hot like suana. guys in there were even suckier = CMI. as thou they were some hungry ghost trying hard for their luck. didnt drink but only fruit punch for i was still sick and maybe i shall put ~~alcohol a past tense~~? haha. ~~saw him again~~ with that usual cap of his at a distance and he saw me as well. am always bumping into him in clubs and i cnt be bothered anymore. saw his stupid evo at the carpark as well. *thanks sweets for the ride home (:* homed at 4 and brother was up playing mahjong with his friends; lucky i was smart to bring out another jacket to cover up my clubbing otherwise i'll be nagged by him again and exposing me//

- tired her yet a happy girl; in need for sleep`

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* CWei ; dont MIA with ur work; meet up soon!

* Ling ; time to meet up after you quit your job. havent seen you for ages ever since ah ma's funeral? i miss u tons man. *hugs!

* Brother Bear; sorry havent been answering your calls. heh. i'll fix a date asap to meet up okay (:

* thanks brother for buying me my favourite; tau huey with no syrup added with soya bean (:

* thanks dd and mummy for everything you have given us; pampering us with all the love and making us feel blessed, giving your best in providing us a comfort life *muacks! (:

introducing her new pet fishy; little goldie

//she'll be back with more snaps in the next entry